SCARED
Last week I went in for my pap test...it came back HIGH GRADE ATYPIA and now I need to have a colposcopy done to see if I have cancer now. Not sure if I spelled them right or not but its close enough to get the point across. I am scared to death and so depressed right now I am not myself. I can't even sleep. I went back home for a few days and I couldn't even be around my family. All i did was stay in the motel room with Rick and lay around doing nothing. Fours days away from here and did not enjoy it at all. All I can think of is do I have cancer?? My mom and sister had cancer of the vulva and now I am having this scare. It might be nothing more than an infection but like I said...I am scared to death!!!!!!! Ever since my mom had this cancer and then a few months later my sister got it...I have been scared to death of me getting it and now this...my worst nightmare....help me get through this...please!!!! How can I get this out of my head????? I go for this test on the 4th. How can I get through the days and nights until then???? Its ALL I can think about!!!!! I have tried doing puzzles, talking with Rick and still I go into depression and think do I have this cancer?????? God I hope not!!!! I do NOT have health insurance and have no idea how I can afford to go through this with out it!!! My head hurts just thinking about it right now!!! I am trying to think positive lie my mom said but the doubt it is still there...so scared......
Judy…fear is your worst enemy. Stop…..take a deep breath and calm yourself down. Worry does not do any good. You need to let go and just realize that you are so lucky that there is a test that can find these things and give you a “head’s up, let’s look at this!”
Speak to your doctor and ask questions. There is always a protocol to these things. Knowledge is power. Take comfort in knowing that the doctor knows and will have procedures in mind to curtail this. Have him explain this to you NOW.
I also suggest that you call the place where the test will be and ask to be put on the Cancellation list…then, if someone cancels out, you get their spot earlier.
Stress (worry, fear, drama) reduces your resiliency and your immune system. So be PRO-ACTIVE and fill your mind with POSITIVE thoughts. Savour every day and live in the moment. By worrying about the future, you are wasting your present.
This is my third time fighting cancer and I ask a lot of questions. I can deal with anything if I understand how it works. And then I decide how to respond to this . Do I choose to be hysterical or do I choose to take my power and make the best day out of everyday by living positive. Yes, being scared is natural but then you need to decide how you will react or respond. It’s YOUR choice how to handle this. I chose to deal with the cancer step by step with dignity and courage. You can too.
Nancy B
Judy, I agree with everything Nancy said. A lot of us on here have been through cancer!! We have survived.
You didn't say whether your Mom and Sister had successful treatment.
When my cancer was found the doc had me in for a liver resection within a week. Since your colonoscopy was not scheduled til next month they must not think it is life threatening at the moment.
I can also say don't worry, but it is very hard to do. You need to find something to lose your head in. Crochet, sewing, a good book, a favorite movie. Anything that will give you some peace.
But also, research. There must be many new treatments since your Mom and Sis went through their episodes.
No insurance? Have you looked into Medicaid!?
We are here for you dearest Judy. You KNOW Rick is there for you. But men need to be told what you need. If you just want to be held, tell him that! If you want to cry, tell him to let you. If you want to go out to a wacky movie, I'm sure he will go with you!
My prayers are with you.
You didn't say whether your Mom and Sister had successful treatment.
When my cancer was found the doc had me in for a liver resection within a week. Since your colonoscopy was not scheduled til next month they must not think it is life threatening at the moment.
I can also say don't worry, but it is very hard to do. You need to find something to lose your head in. Crochet, sewing, a good book, a favorite movie. Anything that will give you some peace.
But also, research. There must be many new treatments since your Mom and Sis went through their episodes.
No insurance? Have you looked into Medicaid!?
We are here for you dearest Judy. You KNOW Rick is there for you. But men need to be told what you need. If you just want to be held, tell him that! If you want to cry, tell him to let you. If you want to go out to a wacky movie, I'm sure he will go with you!
My prayers are with you.
Grammylew in Jax
Dear Judy,
I have not had cancer, but have had close friends who have had, or still have it. They got through it with their faith, and by staying calm. I know you have faith in the Lord. Now is the time to trust Him, and lean on Him. Calm yourself, like Nancy has suggested. Read Psalm 139 in the Bible. The Lord loves you so much, He will be your Rock to get you through this.
I'm praying for you.
Hugs,
Trish
I have not had cancer, but have had close friends who have had, or still have it. They got through it with their faith, and by staying calm. I know you have faith in the Lord. Now is the time to trust Him, and lean on Him. Calm yourself, like Nancy has suggested. Read Psalm 139 in the Bible. The Lord loves you so much, He will be your Rock to get you through this.
I'm praying for you.
Hugs,
Trish
Seek always to do some good, somewhere. Every man has to seek in his own way to realize his true worth. You must give some time to your fellow man. For remember, you don't live in a world all your own. Your brothers are here too.
Albert Schweitzer
Albert Schweitzer
Judy....I am so sorry. What a horrible time for you!
I agree with all the others have said. Fear and worry doesn't help anything. Easier said then done I know!
Why are they waiting so long to see you....I would demand to be seen sooner. Good Luck!!
I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. I am always here if you need me.
Much love and many hugs....connie d
I agree with all the others have said. Fear and worry doesn't help anything. Easier said then done I know!
Why are they waiting so long to see you....I would demand to be seen sooner. Good Luck!!
I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. I am always here if you need me.
Much love and many hugs....connie d
Oh, Judy! Hugs, hugs, hugs! You know we all love you!
