Happy Wednesday...already???

It’s almost 4 am and here I sit…was in bed for over two hours and couldn’t drift off to sleep and JB seemed determined to own the middle third of the bed…drives me crazy. Today I have no plans except to keep an appointment at the credit union to discuss my RIF and some maturing certificates. And, more importantly, to complain about the credit union’s interference with my Mother’s will.  Yes, we are still having a serious problem here with legality issues and the credit union  over Mother’s estate.  I am doing my best to not get upset but this is ridiculous.  No point in getting into details but I took care of Mom for sixteen years and never took one penny from her accounts except to pay her bills as she requested. I drove her everywhere even when I was exhausted from work, I fought to protect her pennies so she could live in comfort for the rest of her days and called her daily and visited her at least once a week, driving long distances despite brutal weather because I was all she had left. I did the right thing because she was my Mother…always. And now the credit union is interfering in case someone “might” want to protest Mother’s decision on how to disperse her meager estate. They even froze me out of her account that I had created for her and managed for sixteen years.  All because Mom changed her will and because her stupid lawyer didn’t do HIS job. The STRESS is wrenching.  I wish that she had used up every penny and there was nothing left. I do NOT need this, especially now. Next Tuesday, Nov 8^th, I will be up in Hamilton at the cancer centre at 6:30 am.  First they will use a needle to send a wire the width of a human hair down into the breast and into the tumour so that the surgeon can follow the wire straight down and find the lump to be removed.  Then they will inject a radio-active dye into my breast…this blue dye will travel thru the ducts of my breast and by the time I am asleep, it can be found by a Geigercounter-type of machine  in the sentinel lymph nodes in my armpit so they do not have to remove ALL of the nodes….less invasive, less chance of lymphodema in the arm after.  Surgery is actually booked for 10:30 am. Then, two hours later, I will be in recovery.  Because  have serious problems waking up after anesthesia, I MAY have to stay overnight…otherwise it’s just a day surgery.  Poor JB will have a long wait all day for me. Knowing me, I will likely sleep for about three days…..the drive home is over an hour, longer during rush hour traffic. And that is exactly when they will be sending me home. I tired so easily right now and yet I cannot usually sleep…just feeling drained and not at all my usual self. I should be pre-cooking meals and freezing them, cleaning the house and  organizing my office better but I just cannot seem to get myself to do much of anything. Very frustrating and I’m annoyed at myself for this ridiculous lack of energy. We had had a wonderful trip up to Quebec to visit family…a lot of laughs and I got a lot of photos of old barns for my collection. Our older son, Dan just got home Sunday night from a week’s trip to Myrtle Beach with a number of other pilots....they flew down in several four-seater airplanes.  Dan’s plane, a Piper, had icing problems as they tried to return home over the weekend due to that snow storm and they were delayed two days trying to get over the mountains. We could track his plane on a special website and I could see the “weather” all around them.  We were all quite relieved when they finally touched down at the local airport…John and I were on our verandah and saw his small plane returning from the south-east and fly over our place and landing at the airport which is several miles away. 

Sunday evening, we all got together to have a special family dinner – our last before my surgery but mostly for JBs 68^th birthday.  Derek’s ladyfriend, Kathy, made JB a gorgeous chocolate/mocha cake laden with Skor Bar bits....I tasted it but that was enough. I am not a coffee drinker nor do I care for chocolate cake….strange as that may seem …so it doesn’t tempt me at all. So that half that is still left sits alone, unmolested, in the fridge.  It’s always a fun time when we get together....both boys always have a lot of funny stories. Derek also got to show off his new car and Danny was rightfully impressed…Derek was so proud of his shiny black Cadillac DTS …it has even more special options that JB’s DTS Caddie…lol.  Derek worked very hard to buy his dream car- I’m so proud of him.

