let's revue-what's new Saturday?
Good morning my Dear!
It's so good to see your smiling face so bright and early. Sorry you're working so hard and have stinky dial-up and can't hang out with us more! We're glad to see you when you can get here.
I'm working today too. Well, kind of working. Business is so slow, but I complained about that yesterday, so I won't beat that drum any more. Anyway, I have a knitting project and will take my laptop to play games on between clients. There's always stuff to clean, too. Oh joy!
The weather here is finally, FINALLY going to be nice this week, but still lower than normal temps. At least it'****ting the 50's which is better than a lot of my friends here will see.
Well, gang, if this is all I have to talk about I guess I'll head on out to start the what are you eating thread. Hope everyone has a wonderful day, stay warm, stay safe and happy!
It's so good to see your smiling face so bright and early. Sorry you're working so hard and have stinky dial-up and can't hang out with us more! We're glad to see you when you can get here.
I'm working today too. Well, kind of working. Business is so slow, but I complained about that yesterday, so I won't beat that drum any more. Anyway, I have a knitting project and will take my laptop to play games on between clients. There's always stuff to clean, too. Oh joy!
The weather here is finally, FINALLY going to be nice this week, but still lower than normal temps. At least it'****ting the 50's which is better than a lot of my friends here will see.
Well, gang, if this is all I have to talk about I guess I'll head on out to start the what are you eating thread. Hope everyone has a wonderful day, stay warm, stay safe and happy!
Susan
Good Morning Margo, Susan & Those that have yet to arrive. . .
It's been a very long winter and while I do love 4 seasons and snow, I can truly say that I've seen about enough of both to wish for the warmer, longer days to come. . .
As I shared the other day, I am thrilled for the accomplishments of my children, I am also going through some seasonal depression, though I think some of it is about how much my life has changed over the past year and while I am a firm believer in the fact that things happen for a reason that we can't always understand when it's happening, I also realize that as I age, change is not always something I roll with as well as I did in the past and I hate being in the hallway of life, ie, change is slow.
I have also come to see that many of my insecurities come from feelings of fear, fear of how I am perceived by others and more importantly how I see myself. I realized recently that my obese self was the hanger on which I always hung many of my failings, though that was not a new revelation, the fact that I am no longer obese, a new fear has surfaced, one that time has passed me by and it's too late to realize some of the dreams I once had for myself, but life is about redefining things based on where you are and so what I need to admit is that I lack motivation, but it is based in fear, fear of more change, as well as my financial picture having changed so much this past year, fear that what was once a belief that I could always find a secure job, is no longer true, that because of modern technology (oh and let's not forget age), I can no longer feel secure about being able to stay employed and afloat and having to redefine what I can do and be in this modern world we live in.
So there you have why I have been lurking in the background, because to come and tell you what crazy thoughts are swirling in my head, makes it real and gives you privy into the madness that is me. Is it any wonder I was an "addict" for so long. . . It's a day at a time and just for today, I will have faith that just as the seasons change, so can I.
Thanks for listening and I wish you all the very best today, as I will try to have one too, Laureen
It's been a very long winter and while I do love 4 seasons and snow, I can truly say that I've seen about enough of both to wish for the warmer, longer days to come. . .
As I shared the other day, I am thrilled for the accomplishments of my children, I am also going through some seasonal depression, though I think some of it is about how much my life has changed over the past year and while I am a firm believer in the fact that things happen for a reason that we can't always understand when it's happening, I also realize that as I age, change is not always something I roll with as well as I did in the past and I hate being in the hallway of life, ie, change is slow.
I have also come to see that many of my insecurities come from feelings of fear, fear of how I am perceived by others and more importantly how I see myself. I realized recently that my obese self was the hanger on which I always hung many of my failings, though that was not a new revelation, the fact that I am no longer obese, a new fear has surfaced, one that time has passed me by and it's too late to realize some of the dreams I once had for myself, but life is about redefining things based on where you are and so what I need to admit is that I lack motivation, but it is based in fear, fear of more change, as well as my financial picture having changed so much this past year, fear that what was once a belief that I could always find a secure job, is no longer true, that because of modern technology (oh and let's not forget age), I can no longer feel secure about being able to stay employed and afloat and having to redefine what I can do and be in this modern world we live in.
