SURREAL!!!!!!!!!!

OMG I really cannot believe this transformation!!!  I have lost 97 lbs since Nov. 1st, and am 6 lbs below my revised lower goal!!!  This is totally surreal.  I never thought in a million years that I could weight 132 lbs, and still be losing.  It's crazy, wonderful, and thrilling.  I am in the "normal" BMI range.  Amazing!  I think I could actually get to an even 100 weight loss soon - that's insane!

A few months ago, I was ecstatic to get into size 12 jeans (I was wearing size 22 pants last fall).  This past weekend I bought a pair of jeans that are size 4 (!!!!!!!) and several other pants in a size 6.  Me, in a size 4 !?!?!  WTF??  Everyone at work has been so incredibly complimentary.  Every day people say that they just can't believe the change in how I look, and my new happy, glowing demeanour.  They seem as freaked out as me.

Does the hanging, wrinkly skin on my thighs and arms gross me out?  Of course.  Does my flabby butt disgust me?  Sure it does.  But what a difference to now live in this body (and head space) versus the former body and mind when I was morbidly obese.  The constant (and I do mean constant) degrading, vile self-talk in my head of how much I hated and loathed myself, and how pathetic I was because I wasn't able to control my eating has stopped.  That's a huge relief. 

I now wake up every morning and instead of thinking "How can I possibly make it through the day looking and feeling like this?", I now do a quick physical check to make sure I haven't dreamed it all.  Once I've reassured myself that this is, in fact, my new reality, I am ready to face the day's challenges.

My energy level is through the roof.  It's certainly due to carrying around a lot less weight, but also, it's a mental thing, and I'm eating SO DAMN HEALTHY!!! 

This surgery was one of the BEST decisions I have ever made, and I am so incredibly thankful.  I just hope that I have the fortitude and resolve to maintain this for the rest of my life.  I've wasted too many decades already, and need to make up for lost time.

Congratulations Annie.  That's exciting.  I'm sure you will continue to experience the blessings of this wonderful miracle.

Keep up the great work.

Hugs,

Trish