 We went back to our place so Dan could show us all his photos and videos of his trip then I made them all suffer thru my collection of photos. Derek wanted to know “just HOW many perspectives does one get of one wooden barn???”…picky, picky! Well I may be ready top try and sleep again…have an awesome day, everyone! OH yes, BTW, Monica…congratulations of your full year!!! What an awesome accomplishment! Also, HAPPY BIRTHDAYS are offered, congrats on everyone’s happy achievements and HURRAY! that Nic is cancer-free! Nancy B

Morning Nancy and all who follow. Sober 376 days and so proud of me. I say many prayers each day and you are always included. Your energy and zest for life inspires many. Know that we are all there for you on this journey to fight the cancer beast. Hearing good news about Nic and Morgan gives us all hope.
We are up and having coffee. Yoda still in bed. He was so excited about the trip he stayed up late with me. Hubby put his car dog bed and tripline in the rental and when hubby showed Yoda he got in and would not exit the car until we took him for a ride. How do dogs know about luggage. He helped me pack his sweater, extra treats, 2 bones, and his orange halter. He goes over to his bag and nudges it. We are so grateful for this bundle of love. We shower him with our love and he gives it back with such devotion.
Thanks Karen C for helping me with the OCDing. I am not crazy about our venture up north. Being very positive and not listing every could happen over and over. I am not mentally frozen, but could be physically frozen as it is VERY cold up north. We will take 3 days for travel. The chiropracter asked us to stop every 2-3 hours and stretch. Worried that hubby's sciatica could flare up with extended driving. I packed alot, warm clothing. Ordered new ankle boots and they have not arrived. Will not order from the website again since it has been over 3 weeks since ordered.
Don't know if I will have internet on the road. So I will check in when I can. All be well and be happy.
Thank you all for your friendship. Monica

Monica, I'm right there in your pocket. Enjoy your road trip. The colors should be lovely as you head north. I know you just can't wait to see your family. Have a wonderful time. I'm sure a lot of famil healing will take place as your daughter sees how much healthier you are. Hugs.

Monica,

Will be thinking of you often over the next couple of weeks!  Wishing you and hubby and Yoda a safe journey and lots of fun and adventure on the road!  Pop in a CD or listen to an audio book and the miles will fly by.  We'll be waiting to hear from you and can't wait to see all the new pics of you and your family, especially Miss Lincoln!  Have a great trip!

Monica....I want to wish you a safe trip. I am keeping you, your hubby and of course Yoda in my prayers.

You will be missed. I hope you can connect with us now and then. Have a terrific time with your family!!!

Love to you and many hugs....connie d

Good morning Nancy & Monica. I was so glad to see you post Nancy as I woke up thinking about you. I am happy to see things are being taken care of. You are often in y thoughts & prayers for a wonderful outcome. Sounds likeyou have great family support. That is just as important as a good surgeon. When I had ine masectomy there were 13 family members in the waiting room. My nurses thought it was great, at least that is what they they told me. WE are all here for you too.

Monica, have a fun & safe trip north. Our 4 dogs love to ride in the car. We only took 2 to Texas, but they were awesome. They adapt so well. As for all those to come, please enjoy your day.
Nan

 Good Morning OFF Sisters,
I am about to get ready to attend my Morning Bible Study.  I am anxious because I normally attend the evening one, and this will be a different group of ladies.  

After the study, I will stop by my AA meeting and get that in.  Then, home to rest my foot.

I am making progress on my bedspread for Isabel.  It is officially too big to schlep around now.  Must stay home with it.

Gotta scoot.

Hugs,
Trish

Good Morning Nancy, Monica and Those Yet to Arrive,

Nancy, you amaze me, here you are going into a very life challenging situation and thinking you should be doing more, but then that is your nature, giving and caring for anyone who you come in contact with and that alone should be enough to slay the beast that is trying to bring you down.  Listen to your body right now, give it the rest it needs so it may use it's strength to heal itself, everything else will work out, though I truly get where you're at and how it matters that things flow in a manner of what you are used to.  Sad that governments/institutions think they need to interfer in matters that don't affect them, but unfortunately there are times when dishonest people do things and it is why laws are put in place.  Hoping this will all be behind you soon.  I will be praying for the best outcome and to hearing more good news.