So there you have why I have been lurking in the background, because to come and tell you what crazy thoughts are swirling in my head, makes it real and gives you privy into the madness that is me. Is it any wonder I was an "addict" for so long. . . It's a day at a time and just for today, I will have faith that just as the seasons change, so can I.
Thanks for listening and I wish you all the very best today, as I will try to have one too, Laureen
My Mantra is that I do not determine my success by the number hanging in my closet, nor will I let the scale determine that success either. . . It is through trial and error I will continue to grow and succeed. . . Laureen
"Success is a journey, not a destination." Ben Sweetland
It is see good to see you post. I wish I could say I know what you are going through, but I don't. Only you do. But do know that we are here for you. A shoulder to cry on, someone to lean on. That is why we are here. To support each other. And it does not have to be a WLS issue, that is just what has brought us together.
I was fearful of my financial situation also recently. Not because of a lay off, but because of what might happen. My finances are not good in the first place, but to lose a full time job that you have had for over 10 years and not because of anything you have done, hurts. But I have since decided that nothing I do will affect whether I stay or am sent on my way, so I will just do my best and let the good Lord take care of the rest.
I was fearful of my financial situation also recently. Not because of a lay off, but because of what might happen. My finances are not good in the first place, but to lose a full time job that you have had for over 10 years and not because of anything you have done, hurts. But I have since decided that nothing I do will affect whether I stay or am sent on my way, so I will just do my best and let the good Lord take care of the rest.
GOD BLESS AMERICA!!!!!
Annette 
Boy, Laureen, I sure know what you are going through. Having lost my job recently (and after being told I was a keeper and don't take the buyout and don't worry, my job was secure ... yeah, all a pack of lies) ... I feel lost out here. I know in my heart it will be for the best if I can get disability because I was in so much pain sitting there night after night, and I really hated my job when they moved me to sports. But still, I miss working ... I miss having someplace to go everyday. And in my business, in my chosen field, there's really nothing out there. I have been looking, and there are some jobs, but there are not hiring people with 30 years of experience in their 50s. They see 30 years and they know how old you are. And immediately, that resume goes in the garbage (or the e-garbage in this age).
I am willing to learn new technology, I'm not stupid, I have learned new pagination systems as recent as last year. In fact, I want to learn some web design and web posting because I know that's where the industry is going. But I don't see myself working a regular job in an office anymore. And that's really depressing to me. Because I miss the interaction with coworkers. I miss having somewhere to go everyday. I'm extremely depressed sitting home (although it's nice when it's snowing heavily ... not as heavily as you guys have gotten it) not to have drive somewhere. Still, I liked going to a job and seeing coworkers and being involved in their lives. I'm feeling lost, very lost. I'm on antidepressants, and I know they're working, but I still feel depressed, out of sorts. I can't get up the motivation to do some things that I know I have to do. I sit in my chair and watch TV and take naps and don't want to do anything. I do ... but I don't. I feel this inertia. I don't have a lot of friends around here, they were all at work, and I'd see them everyday ... and I now I don't. So I miss them. I feel lonely, cut off from the world.
I am willing to learn new technology, I'm not stupid, I have learned new pagination systems as recent as last year. In fact, I want to learn some web design and web posting because I know that's where the industry is going. But I don't see myself working a regular job in an office anymore. And that's really depressing to me. Because I miss the interaction with coworkers. I miss having somewhere to go everyday. I'm extremely depressed sitting home (although it's nice when it's snowing heavily ... not as heavily as you guys have gotten it) not to have drive somewhere. Still, I liked going to a job and seeing coworkers and being involved in their lives. I'm feeling lost, very lost. I'm on antidepressants, and I know they're working, but I still feel depressed, out of sorts. I can't get up the motivation to do some things that I know I have to do. I sit in my chair and watch TV and take naps and don't want to do anything. I do ... but I don't. I feel this inertia. I don't have a lot of friends around here, they were all at work, and I'd see them everyday ... and I now I don't. So I miss them. I feel lonely, cut off from the world.
