Happy Sunday!!!!!

What is on your plate for today!!!!! I am working the story of my life!!!! From 11a to 11p. This will make for a very busy week.
I am hopeing to meet Donna From Florida on Monday for a light lunch on my way up to Lake City. I am going to go and stop and see if I can be a pt at a Dr office in Ocala. I am looking into Sclerotherapy to shrink my stoma. I think the radiation I had for my thyroid cancer did a numbero on my stoma. Maybe this doc can fix it!!!!!
Talk on folks I am going to get to bed.
Carla

Hi Carla,
You are always busy! I am not. Today was a good day. For the first time in over a month I went to the dog park with my daughter and Grand Dog Sookie. Sookie is a large black lab and a couple of chihuahuas were just kicking her butt! It was so funny to see that- I laughed and laughed. They tend to try to dominate and were chasing her all over the place. Yesterday Sookie found a dead decomposed rat and was holding it in her mouth, flipping it up to catch it, and chasing my daughter with it  as she squealed and screamed. I laughed so hard that I couldn't talk, it was just too funny. Then she dropped it on the ground and rolled on it. I felt immensely better after that laughing jag. Then last night I went to Bunco and had a wonderful time. I was slow with my moving, but the companionship and hugs were what I needed. I was my old self. I have decided to try to put the cancer scare out of my mind for now. I'll have time to worry after I know for sure if need be.
Sunday will be a home day- a friend is coming over with her son to visit. I hope your weekend is going well!
Julia

I went to the dog park too with our Chiwauwau. It was for the first time. He just walked around and was wondering what we were doing there. he finallly decided that the other chiwauwau mix was his friend.
I am so glad you are feeling better. I to am going thru tests to see if I have any lingering cancer cells from my thyroid cancer. I dont think I do but worrying is always in the back of your mind.
It is 4am and I cant sleep cause I hae a aching shoulder.
rla

Hi Julia  -  glad to hear that you are getting out of the house and that you've had a good day!
I don't know what I'd do without the antics of my dogs.  They are my comedic relief, especially watching the 60 lb female bossing around the 110 lb male.  They lighten my load and my life everyday.
I'm with you about the worrying.  I always ask myself when I am entrenched so deep in anxiety that I'm not sure if I'll ever get out "Where is this getting me?   How will worrying make my life any better".  I know that it's not easy to push away the anxiety that comes with the potential bad news of a diagnosis.  But i think that we owe it to ourselves to live every day in the moment  -  I tell myself this when I worry. 
I don't know if I am going to be hit by a bus on my way to work or if the cancer I had will come back, but I don't want to waste my time feeling horrible and not noticing the bright blue morning glories that are crawling up my fence, or my dogs looking at me, waiting for my attention, or my students who need me to be in the moment.  I am constantly talking to myself in order to get back to where I need to be mentally.
I am looking into starting yoga or a meditation class to assist me in the 'living in the moment' philosophy.  I know that it will always be a struggle for me  -  I've done so much worrying in my life that it is like a habit that I can't quit.  I'm not trying to tell you what to do  -  just offering my own insights into what works for me.
I can't know what it's like to be in your shoes, but I want you to know that we are all here for you anytime that you need to vent, cry, yell or just say that you've had a good day.
Margaret

I totally agree with you Margaret. Living in the moment is the way to go! I try... I think that most of the time I am quite successful- less so this week, but I'm doing much better. Why waste time worrying when it's all up in the air anyway. When I know something for sure I can concentrate on that then. How is your sister by the way? Is the biopsy done?
Julia

My sister's biopsy is tomorrow.  Hopefully we'll find out very soon what is the outcome is.

Good Monring, you early risers...

Not me.  8 am today was early enough for me.

The weather has been beautiful the past few weeks.  Cooler, mid to high 70's, some rain, and not so much humidity.  I've gotten a lot of cleaning up done in the yard, but the gardens still look ragged from the dry hot summer we've had.  I water, but my gardens are huge, and I feel guilty if I "waste" too much water.  They look better now that the weeds are gone.  Why do the weeds grow so well in the horrible weather when the flowers just look beaten???

This afternoon I'm going with some friends to see "Menopause", then out to dinner.  It's a group of 10, so should be some good company and a few laughs.

I'm keeping busy, adjusting to not working, but I know there'll be a big difference once the weather really changes.  I have no travel plans except for mid-October, going to see my son and an old friend or two in Maryland and Pennsylvania.  Driving, taking my time, getting to know the surrounding areas a bit.

Methinks a "Thelma and Louise" trip might be in order.  I'll buy a big stick to fight off the dudes that'll be following Red around since she got all prettied up......

Miss you guys. 

Candy

Good mornin', ya'll.

Sunday!  BLT day at Grandma's as usual. This is the first Sunday our son will be here since his deployment. The last 2 Sundays he was home, I was in OR.

Trying to get things organized for this coming week. Dr for both of us Monday. Dentist for both of us Tuesday morning. My DH has to take antibiotics before the dentist because of the metal in his neck. 3 times I have told the dentist he is out, and they haven't called in the RX. So tomorrow I will go there and pick one up!! Tuesday afternoon pre-op visit to Cape Fear Hospital. Wednesday a friend is having a '31' party. Thursday just relax and remember to call the hosp at 6 PM to get surgery time. Friday - I get my new shoulder.  HOORAY!!!! I'll be in the hospital one or 2 nights.

I am still struggling with those 25 pounds I gained during chemo. I know what I have to do to get it off, but I am just not doing it. I am going to the gym 5 days a week, when I am home. I'm not quite at perfect restriction, but I have been eating around my band anyway. And I just don't seem to have the motivation to either drive 6 hours one way for a fill, or fly to TJ for one under fluoro. I could get one at my DH's surgeon's office. But I'll never go back to him after the poking and bruising and pain from the last fill!! It doesn't help that everyone (including my oncologists) are telling me I look better at this weight than before all the cancer treatments.  Oh well, I guess I'll just chillax and not worry about it for awhile.

Everyone have a fantabulous day!

Hi Carla and my OFF family:

The last day of the workweek for me, and then I have three days off (my 4th of July holiday). I really need it. I had a mini-meltdown last night at work ... basically got pissed off at the sports writer who was trying to organize/write and then paginate all on the same night. She kept changing the plan as the night went on, and then by 9:30 p.m., I had all these stories thrown at me at one time with a 10:30 p.m. deadline and four pages. So when she came back from the stadium and what I was doing wasn't what she wanted, I got pissed and told her to "back away" and let me do my work. After I said it and finished up, I realized that wasn't very good. So I apologized when we got done ... instead of accepted my apology (I said "I'm sorry I got a little testy," she said, "Yeah, you kinda did.").

So when the night was done, my boss and I had a talk. I told her what went wrong, what I did wrong, what the sports writer did wrong, what I could have done better, etc. She told me to watch it ... I know I tend to have a temper and right now, I don't have anyone to talk to about what problems I have (don't have insurance for a psychologist yet). I got off work and sat in the car and cried a bit. I don't want to ruin this job; I'm working my butt off, I don't even take a break so I can get my stuff done on time.

Anyway, I'm glad to have three days off after today. It was raining for awhile ... it's been gray all morning. Well, have a good day.