Monica, I missed your yearly date somehow, probably because I skip in an out these days, this past weekend was spent with a sponsee doing something that is an absolute blessing, which is step work and it is in helping others that we can feel the joy of living so often and so my friend, I wish you many more, one day at a times, you've come so far and yet the road ahead is long, may it be with your head held high for what you are doing.  As for your Yoda, yes, they are amazing creatures, pure love on 4 legs and for so little invested, the return is amazing.  One day recently Roxie got her ball, I had gotten up to do something in the kitchen, she looked at me with the ball in mouth, laid down and dropped the ball and used her nose to pu**** to where I sit, and they say dogs have no ability to reason (lol), she was letting me know come back and play with me. . .  when she sees my suitcase, she sulks, they are very intelligent, they just don't speak English, but they speak volumes with their eyes and body and mostly we could learn so much from the way they love. . . 

Well here I am today, just another work day, busy week, busy day ahead, so I wish you all the very best day possible and sending thoughts for peace and strength to help aid you in whatever challenges your are presented with.

Hugs, Laureen

Good mornin' ya'll.
Nancy, you don't need the stress of fighting the CU when you have this other fight inside yourself. You are in my prayers, always. It is wonderful that you are so well informed about what is going to be happenning. And, if you are tired or feel exhausted, stop and rest. The world will NOT come to an end.
Monica, as always so very proud of you. I hope someday you will be as excited as Yoda to hop in the car and take off. Let the travelling bra beat down the OCD!
Trish, so happy you are getting out on your own. But be careful if your weather is still treacherous, please.
Our grandson in SC texted that he is almost out of his protein powder, can I get some at GNC and mail it to him. Of course I will. Gotta find a box that huge canister will fit in. His Dad could do it from OR, but it would take much longer to get the stuff to him. And I don't mind.
With one project complete I have to decide what I will begin next. For some reason I have more green baby yarn than I thought. I will figure out maybe a baby ripple blankie using all my baby colors, heavy on the green.
DIL asked me to look over her new resume and give her suggestions. She is applying for an office job in the same school district. I looked it over and texted that there was no objective listed. She texted back, that is the first thing on the page. It is a nice paragraph but it says what she can do, not what she wants to do. I texted her the definition of objective, and suggested she incorporate the other paragraph into qualifications. I know she is using a template from somewhere on line, and I know it has been years since I made a resume. But has the idea of listing your objectives changed? I haven't seen a revised addition.
Can any of you tell me WHY young girls have to be so high drama? Crying on Facebook if a boyfriend doesn't acknowledge a text within 10 minutes. Another saying how 'in love' she is with a guy she met 2 weeks ago. Of course, the guys in these scenerios don't think the text thing is anything to get worked up about. The guy whose girlfriend is in love, sure doesn't act like he is or acknowledge that
she is. Another all heartbroken because her boyfriend broke up with her because he's an insensative jerk, and then a month later she is back with him, even though she knows he's a player!! I am FB friends with all my grandkids and many of their friends and it is hilarious (and a little sad) to follow all this drama! I can't remember being that way, but then my memory isn't whT it used to be!
Everyone have a fantabulous day.

Carloyn,

Nice that your DIL is seeking out your help.

I remember well being a teenager, a minute was years when thinking we were in love, heck we didn't have facebook or internet or cellphones, but would sit at the phone and wait and wait and the calls, when they did not come, it was drama and for me, it was not until I hit my 30s that I shook off that need for drama, so when I see the younger folks living in it, I laugh and think back and am grateful all those "dramas" are behind me, today, I like my drama in the form of red lipstick, very dramatic and I can wipe it off. . .

Hugs and thanks for the reminder of how good it is to be where I am today. . .

Hugs, Laureen