Guess What Day it Is! Happy Hump Day!

Hi Trish....off the tracks here....didn't even comment to you this time only myself!! 

I am glad your mom has to keep her appointment. You are right, they need to see her to address the issues. I am  praying for her and you and your sister! Your sister should also address the fact about your mother driving her car. If she is too shaky to drive she shouldn't be. Not only for herself but other people as well. I am glad I made the decision to give up my car when I did. My thinking wasn't clear and I was shaky as well. 

I hope your appointment with your hematologist went well.

I am sure your class will look wonderful when you are done. You are so consider and so kind to be decorating for them.

Love you....HUGS....connie d

Hello Trish, Eileen and all my sweet sistas!

Welcome, Moxie!  Hope you will stick around and post more often.

So, I finally have my laptop hooked up and connected to the internet, so I have a chance to really post.  This has been a hella week so far.  Whew.  Lord give me the strength I need to do all of this.

Butch has been sick as a dog today.  My poor darling.  He threw up and threw up this morning: in the car, in hallway at MDA, in the bathroom.  And of course, I didn't have an zofran with me!  Why I didn't think to stick a couple of tabs in my purse for emergencies, I don't know.  Anyway, it was a very rough morning for him.  He had the same thing last Sunday, too.  He just wakes up nauseous and it's awful for him.

So he started his radiation treatments yesterday.  They couldn't work him in on Monday because he already had so many other appointments already scheduled for that day.  We did get to see the pain doctor and we talked a LONG time with them about all the side effects he has been having from the morphine.  So they have cut his dose in half and we're seeing if he can manage with that.  But he's just so weak now and so tired all the time.  He has no appetite and I practically have to force him to eat a few bites at every meal.  And now he's throwing up and he really doesn't want to eat.  It's just a vicious downhill cycle.  Once it starts, I really don't know how you ever stop it.  

But, we have to hope and pray that the radiation will help with the pain.  Then we can reduce the pain meds.  

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Oh, I got all interrupted.  Sorry.  Well, anyway, like I was saying, I'm really counting on the radiation therapy to reduce his pain levels and then hopefully things will start to get better.

So, I have spoken with the developer about the duplexes, and actually all of the duplexes in that one subdivision have already sold.  That's phases I and II.  They will be starting Phase III, but not until several months, with a potential move in date of Oct or Nov 2015.  However, he's starting yet another brand new duplex subdivision this month, with move in ready date of July.  That sounds much better to me.  So we'll see how it all works out.  I'm going to meet with him in a couple of weeks when we get back from Houston and go see the site, etc.  If I still like Creekside better, I will just have to wait.  But maybe I'll like the new site just as well or even better.  I won't worry about it right now.

Butch's brother and his wife (the ones who live in Nacogdoches) came down to visit with him yesterday.  And his sister (who also lives in Nacogdoches) is coming down to see him today.  I understand that they are all very concerned and want to see him, but he's just really too tired and sick for so much company right now.  Sandy and Karen (the brother and wife we are staying with) are just falling all over themselves to feed us, help us, entertain us, etc., but they are finally beginning to realize just how very sick he is and that he just really needs rest and quiet more than anything else right now.  Karen has cooked so much food!  But Butch has no appetite and y'all know how little food I eat.  It's hard for her to understand why we're not eating more of the food she cooks.  I keep telling her not to bother cooking a big new meal every night.  We can easily munch on leftovers for days.

I guess I need to tell her about my WLS and then maybe she would understand, but I just haven't told any of Butch's family about it.  I just didn't feel like it was anyone's business, you know?

Talked to my Carrie a little while ago and she said she was feeling pretty depressed lately.  I said, "Are you still taking your anti-depressant?" and she said she had run out.  I told her to call and make an appointment to go back to the health center TODAY!  Lord, that's all we need right now is for her to crash, too.  

Chris seems to be doing okay.  In a way it's good that she doesn't face reality too fully right now.  It's like she's wrapped herself in a protective bubble, but at least she's functioning.  If both girls crash on me right now, I don't know what I'll do!

Well, I need to close.  Trish, I'm praying for you and your Sis and your mom.  I think of all of you every day.  Love you much!

Hi Vickie...I am so sorry Butch is feeling so ill. Can he drink protein drinks? They would probably make him sick as well. I will keep praying that he gets over that nausea soon and gets some much needed energy back. God Bless you both. I love you much!!!  

I am so glad you are checking out the new duplex's. I hope the July one works out for you. 

I am sure Butch's  family is trying to make sure you are fed. I agree...tell them Butch isn't eating and you are just too concerned about him to eat much. You don't have to mention the surgery at all. It is up to you. 

I am sorry to hear Carrie is having  depression issues. I think it is a great idea for her to talk to her doctor about what is going on in your family. She will need her medications. This situation causes a lot of stress=depression. She should keep some meds on hand for the next few months. Chris is probably doing what she needs to do to cope. I am concerned about her and how she will handle things at the end. I also worry about you. I know how hard this is on you, trying to keep the boat afloat!! God Bless your whole family!!! 

Keeping you right here inside my heart!!   

Like always...I am here for you always!!!

Loads of love and oodles of hugs.....connie d

Vic,

I am so sorry that Butch is so sick.  I know how hard that is on you and how hard it is on him too.   When Kenny was being treated for his cancer, I didn't think I could take another day of his projectile vomiting and then he would have some good days.   I would keep a few of his nausea meds in your purse so that even when you are at the hospital and they don't provide his meds fast enough, you can give it to him.   That's how I did Kenny during his transplant...the nurse gave him such a small dose of pain medication and his eye was killing him so I brought out the large dose that he had been on before the surgery and it worked.   I told them about it too and they said don't do that again and I said, I'm not letting my best friend and the love of my life suffer.   I feel so bad for you and your girls and I am sure they are trying to deal with all of this the best way that they know how.   In the end, my friend, you will be the arms to carry your daughters and your husband and in the very end, I just hope one of your girls can carry you for a while.   If I were there, like all your friends here, I would put you to bed and give you rest and I would take care of Butch for you...I still have some nursing skills from those years back.   Keep your chin up and try to eat a little food and drink some water so you don't run down too.  

Thank you, Jeannie!  The support of my friends here carries me through on many many days.  You are a tough lady to stand up to the nurses the way you do.  I, too, have done a few things and have been told "Don't do that!"  Well, hell.  If THEY were the ones suffering, I'll bet they would do the same thing.  Sometimes I think the shell that the doctors and nurses have grown to protect themselves is a little too hard.  They forget to have compassion. I'm glad to have you remind me I have to be strong enough to be an advocate for my husband and to protect him when necessary.  It's good to know I am not alone.  Thank you.