So exhausted!
Hello my OFF sistas!
Well, I think I may have bitten off more than I can chew this week--and I have a really BIG mouth! Oh, I am so tired. I'm more tired than I can remember being in a long, long time. I think it was a mistake to bring Benny home with us for this two weeks, but I honestly don't know what else we could have done. Butch and I are doing our best to tough it out, but Benny is throwing temper tantrums every few minutes (he's screaming right now), and let me tell you, it's very wearing on one's nerves.
We are making slow progress on getting the last things done before we get the house on the market. Frankly, I"m not sure we're going to make it. I think we could do it if we didn't have Benny Boy, but we do, so our progress is much impeded. Anyway, the Realtor is coming out next Wednesday with all the papers for us to sign to get the listing started. I sure hope we can manage to finish up what we need to do by the end of next week! It's going to be close.
I'm thinking about hiring a house cleaning service to come out here and do some of this detail work for me. I could do it if I didn't have to watch Benny, but as fast as I clean it up, he messes it up, you know? Butch is covered up with all his outside work, and I can't do a thing to help him with any of it. Basically, we are two old people in toddler hell! LOL!
So, I rarely get a minute to get on the computer these days, but I did want to say hi and let you all know I'm still kicking. Appreciate the sweet notes from some of you when I was sick last week. Thankfully, I'm doing better now. Only get dizzy every once in a while. I have to be very careful getting up--if I rise up too fast, that seems to trigger it.
Okay, I'd better go rescue Papaw--he's been on toddler duty for the past half hour. I'm sure his nerves are frazzled! I know mine sure as hell are.
Love you all!
Well, I think I may have bitten off more than I can chew this week--and I have a really BIG mouth! Oh, I am so tired. I'm more tired than I can remember being in a long, long time. I think it was a mistake to bring Benny home with us for this two weeks, but I honestly don't know what else we could have done. Butch and I are doing our best to tough it out, but Benny is throwing temper tantrums every few minutes (he's screaming right now), and let me tell you, it's very wearing on one's nerves.
We are making slow progress on getting the last things done before we get the house on the market. Frankly, I"m not sure we're going to make it. I think we could do it if we didn't have Benny Boy, but we do, so our progress is much impeded. Anyway, the Realtor is coming out next Wednesday with all the papers for us to sign to get the listing started. I sure hope we can manage to finish up what we need to do by the end of next week! It's going to be close.
I'm thinking about hiring a house cleaning service to come out here and do some of this detail work for me. I could do it if I didn't have to watch Benny, but as fast as I clean it up, he messes it up, you know? Butch is covered up with all his outside work, and I can't do a thing to help him with any of it. Basically, we are two old people in toddler hell! LOL!
So, I rarely get a minute to get on the computer these days, but I did want to say hi and let you all know I'm still kicking. Appreciate the sweet notes from some of you when I was sick last week. Thankfully, I'm doing better now. Only get dizzy every once in a while. I have to be very careful getting up--if I rise up too fast, that seems to trigger it.
Okay, I'd better go rescue Papaw--he's been on toddler duty for the past half hour. I'm sure his nerves are frazzled! I know mine sure as hell are.
Love you all!
I fully understand this bite of life you have bitten off. When we stayed with our oldest daughter after her divorce it was sometimes a total delight, but often a nightmare. We never seemed to anything correct or to her liking, even the smallest help she could so despise. She felt we were judging her ability to do what had to be done. We just wanted to help in any and all ways. Watching the Gkids was a delight. Grandfather had a special way with them, such patience and tolerance. They respected and did as he told them, always. Benny is caught up in this upheaval his life is going through. You and Butch want to do whatever you can, and it is VERY hard to take care and watch a toddler. Your day can be completely devoted to just him. But other aspects of life must be attended to and you have so much on your life plate now. Know you are thought of each day and prayers for you to have the strength and resilience to face each day and make it yours.
Hi Vickie,
Oh, you poor thing. I totally understand what you are talking about. I have had brief times when my grandson would pitch a fit when I was watching him. I vividly remember when he was born, I was watching Isabel while Mommy, Daddy and Lincoln were staying at the hospital, she wanted her Daddy late at night, and there was no satisfying her. I was beside myself. She barely knew me at the time, she was just two years old, and had only seen me a few times before that. I arrived in town the night before Lincoln was born.
Monica, my daughter finds fault with everything I do as well. When Lincoln was born, I could do nothing right. With Franklin, it was not much better. I guess I developed a tougher skin in the past two or so years. At least, this time, when I left, she apologized. I also was more empathetic. She was severely sleep deprived, and extremely hormonal.
Vickie, hang in there. I understand why you are doing what you are doing. I now I would do just about anything for one of my children if they have the need.
