It's Saturday! What's new?
I can't post much during the week, but weekends are good! This week has been a great week at work, keeping busy, this coming week will be great with classes starting in the new applications we will be building and working on! Looking forward to that for sure! Life here in Derby Line Vt is settling in. I continue to like the area, my coworkers and they seem to like me, even if I can't always remember their name! One thing I don't like about getting a touch older, forgetting things! geesh!
I had an appointment with my new doctor here, he is young, handsome, very nice and seems to know what he is talking about. Labs all look pretty decent and he was pleased. (so am I actually!) getting a dexa scan Monday and a pap test Friday. sounds like a plan eh?
That's it with me, what's NEW with YOU?
I just posted on my message for everyone to come here to post. I kind of thought the odds were against me getting in first. Great minds must think alike Debbie G . . . at the same time.
Today I am planning a correspondence and filing day. I have a lot of thank you's to write to all the folks who have sent me flowers, made meals for us, sent us an edible arrangement, cleaned my house for me and put up all my Christmas decorations. They need to get out in the mail TODAY. We also need to clear the piles on Hubby's desk of financial information into files so we can put together a package for our remortgage application.
Hubby will be spending most of the morning clearing our long driveway and parking areas of the 10 inches of snow we got yesterday. A tree must have downed a wire to across the street last night. We had power but the people across the street did not. The repair crews came at about 10:30 p.m. to fix it, but when I went to bed at 11:30 p.m. their lights were still not on. Thank goodness we just got a load of firewood delivered and the oil man filled the tank for the furnace on Thursday - $3.10 a gallon
. The coals were still hot from last night's fire in the wood stove so when I got up I stoked them up and added a few more pieces of logs and got it going nicely.I've been awake all night. On the days they give me my chemo, yesterday, they also give me a steroid to help me with my strength. Well that totally cancels out my Lunesta I take to go to sleep and I end up thinking all night long - not good in my situation. I finally gave up at 5:50 a.m. and got up. I'll be calling the doc to see if she can give me a stronger sleeping pill for those nights after chemo.
Want to thank all of you for your kind words, thoughts and prayers.
I wish the best to those facing challenges and think of you often and send up prayers for you. No swinging chickens though, that is my favorite protein, so they get swung into the oven at my house. LOL.
Bev
Bev, my thoughts are with you as you go through chemo. Do you also have to do radiation? I did 2 months of chemo, 2 months of radiation with chemo drugs, then 2 more months of chemo alone.
Monica, HOORAY for your sobriety!! I know you will keep it up!
Debbie, I am so impressed with you folks who move to a new town, get a new job and go on smoothly! At least when we moved every 3 or 4 years my DH knew he had a job (Navy), I could find a job if I wanted one, and we had the military community to make friends within. I can't imagine in these times having to start over somewhere else, scarey. I applaud your courage. Eileen, too.
I have begun to drag my fanny back to the gym daily. I have an elliptical here, which makes it more convenient, but it also makes it easier to put it off, or cut my session short telling myself I'll get back on it again later! If I MAKE myself drive to the gym, I'll make myself
stay long enough to make a difference!! I'm not going back to water aerobics though until it warms up!
Back to winter temps here for the next week or so. I can live with it if we don't have to deal with snow and/or blac****
Everyone have a fantabulous day!
Grammylew in Jax
Thanks for the thoughts. I am almost to the end of my second chemo cycle. A cycle is three weeks on of chemo and one week off. My last chemo for this cycle is next Fri., the 14th. Then I have a week off and the docs will do cat scans and a CA-125 blood test. Both of these were done in the beginning so we have markers to see if things have stayed the same or shrunk. From there we will make the decision to go forward. My liver has a lot of cancer all over it so I am not a candidate for having it cut away or for a transplant. I've seen an improvement in the colon cancer with less blood in my stools. The doc does not want to put any stress on my liver by doing radiation or chemoembolization. I have six to twelve months to live. So the main plan is to keep me alive as long as they can with chemo and possibly hormone blocking treatments. I have pain where my liver is and I'm noticing my muffin top is starting to swell with fluid in the front. Not a good sign. So we have moved all my bucket list stuff up to doing it in the next six months.