Dear Laureen:
Crazy is alive and well and residing in my head on most days.
What you said about feeling that life has passed you by really resonated with me. I look back at my life and review some of the situations I went through obese and can't help wondering how things would have turned out if I had been thinner. So thank you for bringing that up; it has helped me face a demon that had been lurking in the background.
We are here to help ourselves and each other, so feel free to share your innermost thoughts. You are bound to find some kindred spirits in this bunch.
In the meantime, I'm sending the WLS fairy
your way so she can sprinkle her fairy dust on you and your dreams.Ciao,
Maria
Good morning, ya'll.
Another nothing day in paradise.
Both Grandsons spent the night last night. I think they miss their Momma. She is in OR for her Mom's 60th birthday. Their Dad is deployed until August. They are 16 and 18, so they don't really need Gramma to watch over them. But they sure do like my cookin'. We love havin' around.
I actually do need a few groceries, but nothing I HAVE to have right now.
I still have decent restriction from my last fill, but not at my sweet spot yet. My DH's Dr. gave me a 1 cc fill last month. She said I had a tipped port, but was able to find it and gave me a 1 cc fill. NOTHING! So a week later I drove the 5 hours to my Fill Centers USA doctor. He said there was nothing wrong with my port, it was exactly like it was the last fill he gave me 2 years ago. He was only able to take out .2 cc. I was worried about a leak. He gave me a 1.6 cc fill. Now I'm sure I don't have a leak cause I have decent restriction still after a month. Not sure WHERE my DH's Dr. put that 1 cc. I do know my EOB shows my insurance denied his claim for the fill. I got my band in MX. But he thought since ECU unfilled me, ins would pay for ECU to put it back. NOPE!
Got a boy awake and ready for breakfast, so I'll go.
Have a fantabulous day.
Grammylew in Jax
Protein coffee once again. Creature of habit here.
The weather for the next week is going to be beautiful. They're calling for partly sunny and highs in the mid 30's. Looks like I'll be able to get the dogs out more for walks this week. Yay.
I'll be headed down state Friday. The Detroit Kennel Club show is at Cobo Hall this weekend and I'll be there.
Yesterday it was like a blizzard up here. Blowing and snowing. It was miserable and I was shopping. I bought a new bathing suit at Sam's club, but I have to take it back. DH doesn't like the color, and I don't like the way it feels. It has the little boy shorts, which I need to hide my upper thighs. I guess I'll just keep looking.
Hope Maui Karen is ok after the earthquake in Hawaii. Now a tsunami is headed that way, so pray for them.
Euchre tournament tonight with our Harley Chapter. Should be a great time. I'm taking deviled eggs as my appetizer to pass.
Jani
The weather for the next week is going to be beautiful. They're calling for partly sunny and highs in the mid 30's. Looks like I'll be able to get the dogs out more for walks this week. Yay.
I'll be headed down state Friday. The Detroit Kennel Club show is at Cobo Hall this weekend and I'll be there.
Yesterday it was like a blizzard up here. Blowing and snowing. It was miserable and I was shopping. I bought a new bathing suit at Sam's club, but I have to take it back. DH doesn't like the color, and I don't like the way it feels. It has the little boy shorts, which I need to hide my upper thighs. I guess I'll just keep looking.
Hope Maui Karen is ok after the earthquake in Hawaii. Now a tsunami is headed that way, so pray for them.
Euchre tournament tonight with our Harley Chapter. Should be a great time. I'm taking deviled eggs as my appetizer to pass.
Jani
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