Hugs,
Trish
Oh, you poor thing. I totally understand what you are talking about. I have had brief times when my grandson would pitch a fit when I was watching him. I vividly remember when he was born, I was watching Isabel while Mommy, Daddy and Lincoln were staying at the hospital, she wanted her Daddy late at night, and there was no satisfying her. I was beside myself. She barely knew me at the time, she was just two years old, and had only seen me a few times before that. I arrived in town the night before Lincoln was born.
Monica, my daughter finds fault with everything I do as well. When Lincoln was born, I could do nothing right. With Franklin, it was not much better. I guess I developed a tougher skin in the past two or so years. At least, this time, when I left, she apologized. I also was more empathetic. She was severely sleep deprived, and extremely hormonal.
Vickie, hang in there. I understand why you are doing what you are doing. I now I would do just about anything for one of my children if they have the need.
Hugs,
Trish
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Vickie, I am keeping you and Papaw in my prayers!! You will make it through. Even though sometimes it sure doesn't feel like it!!
I did this for a year so I do understand. Gracie never threw tantrums...THANK GOD!! I loved being with her but I was physically and emotionally drained!!
Much love and many hugs to you.....connie d
I did this for a year so I do understand. Gracie never threw tantrums...THANK GOD!! I loved being with her but I was physically and emotionally drained!!
Much love and many hugs to you.....connie d
Oh, Vickie!! I so hope you and Papaw can weather this storm!! Don't let this entire thing get between you and Butch. I know you want to help as much as you can, and that's what Grammas are all about. But I also know you are already on shakey ground with your daughter. Kids pick up on stress. Your time with Butch is precious too, though. Sounds like you will be walking a tightrope for awhile. I know you are strong and can do it. I will be praying for you all!
When our grandson (the one that was just in military school) was born, I quit work to take care of him. I continued to care for him and then his sister, for 4 years when they moved to Portland. He used to throw fits and bite himself. My DH and I went nutso!! And I was only 47. If I had to do it now, I would go right over the top! My daughter was always supportive and adorable about everything though. And she paid me!
When our grandson (the one that was just in military school) was born, I quit work to take care of him. I continued to care for him and then his sister, for 4 years when they moved to Portland. He used to throw fits and bite himself. My DH and I went nutso!! And I was only 47. If I had to do it now, I would go right over the top! My daughter was always supportive and adorable about everything though. And she paid me!
Oh, my sweet friends! I knew you all would understand. I sure appreciate the support. We made some progress this weekend, at least on the inside of the house. Butch has FINALLY cleaned out his closet!!! Hooray! Took him two days to do it. I think he was surprised by how much stuff he had STUFFED in there!
Mom came out this afternoon and helped with Benny again. She has really been wonderful about babysitting, but of course, she's 83 and can only do so much. Still if she can keep Benny occupied for even just a couple of hours, I can get so much more done. I have finished the upstairs! Big sigh of relief! And I started on my sewing room this afternoon--just straightening and reorganizing and making things look as spacious and neat as possible.
Tomorrow I am going to do all my touch up painting and take Patty Kate to the vet for allergy testing. Tuesday I'm going to get my hair cut (finally!) and then spend the day washing my windows. Wednesday I have to take my car back to the shop and we're meeting with the Realtor in the afternoon. Thursday Butch goes to the doctor and I'm going to bush hog the pastures. And who know about Friday yet!?
Butch and Juan have a full week of hauling stuff away from here. I hope they make it! We hope to be able to leave here one week from today and go back to Hilltop. Christie was just in tears on the phone this morning, she's missing Benny so badly. And I feel sure some of his tantrums are due to him missing Mommy, too.
So, wish us luck. And say a prayer or two! We just have to be tough for one more week.
Love you all!
Mom came out this afternoon and helped with Benny again. She has really been wonderful about babysitting, but of course, she's 83 and can only do so much. Still if she can keep Benny occupied for even just a couple of hours, I can get so much more done. I have finished the upstairs! Big sigh of relief! And I started on my sewing room this afternoon--just straightening and reorganizing and making things look as spacious and neat as possible.
Tomorrow I am going to do all my touch up painting and take Patty Kate to the vet for allergy testing. Tuesday I'm going to get my hair cut (finally!) and then spend the day washing my windows. Wednesday I have to take my car back to the shop and we're meeting with the Realtor in the afternoon. Thursday Butch goes to the doctor and I'm going to bush hog the pastures. And who know about Friday yet!?
Butch and Juan have a full week of hauling stuff away from here. I hope they make it! We hope to be able to leave here one week from today and go back to Hilltop. Christie was just in tears on the phone this morning, she's missing Benny so badly. And I feel sure some of his tantrums are due to him missing Mommy, too.
So, wish us luck. And say a prayer or two! We just have to be tough for one more week.
Love you all!