Good morning Thursday, Sept. 8th

Hello all, sober 312 days and so proud of me.
Yesterday turned out great. Easy trip to VA in St.Petersburg. The dental visit went well for hubby, they did pull the tooth, but he did well. Stopped at outlet stores on way home. Found some wonderful things for me, hubby, and Gkids. Amazing savings on everything we got.Sent the gifts out this morning.
Waiting for the Comcast installer to arrive. We get free comcast here, but am adding NFL pkg for us. Only $20 each month for 100 channels more and the NFL. Pouring here now.
Thanks for your support to me Karen. I didn't OCD too bad and was really pleased with mysel. Posted a few pictures of me and my ARMS and Yoda on FB. The dress and hat were 75% off and I am thrilled with them.
Enjoy Thursday and be safe. Monica

Monica, I saw your pictures on fb. Wow you are one beautiful young lady!!!!
nan

Hi Pat and my OFF family:

I was up at 8 when the phone rang; tried to go back to sleep but couldn't, so I got up, finished off my book ("The Virgin's Daughters" ... about Elizabeth I and two of her ladies in waiting; very interesting), then started my day. I've been applying for jobs; the one to Martha Stewart Omnimedia took forever; its website was ridiculous and kept crashing. Took at least a half hour to fill it out.

I was going to see "The Help" today but called my friend Patricia and she is busy; but she wants to see it, too, so maybe tomorrow.
Pat, your trip will be great. I do want to see the Grand Canyon. Try to get to Monument Valley if you can. Cool place. And Four Corners. I loved Canyonlands National Park and Hovenweep National Monument.

Anyway, I'm off again today and might do some baking. I cleaned out some of the clothes I don't wear from my closet and will take them to Goodwill the next time I get out.

Have a good day.

Afternoon everyone. I had a Doctors appt this morning. I have been so tired lately. My DH is worried as I haven't even taken care of the garden & my flower beds this year. Anyway she thinks my depression is getting worse, mainly because worrying about Morgan. Also my headaches are getting worse. So I will start with Topomax(sp). Then have my effexor increased in a few weeks.

Now on to Morgan, she was supposed to have chemo this week. I am not sure what is going on, but they postponed it to run more tests. I am so afraid, please keep on praying, Thank you all so much for being here.

Pat have a wonderful trip!!!!!
 Praying for all of you in Texas for rain, Vicki please be careful. How far are you from Killeen? Thats where my kids are.
I want my energy back so I can start sewing again. Enjoy your weekend all. Nan

Hope all is well for Morgan. Topamax has helped with my headaches; I have been on it since 2006 (or 2005, can't remember). Now it's generic, so much cheaper than when I first started. I still get headaches but they're not as bad as they used to be.

Hope your depression can be kicked in the butt. Antidepressants are a miracle drug. I never thought I was depressed, but it takes many forms. Anger is one, and I had that. Antidepressants have helped immensely.

Prayers for you, Morgan, and your family....prayers said each day by us as we start our day and remember all those we have in our lives.

Nan....extra special prayers for Morgan!!

I will be waiting to hear what this is all about.

Love and hugs....connie d

Nan, keeping Morgan in my prayers. Try not to be afraid, remain strong in your Faith and God will guide you through the rough waters. God Bless Debbie

Nan,

Keeping you and yours close to my heart. I have an anxiety disorder and probably have had since I was a young girl. I didn't seek treatment until I was almost 40 years old. I've always been fearful. Tho I want to go and do and try new things it's so hard for me to "jump in" and do it. I would always watch from the sidelines afraid to take that first step. This always tied in with depression.

Like depression, anxiety can be low grade or much higher. When mine is at a low level I can cope without meds tho I'm realizing right now it isn't optimum health. I haven't taken anything in years and thought I was doing well until some "aha" moments talking with our own Julia recently. I don't sleep well, I pick at my skin, when I do manage to sleep it's with anxious dreams; all signs of anxiety.

I know when it gets really bad I can't sleep, can't eat, and get to the point where I can barely function. THAT I recognize (kind of like getting hit with a hammer!) I seek help for that because I HAVE to.

I'm realizing that I need to get an appt with my primary care doctor and also my anxiety therapist and talk about a new sleep study. I have restless legs being treated with meds but still seldom sleep more than 2 hours at a time even on oxycodone for recovery from my recent surgery! I'm going to talk to them both about new forms of treatment that might lower my already fairly low level of anxiety and might help me sleep better.  When I do manage to fall into a deeper sleep it is one filled with anxious, frightening dreams. And THAT certainly is not restful sleep.

Certainly your depression is deepening with concerns for Morgan that you feel helpless to "fix." Like you, it is so hard for me to see a loved one suffer. We would put ourselves in their place if we could.

What you CAN do is seek help for yourself so that you will be as strong physically, mentally, and emotionally as possible so that you can be there for Morgan and still live a full, positive life yourself. Take care my friend.

Afternoon Pat, OFFr's,

I hope you really enjoy your trip, if possible try to see the Hoover Dam at sunset, it is truly an incredible site, the Grand Canyon is on my list, I just have not managed to get there yet. . .  so many places to see, if I can ever retire and travel, it will be a fun time. . .

Woke up at 4 a.m. to lightening, thunder and pouring rain, thanks to Lee, don't understand why Lee did not find it's way to Texas where they could use a good rainfall, anyway, I had my clothes mostly ready, got dressed for the gym and was hemming and hawing, as I'm not keen on driving in the dark and rain, but I really wanted to keep my gym momentum going and so I got myself in the car at 5:05 and headed south, what normally takes about 40 to 45 minutes, took me 1 hour and 10 minutes, but I got there and did my workout, went to get dressed and realized I did not have my camisole, the one I need for under this dress I have, well luckily someone was able to help me out with a safety pin, I also forgot my darn cell phone and I feel lost without it, oh well, I'll survive (lol).  Waiting to hear that Tony arrived safe and sound from his trip to Mexico, I am happy to know he will be home and I will see him on Saturday.  Anyway, after work I'm going to my AA homegroup and then it will be home to bed. . .

Wishing you all a good day, again Pat, hope your trip is a good one!!!

Hugs, Laureen