Like Trish, I have not personally had cancer, but my husband has been through it twice. And I've been through it with my mom and my dad. Cancer is NOT always a death sentence--especially when it is found early! You must get hold of yourself, and you MUST turn your thoughts around. Yes, it's scary, but you are a strong person. You can deal with this.
I agree that knowledge is power. You must educate yourself. No one will be a bigger advocate for your health than your own self. Yes, you might learn some scary facts, but you will also learn of many, many survivors and realize that many people now beat cancer everyday. Start with the American Cancer Society website.
And Nancy is absolutely right about calling to see if you can get scheduled sooner. That is a great idea to get on the cancellation list.
Remember, God is in control and He will be with you always. We do not know why illnesses such as cancer occur, but it does no good to ask "why me?" Do not give in to fear and despair. (Yes, I know they are there in the back of your mind, but you are stronger than they are!) Instead know that you can and will do everything possible to fight your disease--assuming you even have cancer. Right now, you only have speculation about it. Remember this promise: "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
Love you, sweet friend!
Like Trish, I have not personally had cancer, but my husband has been through it twice. And I've been through it with my mom and my dad. Cancer is NOT always a death sentence--especially when it is found early! You must get hold of yourself, and you MUST turn your thoughts around. Yes, it's scary, but you are a strong person. You can deal with this.
I agree that knowledge is power. You must educate yourself. No one will be a bigger advocate for your health than your own self. Yes, you might learn some scary facts, but you will also learn of many, many survivors and realize that many people now beat cancer everyday. Start with the American Cancer Society website.
And Nancy is absolutely right about calling to see if you can get scheduled sooner. That is a great idea to get on the cancellation list.
Remember, God is in control and He will be with you always. We do not know why illnesses such as cancer occur, but it does no good to ask "why me?" Do not give in to fear and despair. (Yes, I know they are there in the back of your mind, but you are stronger than they are!) Instead know that you can and will do everything possible to fight your disease--assuming you even have cancer. Right now, you only have speculation about it. Remember this promise: "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
Love you, sweet friend!
Vickie
Judy, I can't say more than what has been said. I have never had cancer, but it runs in my family, so it scares me. I make sure to always have my yearly exams. A few years ago, my gyne thought she felt something near my ovaries. Since colon cancer and ovarian cancer are related, and since both run in my family, she wanted it checked. I worried about it for weeks because I couldn't get an appointment right away ... I had to wait for two weeks. Well, it turned out to be nothing. Actually, what I had was a cervical polyp, and that was something I wound up with for several years. Easily removed, nothing to worry about. Until it is tested and taken care, you shouldn't get worked up about it.
As for insurance, this is why we need health care. Look into Medicaid. At least now your women's preventive care is covered. And this is because of the health care act that so many scorn.
As for insurance, this is why we need health care. Look into Medicaid. At least now your women's preventive care is covered. And this is because of the health care act that so many scorn.
Hi Judy,
I wish I had some miracle saying to sooth your mind! Try to put this in God's hands he will get you through this. It wouldn't hurt to take a little time and just cry, then pick yourself up and go forward. I also believe if it was serious they would have scheduled you right away.
Prayers and positive thoughts coming your way,
Debbie
I wish I had some miracle saying to sooth your mind! Try to put this in God's hands he will get you through this. It wouldn't hurt to take a little time and just cry, then pick yourself up and go forward. I also believe if it was serious they would have scheduled you right away.
Prayers and positive thoughts coming your way,
Debbie
"Nothing is impossible. The word itself says I'M POSSIBLE!!!"
"No one said it was going to be easy, but it will definitely be worth it"
Judy
Breathe
Right now you know nothing other than you have atypical cells. I know of lots of women who have had atypical cells and nothing else.
If you don't already know, learn how to do some muscle relaxation exercises - progressive muscle relaxation is something that I can suggest as I have often used it when I am anxious or when I can't sleep. Google it and you will find it. Meditation is also a good tool, but you have to really want to learn it and the best time to do that is when you don't need it! Look into it at some time.
You are making things worse for yourself by getting all worked up about this.
Like so many others here, I have had cancer - mine was breast cancer. At the time of my diagnosis, I was so busy opening a restaurant, that I paid more attention to the business than I did to worrying. The point that i want to make is to keep yourself busy and you will not have the time to worry so much.
We are all concerned about you and I am thinking good thoughts about you and your health. You have to work at this, too. As my father used to say, "don't borrow trouble". And remember to breathe
Margaret
Breathe
Right now you know nothing other than you have atypical cells. I know of lots of women who have had atypical cells and nothing else.
If you don't already know, learn how to do some muscle relaxation exercises - progressive muscle relaxation is something that I can suggest as I have often used it when I am anxious or when I can't sleep. Google it and you will find it. Meditation is also a good tool, but you have to really want to learn it and the best time to do that is when you don't need it! Look into it at some time.
You are making things worse for yourself by getting all worked up about this.
Like so many others here, I have had cancer - mine was breast cancer. At the time of my diagnosis, I was so busy opening a restaurant, that I paid more attention to the business than I did to worrying. The point that i want to make is to keep yourself busy and you will not have the time to worry so much.
We are all concerned about you and I am thinking good thoughts about you and your health. You have to work at this, too. As my father used to say, "don't borrow trouble". And remember to breathe
Margaret
Judy, my heart goes out to you. Listen to the OFF Sistas who are cancer survivors and the advice they have given you....I am in awe of them....Totally undestand your reaction and feelings, but keep positive thoughts uppermost. Fingers crossed you get better news from test results than you are thinking of/expecting in dread right now!
Hugs
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