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Hey y'all:

I had a horrible night at work. Left there trying not to cry and broke down in tears when I got home. My boss yelled at me and told me to quit *****ing and just do my job. It all stemmed from the fact she used a football photo on the front page and it turned out to be the same one I used on my cover. Now, in Grand Rapids, if two sections were using pictures from the same event, the two editors would get together and talk about what photos they were using. Here, no one talks ...we just slap stories and photos on pages and are not expected to communicate. No wonder I get upset.

So five minutes before deadline, I had to send out another photo, call the toning center in Des Moines and ask them to put a rush on it and then try to rearrange my pages to make it fit without having the photo. And another thing ... I didn't know we could call and ask for a rush; I never did that. She could have told me nicely to do that instead of yelling at me.

I so hate this place. I wish I could figure a way out (without getting fired or quitting, leaving me with nothing). I'm having more pain, I'm very depressed, more so than when I was unemployed. I was misled in taking this job; my boss isn't the person she led me to believe she was, and I was misled in what the job would be, what my coworkers were like and the fact they're closing the place down within two years. I've tried fitting in ... I've brought in baked goods, candy, etc. They eat everything, but that doesn't seem to make a dent.

Anyway, had to get this off my chest. My friend Mary Kay and I had a long talk about this on Friday, before all this happened tonight. She told me I probably should seriously consider disability again. But to do so, I would have to have a source of income while I wait. I can't do that without income or health care.

How is everyone's weekend going. Sunday is my last day of work before my weekend. I really need to go do something fun. Right now, I feel like I'm going to throw up.

Take care and let me know what's going on with out. I'm going to bed; not tired yet, so I'm going to read for awhile.

Oh Eileen, I so wish I could reach through this 'puter and give you a hug. NO supervisor should yell at any employee. That is never the way to train or get a point across. All of the options available to you ( the rush thing) and all the policies (not talking about photos), should all have been explained the first few days you were there and in a calm voice. Of course, there is not much that can be done about that now. Just keep your head down and try to do your job as you know it. My Sis applied for SSI Disability while she was employed. She is bi-polar and the statements of her co-workers and bosses were critical in her approval. Her lawyer told her to keep going to work as long as she could while the disability process began. Basically she was getting paid for doing a crappy job, being paranoid and crying through most of her day. But her employer didn't want to fire her or have to pay her THEIR disability. My DH was out of work when we applied for his. It was a very rough 5 months. We lived on his small Navy Pension, credit cards and help from our daughter and my parents. Luckily we had health insurance from his Navy Pension. Is your new fur baby warming up to you? Does she listen to your problems and give her love back? That must be some confort.

I don't think we will have any takers for BLT Sunday at Gramma's. The boys went to a "Drake" concert, a 5 hour drive from here. Not sure who they are or what kind of music they play, but I imagine the boys didn't get home until the wee hours of the morning. I'll do some bacon on the George Foreman and see if anyone wants some this afternoon. If not, we'll crumble it up over salads later.

GO DUCKS!!!! They won yesterday and we were miffed that we couldn'****ch it on TV here!

Does anyone (except Federal workers) have tomorrow off? If you do, I hope you have good weather and enjoy the time off.

Everyone have a fantabulous day! 

Start looking right now.  Don't let the stress of that place eat you up.  Believe me I've been there.  We love and support you and hope for the best.

Eileen,
   I'm so sorry things are not going well for you...sending you prayers and many ((((HUGS)))) to help you through the days.

   Does your job have a human resources officer or manager that you can go and speak to???  Even if it is about the disability process???

   Hope things get better...keep your chin up. 
   Its hard to believe now when you are hurting, but, someday your boss is going to get a mega dose of what she is laying on people..and it won't be pretty and maybe then she will be sorry for the hurt she has caused.
   
    Wish I was closer..I could make you a nice cup of tea...

     We're here with you Eileen...
    Marcy

A beer would be better , but thanks. I appreciate the sentiment.

Thanks; I know you understand. I am seriously considering refiling for disability. The stress is really getting me down. I really have to get with a pyschologist again. I need someone to talk to down here.

Eileen,

I'm so very sorry that this move is hasn't turned out as you had hoped. We were all so hopeful for you.

But there has to be a silver lining in this so we'll continue to try to help you find it.

Janet

Eileen, I am so sorry you had such a horrible night last night> I hope things get better for you fast.  I still have the house you know and can make room for you!