I have also stepped up making things for my Grandkids - crocheting afghans, collecting pictures for them, 50 state quarter collections I did for each of them, and writing letters to them of love and encouragement along with some of my most humorous recollections of them. I will store them in one of those big plastic storage chests. My daughter-in-law is not fond of me so my hubby has been instructed not to give these to the grandkids until they are old enough to appreciate them and their mother cannot get rid of them because the kids will know they were meant especially for them. As I've said before, I have made an afghan for my daughter-in-law and personalized pillowcases, a doorway puppet theatre, crocheted baby blankets, and bought clothes for the grandkids. And I never see them again. I never see the kids wearing something I've given them. I've heard rumors she sells them at consignment shops, tag sales and gives them away to others. This is how far she has gone to destroy things - she "accidentally" stepped on a Pez dispenser that my grandkids loved using at my house. I always had Pez candy to go in it. (HA, bought another one.) This past summer we made a ten lb. cast of a dinosaur print at the Dinosaur State Park with our grandsons who spent the week with us. I asked my DIL where they decided to put it (because it would make a good stepping stone). She said, "Oh, it fell in the garage and smashed into a million pieces. The garage has a dirt floor. Yeah right. So this is my plan to circumvent her being able to do this. Sad, but a reality I have to deal with.
Sorry to be so long, as you can tell, this really gets to me. Her reaction to my cancer and dying? Nothing.
Going to go take my anti-anxiety med now. LOL.
Love to you. I'm so glad you are in remission with your cancer. Be vigilent on getting checked periodically.
Bev
Bev, I am so sorry your dil is such a ***** When my son was young, he and I were so close, so I assumed that I would be close to his wife as well. Not so much. He married a pshycho ***** from hell and every three or so months, she decides that she wants me out of their lives, and I am banned. Every single Christmas, since their marriage, she has ruined it for our family. This year was no different. I just hate that my son, in order to keep peace, allows this behavior. I no longer buy my grandsons from my son gifts, I put money in a bank account. She would see the stuff or, like you said, break it. So now, all their gifts are money that goes into a bank account to pay out when they either graduate college or turn 30, whichever comes first.
It sounds like you are doing what is best for your little ones. Bypass her altogether. I hope your upcoming week is a good week.
I'm in the same situation with my son. Talking to him just makes her worse. My family is so disgusted with the way she treats me. My sister says my son needs to "grow a pair". LOL.
But, they have four beautiful children and I would never want them to divorce. Yet when we asked my son why she hated us so much, he said her behavior was just "Amy". When we pressed further, he said, what do you want, me to get a divorce. I'm not getting a divorce.
I said, no, we just want to fix things and make a better relationship with her. He then walked out on the conversation. I suspect that he told her that we wanted them to divorce which just added to the problem. She has his heart and his ear, so nothing will change.
Christmas with them is nice because her parents are there and Mike is around the whole time. So she puts on a great act for them.
I hear you sister. You are not alone.
Thanks,
Bev
At least your dil acts right sometime. My dil's mother and sister are both just as psycho as she is. Her mother has affairs on her husband and her sister abandoned her husband and son so she could party and move in with her girlfriend. My dil has stooped so low as to threaten me. This Christmas was the last straw. I told me son that I can not do this again. So, I will no longer try and placate the crazy dil. Instead, I'll stand on the side lines and hopefully get to see the kids. Her behavior stems from her thinking I don't pay enough attention to her daughter from her first marriage. And, she counts every penny that I spend. God forbid I spend a penny more on the boys than I do her daughter. I even let her pick the stuff out and it still wasn't good enough. My dh said, no one is going to tell us what to buy, when to buy, or how much to spend. So, here we are. My first husband's mother was a drunk and even after we divorced I still took care of her and went out of my way to let my kids spend time with her. My dh's mother died recently but before she died, I would never have treated her badly. I guess it's a generation thing.
I guess this is our burden and we will just have to deal with it.
