Tearful Tuesday (JK!)
Good morning sistas, and a tear filled morning it is, too! Benny is determined to cry about everything today. Lord help! I love the little bugger, but I'm ready for him to be gone. Thank goodness Butch is so patient and unflappable.
Budder, on the other hand, is just full of smiles and sweetness today.
Now, listen up (especially YOU, Miss Connie!): if I didn't want y'all to comment or make suggestions about certain things, I wouldn't post about them. I do NOT mind when y'all make suggestions, nor do I mind when you tell me your opinions. I love and value each of you and that includes your thoughts on my rather chaotic and stressful life! If there's something in my life that is so personal that I don't want you to comment on, I won't post about it. Deal? Deal!
Okay, so now that that's cleared up, how is everyone today? It's is cold as a witch's tittie here this morning! I am ready for spring! I'm ready to go boating and tubing and plant flowers and all that fun stuff.
The house hunt continues. Every day I check the listings. One of these days, we'll find the right one.
So Butch and I have to pick the kids up again this evening. It's definitely a two-man job to get both of them. But Chris and Mike get off at 6 p.m., so they'll be home early enough to help with the nighttime routine tonight. I am planning on making Reuben sandwiches for supper, but I doubt I eat much of mine. I usually only eat half of one anyway. I just don't know what to think about my stomach hurting after every meal. I guess I need to go consult my WLS, but it's a long drive to Houston.
Anyway, today I plan to eat yogurt and cottage cheese and things like that during the day.
Well, I hope everyone is feeling well and I hope y'all manage to stay warm today! Judy, I worry about you and all that snow and ice. Seems like you are really catching it where you live. Connie, I hope you stay in and work puzzles and keep warm today too. Jo, we haven't heard much from you lately. Are you still keeping the triplets? Jennifer, we love you and are praying for you. Let us hear what is going on with you and your treatment plan. Eileen, you are too quiet these days. Cindy, Cindi, Debbie, Carla, et. al., join in today and tell us what is happening with you!
Love you all!
Vickie
Hi Vickie and Carla, and my OFF family to come:
It's 10 degrees here this morning. I don't have to go out, and don't intend to. I was going to make salsa chicken, but I'm missing one of the ingredients. So I'll figure something else out. It's my weekend. I don't plan on doing much. I started doing the laundry and may do a little cleaning.
Tomorrow I have to go to the doctor. Indiana has a new law as far as painkillers go. You have to sign a pain agreement and agree to all sorts of things to get your drugs. Geez, I'm a criminal for this, too, as well as decongestants. Plus, I have to agree to random drug screens. And on top of that, they changed my drugs because of the amount of tylenol in the drug is now considered too high. So I had to get a new script. I ran out of my prescription, had the drug refilled in plenty of time, but because of these new rules, I ran out. So anyway, I have to go to the doctor to sign this pain agreement because some people abuse painkillers (not me).
Sorry if I don't post too much anymore. Some days I can barely get going to get to work. I read everyday when I can. I'm feeling lost and alone here. I know I have you folks here, but I really need to find some friends in Evansville. Or something to do. Judy, I know you suggested filing for disability, but I'd have to be off work to do that and I don't have a cushion to do that. If I got laid off again, I would do it for sure, because I'd have unemployment. But I don't have any funds set aside to do that, other than the money I get from my pension monthly (which isn't enough) and what I've put into my 401k (still not enough). Need to keep working and saving into the 401k for awhile. I've upped that saving again.
Anyway, hope everyone has a good day. Stay warm.
Eileen -- do you have short-term and long-term disability at work? Most employers carry that. I had a lot of medical issues - finally after spending a whole day in tears at my desk, I just said enough. I couldn't take it any more. Went home and never returned. I went on short-term disability, then long-term through my employer. And as soon as I stopped working, I applied for Social Security Disability, which was approved on my first try. Long-term disability covered me until I got the Social Security benefits.
Cold, cold, cold weather -- this is a tough winter. Vickie- Good thing I wasn't drinking my tea when I read your note about the "witches titties"! Had to go out today, and after stopping f******y car wouldn't start -- had to have my battery jumped. Then drove straight to car supply store - they checked battery and said it needed to be charged, not replaced. Bought a battery charger because this happened once before, and I don't want to get stuck. I do have AAA, but there's always a long wait before they show up. I was "freezing my buns" off while I was out!!
