Daily Reflection
I know today that getting active means trying to live the suggested Steps of the Program to the best of my ability. It means striving for some degree of honesty, first with myself, then with others. It means activity directed inward, to enable me to see myself and my relationship with my Higher Power more clearly. As I get active, outside and inside myself, so shall I grow in the Program. Do I let others do all the work at meetings? Do I carry my share?
Today I Pray
May I realize that "letting go and letting God" does not mean that I do not have to put any effort into the Program. It is up to me to work the Twelve Steps, to learn what may be an entirely new thing with me - honesty. May I differentiate between activity for activity's sake - busy-work to keep me from thinking - and the thoughtful activity, which helps me to grow.
Today I Will Remember
"Letting God" means letting God show us how.
My Mantra is that I do not determine my success by the number hanging in my closet, nor will I let the scale determine that success either. . . It is through trial and error I will continue to grow and succeed. . . Laureen
"Success is a journey, not a destination." Ben Sweetland
Laureen,
.As you have seen wiith me it is the figuring out where the "line" is that is so difficult for me. I spent many years just letting life happen; not having a clue that I personally had any options. I would postpone making personal decisions because of fear and indecision. Sooner or later someone or some cir****tance would make them for me. That wasn't good. I had absolutely no control over my own life.
Then the pendulum swung the other direction. I took "control" of my life or at least I thought I did. When I take control I try to control everything and everyone in the universe. I have a hard time watching the nature shows on tv that let the law of natural selection take place. I want to save the little imperfect monkey who is sure to die when he gets left behind. . .
I do that with my human voyagers on this planet also. Whether they want my hel*****t it is so hard for me to realize that their journey is theirs not MINE and to let them walk their own path. How to I keep from enabling them without controling them? How to I keep from enabling ME without totally trying to control everything in my life?
Talking in circles here but it does help me to eventually see where I am. And where I am right now is 2am and I need to go back to sleep. Just fed Briley and am waiting to see if she will go back to sleep without intervention on my part!
Karen C
