Tuesday morning-how are you?
Good morning sistas!
Had a rough couple of days, but I'm doing better now. Between being scared, overwhelmed, and the headache from hell, I didn't have much positive to say, but I have myself back under control today.
We finally have a tentative appointment date at MDAnderson. They gave us a date of July 31st. That's a bit longer than we were hoping for! I'm going to call Butch's original doctor (back in Nacogdoches) who treated him for the prostate cancer and see if he can get us a quicker appointment time than that. But regardless, we are IN and I thank God for that.
Some of you know that I am an only child, so I really don't understand sibling relationships all that well, but Butch's sister drove down from Austin to see him on Sunday. And now his next youngest brother (they are very close) is driving down from Nacogdoches to see him tomorrow. I'm trying to tell myself that this is a good thing. But part of me feels like THEY feel like they'd better come see him NOW before it's too late. That's crazy on my part, right? They're just showing support. Somebody clue me in on this.
I need to talk about my eating for a minute. I have just gone nuts with the eating the past few days. I've eaten cookies and candy bars and all sorts of crap that I haven't touched in years, since my WLS. Hell, yesterday I stopped and bought a donut. I don't eat donuts anymore! I recognize what I'm doing. I am falling back on my traditional method of self-soothing my emotions, but I really don't want to do this to myself! And worse, I'm hiding it. I eat in the car where no one can see me. Ugh. I am so messed up in the head when it comes to comfort foods!
At the same time, I am doing everything I can to feed Butch healthy foods. Cancer is a sugar-feeder, and so I have "banned" all sugar from the house. Which means I have hidden my sugar. More bad behavior. And it's easy to do because Butch is more or less confined to his recliner in the living room. Not much chance of being "caught", you know?
Well, there you have it. I'm certifiable, and no WLS in the world can alter one's brain, can it?
I was glad to hear a bit of good news about Judy's mom yesterday. Judy, I'm still praying for you and your mom daily. I really can't remember all the posts yesterday, but I do recall that Connie had a pain-free day, and that was wonderful!
I'll keep posting updates as we find things out. Please pray for my husband. He has such a wonderful spirit. And he's so ready to fight. I must be ready to fight, too.
I love you all.
Vickie
Good morning Vickie and everyone.....
Vickie...first thing..... God Bless you and Butch!! I pray and pray and pray for Butch and you too my sweet friend!!
No you are not CRAZY for feeling that way about the visiting. You have every right to feel the way you do about all this family coming around now. It might seem that way. Maybe they are just feeling bad that they haven't seen him enough. I think they are just trying to show you and Butch that they will be there for support. I see why you feel like you do. Sending many hugs and lots of love to you! I am HERE for you!!!!! 
As for the eating....I am right there with you. I have been eating so bad lately....I know it is wrong....it has become my comfort. I know once my stress settles down I will do better again. I know you normally eat very healthy. You will be okay. Just do the best you can. Things will get better and you will get back on track again. You are just so overwhelmed and don't know which way to run. I think you will get back to your normal eating soon. Don't be so hard on yourself. 
I am glad you are feeling better and your headache is gone. I have been so worried about you. I wish I could just be there and give you a HUGE HUG!!!
As for me....yesterday evening was crazy....I spent hours on the phone trying to straighten out Kyleigh's phone bill. I got disconnected and had to call back three times. My phone is so touchy. If I let it touch my ear or cheek it will disconnect. We finally got it figured out at almost 8:00 PM. In her favor!!! I don't know what that girl would do without me!!
Wishing you a beautiful day!!!
Praying for our special OFF family.
Lots of love and hugs to all.....connie d
We now have a confirmed appointment for Monday, July 28th at MDA! That's four days sooner than our tentative appointment, so praise God for that!
They said for us to plan to be there 3-5 business days while they do all the necessary testing, scans, lab work, etc.
We are making progress. Thank you for the support and prayers, sistas! Please keep 'em coming!
Vickie
Post Scriptum: I booked us a suite at the Rotary House International, which is owned and operated by MDA. It's directly across the street from the hospital and has a skywalk connecting the hotel and the hospital together. This means I can park once and then just wheel Butch back and forth as needed for his appointments and testing.
It's a bit more expensive, but worth it for this initial visit I think. Plus it has a recliner in the living room area, and that's worth gold to us right now. The only place Butch is comfortable right now is in his recliner. And it has a kitchenette.
We won't be able to afford to stay there for weeks on end, but it will be perfect for this first visit.
One more detail out of the way. Whew!
Vickie
Vickie....I am so glad Butch's appointment got changed. That is great news!!
I agree also with your plan to stay at the place across from the hospital. That is wonderful. You both want this initial visit to be as comfortable and easy as can be for both of you. Good choice!!!
Love ...hugs....prayers....connie d
Vic...IF you WANT/NEED sweet foods etc get fruits...hell I just ate a whole watermelon myself!!!!!! YES MYSELF!!!!! Was it candy? NO!!!! Was it a bag of chips? NO!!!! Get GOOD foods in the house hat will replace the WRONG foods and EAT THOSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (coming from a foodaholic here) We are ALL here for you sweetie!!!! HAPPY that you got Butch an appointment that fast!!!! Might seem like its far away but really it isn't!!! Hang in there!!! Prayers continue for you both!!! Oh as for family...it IS called SUPPORT!!!!
HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
Afternoon OFF family...well my day is busy as ever!!! Trying to get my new tenants lease here and I am STILL waiting for the office to finalize it!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR WTH are they waiting for Christmas????? Holly KNOWS she wants to move in today!!!! SIGHS..........
Carpet cleaners were here today for 2 apartments...YES!!!!!!!!!!!! Got a new application sent in and was approved....YES!!!!!!!! That leaves one more for this side!!!!!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have a headache from hell.........NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OK back to work.........LOL
Thoughts and Prayers for ALL that need them!!!!
HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
Hi Vickie and my OFF family:
Vickie, I think Butch's siblings visiting him is sweet. They're showing support. I have three siblings, and if they were doing that for me, I'd love it (two would do it, my sister wouldn't). Glad to see you got an earlier appointment.
Got up way too early today ... very sleepy. I have an appointment this afternoon with a new psychologist. I hope this works because I really need help dealing with my stress eating. Also got a call from the bariatrics unit. They said I'd have to pay a fee to get transferred in. So I don't know if that's an option. After the psych appt., I'm going to the chiropractor. I want to get Richard out in the next two days. If not to urgent care, there's a free clinic I found. He needs to get to a doctor and get his meds. I'm worried he's stretching out his meds and that's what's making him loopy and not sleeping. He's not taking care of himself because he's depressed and someone needs to watch him. I guess that's me right now.
I'm really sleepy so I think I'll take a nap before my appointment. Have a good day.
