What's Up Thursday?

Hi Trish...thanks so much for caring.

My daughter isn't bipolar that is my granddaughter in MN. Kyleigh is receiving help and is so much better!!

My daughter has changed for other reasons. She is being selfish and very self centered. She feels it is her time!!
To hell with anyone that gets in the way. She will not listen to anyone. She is not my daughter right now!!

I was an wonderful mother all their lives. They have always said that. They hoped they could be the mother I was to their children. We were close until this all happened. Now I don't know what to think.

My life is just a mess. I have a long way to go to get things straighted out and live a normal life again.

HUGS and many thanks again....connie d

 Oh Dear Connie,
How horrible.  While I am glad your granddaughter is getting the help she needs, I am saddened that your daughter has changed into such a selfish person.  You are right.  She is just evil right now.  I wonder if drugs or alcohol are involved in this personality change.  It would not excuse her behavior, but explain it.  The pity is she has alienated you, and is in the process of hurting her children, and it may be irrepairably.  

When I look back on my history, I remember when the scales came off my eyes and I could clearly see the wreckage I had caused.  I was so ashamed and truly believed that my kids would hate me.  Last year, my son and I had a good heart to heart, and he told me that he has no trouble forgiving me and letting me in his life, because I took responsibility for what I did, and I work very hard to maintain a healthy relationship with him and his siblings.  

I hope your daughter comes to her senses soon.  Her kids need a sane mother right now, and she is not behaving in a caring manner toward them, especially if she is pushing you away.  I will continue to pray for you.  I pray you are able to get some peace of mind somehow.   

Hugs,
Trish

Hi Trish and my OFF family:

We had snow last night ... first snow I've seen in a year and a half ... first snow Juliette's seen. Not a lot, just a dusting. Enough for me.

Well, the rent check bounced because I still haven't gotten my last paycheck. I talked to the HR person in Shreveport, who talked to payroll, and she said they were cutting a check today (this is contradictory to what I was told ... I was told it would be direct deposit) for my last week and it would be mailed out. I said that wouldn't do ... couldn't they overnight it? I told her I was facing eviction if I didn't get the money quickly. She said they would overnight that check. However, the vacation check will be deposited in my old account next Friday ... I said that was crappy because I should have had that Jan. 6, not Jan. 20. But I guess I have no choice but to wait.

Anyway, I got some more boxes unpacked yesterday, a couple more bruises on my legs and arms, found my pans and some pots and some cups. I wish I could find my food so I could cook something.

I need to do laundry today so I guess I have to go check out the laundry facilities. Have a good day.

It's me again.  Oh, crap!  I read the rest of my Stage Your Home book and scared the poop out of myself.  Now I am feeling so overwhelmed and stressed by all the stuff I need to do around here.  There's not one single room I can sit in in this house that I don't look around and say, "I need to do this", "I need to do that", "I need to do . . . "!  I think all I have done is destroy my peace of mind.

Maybe it would be easier to just stay put! 

Anyway, I got everything pulled out of the linen closet and I’ve sorted through it all.  Some of it went in the trash bag.  Some of it can go to the Women’s Shelter.  I’ll take a little of it down to the lakehouse.  But it’s still too much stuff to put back.  The book says each closet should be half empty.  It should show some of the ceiling, side walls, back wall, and the floor.  And it all has to be neatly folded too!  Geez.  They don’t want much, do they?  LOL!

What I need is a cleaning service, a lawn service, and a big crew of Mexicans to help me with all of this stuff.  What I've got is my own two hands and an absentee husband!  No wonder I'm feeling stressed, huh?

Connie, honey, I'm so sorry for your stress.  Yours is much more real than mine.  I can't imagine what is happening with your daughter, but I agree with Caroline.  I think she is doing some pretty heavy-handed scheming and manipulation.  Poor little Grace is just caught in the middle, but we will all pray and God will watch out for that little angel.  

I wish I could pull Pat's trick and settle down for a movie and some crochet this afternoon.  Better make myself move along, though, and finish the closet I've started.  Tomorrow is another day; I'll worry about the rest of it then.  (Yes, Katie Scarlett!)

 Thank you Vickie...I am just beside myself with worry. I don't yet know if this is what God intended. I don't understand why he had me give up my life in MN and now wants me to leave Iowa. Maybe I am not looking at what he wants. Maybe I am supposed to be here and that is why I can't get insurance and other needs met in MN. I keep praying. Most times I just want to die. I don't want to be in MN burdening my sister and friends. I feel just awful about that. I have lost so much and now Iwill be losing Grace. She is still a little girl. She will be the one suffering.  How can I leave knowing that??

Love and many hugs....connie d

Oh, Connie, {{{hugs}}}!  Your anguish is so real.  I know you are trying hard to do what's best.  I will pray, too, that you will find God's will and purpose for you and Jamie and Grace. 

Not knowing all the details, I don't have much practical advice to offer, but I wonder if it is possible for you to stay where you are in Iowa, but just move out of the house away from your daughter?  Get your own place?  Then you could still be there for Grace, but be able to separate yourself from the stresses of living with Jamie?  Like I say, I don't know all the details of your situation.  I'm sure you've thought it through from all angles.

I do know that the Bible says for us not to worry about tomorrow, that tomorrow will take care of itself.  And Jesus said that the very hairs on our heads are numbered by God.  He knows everything about our situations.  I believe if we trust him and pray, he will show us the right path.  Keep praying and try not to worry yourself sick.  Sometimes life is just hard.  There's no rhyme or reason to it.  But it will eventually get better again.

Vic

 Vickie,
Before you have another night of sleeplessness and panic, take a tablet and go through each room of the house, writing down every single thing you need to work on in each room.  Then make a plan of attack for each room, and write that down.  Then, start the cleaning, sorting, packing and giving away.  That is how I packed my apartment in the Summer.  I still have panic attacks, but not like I used to.  Before I went to bed each evening, I planned the next day's attack on the apartment.  I do realize that my tiny apartment would not compare to preparing a house for show, but having a list and a plan helps put the job into bite size pieces that are manageable.  

Hugs,
trish

Yes, Trish, that is good advice. I already made a big to do list and posted it on the frig door. But maybe I should do a room by room list, too. I am feeling a bit better this evening because I did finish the master bath today. One room down, thirteen more to go! LOL!

I think what stresses me more than the cleaning is the staging. I just feel like I'm going to put myself under a microscope. I don't handle scrutiny well. Plus I just don't know how I'm going to handle keeping everything so clean all the time once the house goes on the market. The last time we sold a house, we had already moved and the house was vacant. Oh, well, it will be okay.

Hope you are feeling better soon !

Yep Vickie Trish gave you great advice...now here's another one, have something just baked smelling great in your house when they do an open house. Cookies or bread....except don't eat them, put them on the counter with a note saying help yourself.

Happy Thursday OFF family, it's a busy day here at work but I did read everyone's comments.
Connie...girlfriend I'm sending you extra hugs and prayers.
Pat...you go with that new boyfriend.
Eileen..."the checks in the mail"...haven't we all heard that one!

So today I weighed myself and everyone who knows me knows I hate that damn scale. The only reason I weighed was b/c someone at work commented that it looked like I've lost weight.
Yep! 5 pounds gone. Whoooooooo! The tool still works and I wish I could exercise like I used to and hopefully I soon I will...the power of thinking positive!
In April I will be 5 years out from RNY surgery. Time sure has flown. Debbie

Vickie, I sold my condo without doing any of that. Of course, I had it as a short sale and it took nearly a year for the sale to close (the lender was being an asshole).

It will be OK.