I am jealous of everyone who is in a warmer climate!! 
Have a good day everyone!
Still learning. Currently in pre-op stage.
Hello OFF family, had my visit with oncologist again.
Results from California lab came in last week and she phoned them to me after hours on her own time last week and we discussed more today plus she had paper copies for me. Seems I am not quite in mid-rating, but close to it , if I want chemo can have it but the benefit would maybe be 2%. If I skip chemo and go on to radiation and antihormonals I would have statistically 14% chance recurrence, with chemo that would be reduced to 12% using the TC ****tail....so not much difference. Without chemo I still have a good 85-86 % chance of cancer never coming back. And for 2 % am willing to gamble and skip the chemo as the bone pain, lethargy, destroyed immune system, isolation from groups of people and social events, weight gain because of steroids ( including Prednizone) to reduce pain and nausea, definite hairloss, and toxicity to liver and lungs, and other nasties don't make it worth the minuscule benefit. The oncologist was not surprised at my decision but needed to be sure I made an enlightened decision.
Thought I would start on radiation next week, but noooo, have to for a bone density test, did one several years ago but they need a newer one as baseline because the meds cause boneloss. I have to meet with radiologist again, and probably attend some group info session on radiation treatments at the cancer clinic as well.....Is there light at the end of the tunnel one of these days?
Plus I have a headcold so today wore a mask so as not to breathe on anyone at the cancer clinic...our hospitals provide them free at the door, so swiped a handful...dont want to be responsible for killing someone with a compromised immune system by giving them my cold. And by going to radiation instead of chemo first, it wont be so terrible if I get a cold whereas on chemo, I could wind up with pneumonia in hospital! i had a flu shot this winter, and it seems the only winters I get sick are when I get the shot, so most years I dont, and have been snifflefree for the last 4 years....got my flu shot 3 weeks ago, and wham, am blowing my brains out and feeling miserable...plus I have an IBS flare-up from stress deciding on chemo or not. Oncologist today said I will have many more decisions to make along the line, so maybe my Rosacea will flare-up again from stress and I will have zits as well. Seeing my Detmatologist tomorrow so will ask for scrip in case that happens...
it is freezing here despite full sun, so am off to make a thick nourishing soup and take a nap. Not going to the pool until I shake this cold. More cocooning, and I am looking after 2 apts whose residents are off in sunnier places for a month, one to Spain, and the other to Barbados....I too am terribly jealous of their sunny destinations as I seem to be cold all the time, wear shrugs and have the heating up to alltime highs....
That soup is calling to me....
hugs to all. Tomorrow is bound to be a better day!
Jennifer
Jennifer:
Sorry you are going through all this. I wish there was something I could do to cheer you up ... send you a ray of sunshine ... Juliette is always doing something goofy. Or if my grandnephew was doing something goofy, I could send you him (or a video) ... he always makes me laugh (he's 9 ... what a goofball!) Cancer is such a nasty thing, it shouldn't happen to nice people. I'm still so sad about Annette ... she was such an angel, taking in all those cats and all.
All I can send you is a cyberhug (well, the smiley maker won't let me put it in there ... it's a giant hug with a lot of afghans and sunshine).
Good Afternoon Vickie and OFF Family,
I was at Colleen's all morning, till 1:00 this afternoon. When I got there it was 6 below zero. Now it's 7 above, but the wind chill is way below zero. All the schools are closed, except the college Colleen teaches for. Just got a call that my Bible study is canceled tonight. The church's furnace isn't working, and is in the process of being repaired.
Since all the kids' school are closed, I had all three Munchkins this morning. Frankie threw a few fits, because Lincoln and I wouldn't let him play with the two balls that go with the Mousetrap game. Lincoln had fun making the balls roll and drop the Mousetrap.
I was supposed to go to the dentist this afternoon, but I have a low grade fever, and I can't get my nose to stop running. It's so sore.
My house looks like a tornado blew through here. And, I don't have the energy to do anything about it.
I've got to scoot. I'd like to address everyone's posts today, but my brain is Jello.
Hugs and Love,
Trish
Albert Schweitzer
