Thursday Morning
Afternoon OFF family!!! LMAO @ Vicki!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
She is finally knowing me as the mean nurse that I am!!!!! (not a real nurse but family that I have taken care of has called me nurse Ratchett!!!) So you go shopping and have fun...THAT is NOT BENDING and STRETCHING in ALL directions!!!!!!!!!! 
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Well the funeral will be Saturday morning at the same time I was supposed to take Bandit to the vet so I changed that appointment so we could go to it. Going to be awful sad!!!!
Was Head ***** In Charge today!!!! Had help from Police also!!!! Kicked one of the tenants out of another tenants apartment per her request!!! She is in the nursing home and wants him out of hers!!!!! Seems he signed for 180 Percocet pills earlier this month and they are all missing!!! They have him on video signing for them and she never got them!!! SOOOOOOOOOO she is in nursing home right now and wants no more to do with him!!!!! I told her if I do this he is NEVER to go back in there!!!! She said OK!!! SO I called police for backup and got him out!!!! Rick changed the lock and now if he goes in we get him for B&E!!!!!! How do you like me now??? 
Went to see about health insurance today...Rick got it!!!!! Not me...they said I make too much for Medicaid. I get a survivors benefit every month that puts me over. What they DIDN'T tell me is they also have an expanded benefit that I qualify for!!! So I tried calling that woman back but she was already gone today. So hopefully she calls me back tomorrow morning!!! WTH????? But I also called the 800 # she gave me and he tried helping me find some insurance...told him I needed cateract surgery blah blah blah...anyhow he gave me the info...by the time I pay the deductible I might as well pay for the dam surgery out of pocket myself!!!!!!!!!! WTH???? I told him I do not go to the dr a lot nor do I take a lot of medications....where do they think people get money from???? A tree?????? SOOOO if I can't get any help OBAMA can KMA!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will pay the dam fine!!!!!!!!!
Making some chicken for the salad tomorrow for BINGO. Didn't tell one of the tenants because then she WOULD show up for sure just to EAT!!!!!!!!!!! OMG would she EAT!!!!!!!!! Not bring any food to share nor would she donate money or play a lot either...just EAT!!!!!!!!!! Nor would she help clean up!!!!!!!
OK need to go check on my chicken and make the salad...
Connie...you down in the dumps because I have not been sending any cowboys?????? 
Thoughts and Prayers for ALL that need them!!!!
HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
Good afternoon Trish and everyone....
I want to explain some of what is happening. I was sexually abuse by an older brother from about 3 to about 9 years old. I am actually reliving all those memories when I sleep. I physically feel the pain. I wake up crying and I can hardly walk. It is something that happened before and I worked all through it in therapy. They are not sure what is causing this to return now. We don't know what the trigger is. This is way more then just being blue. I have to work through it again. It makes me afraid to sleep. I feel physically ill.
Please send prayers, good vibes or what ever you can do. Hopefully we can get this where it needs to be and that is out of my head!
I care so much about all of you....I will try to be back as I can. I do read your posts. I am just struggling so hard to concentrate.
Still sending prayers for all of our awesome OFF family.
So much love and many hugs to all...connie d
Dear Connie, how terrible to have to live with those memories. Of course am sending you a big encircling comforting hug, long distance. You have my best vibes, thoughts, emotional energy, even prayers, as you definitely deserve empathy from all of us because you do so much for us...now is our turn to give to you! Wishing you strength to beat down this demon caused by your brother.
Jennifer
