My Epiphanny..........a super one!

You know Millie, I have ALWAYS thought I was a half FULL type of person, I think that must be with everything else....just not myself. Why do we only hear and remember the negatives about ourselves.....I sure don't know....maybe that is how we loaded on the weight we all did.....I thank God for this surgery that enabled me to take it off. It corrected my diabetes so that I could lose.

I had been dieting and working out and not losing...... that is why by Endriconologist  encouraged me to have the surgery. I was up to over 200 units of insulin a day and on 1400-1500 calories a day AND working out....I was gaining about 1.5-2 pounds a week. He told me after surgery and after I lost weight ......that he felt I would not live more than four to five years if I had not had this surgery.

Keep Thinkin' the Good Thoughts
Love, Marti

Marti,
How wonderful you were able to see yourself from others eyes. We forget that it takes baby steps to make it up some hills. I do hope the rest of your days go so well.
Terri

Thanks Terri.....I think sometimes if we listen carefully we will hear the good things and believe them.

Today I went to my grandson's basketball game. [he is 6 years old] They are so cute at that age and it took me back to when my children were young and I sat on the bleachers talking to friends and cheering on the kids.[ I do believe at 6 years old it is mostly encouragement, although I must say that my grandson scored three baskets!!! woo hoo]. It was great to be able to climb up the bleachers and not sit on a chair off to the side like I would have done without WLS.

You know ....I have been feeling so much better after my epiphanny!!!  I just got this e-mail from his Mama...my daughter and I thought I would share it with you....see the difference, I guess it shows.

It was so great to have you there today! It has been great to have you around lately. Making dough with Wyatt, having fun in the kitchen, seeing movies, talking a lot more and great positive energy from you. I sense that you have turned a corner and I am very proud of you and it really shows. You are a great mom and it is nice to have you back! (I have missed you!)

Just think all I would have missed if I had not gotten my butt out of bed that morning to work out.
Love, Marti
ps. Keep up the good work.......you are in that great "honeymoon" phase......every day weight comes off.....gotta love that.

Marti,
Thank You for sharing, What a wonderful input from your daughter. I know that made you feel not only proud, but very warm inside. Families input sometime reminds us of where we came from as well as where we are going.
The Honeymoon is good. though I know it is and will hit its mesa's. Right now I am working on those inter voices that say I am not doing well. All these years of Diet failures has left an voice that pops it head in once in a while. I have to remember that I am doing a very good job. We need to Believe in ourselves. If we don't then can we expect others.
You are looking in side, What a wonderful strong person is inside.
Great Job,

Thank You
Terri

Sweet Marti,

As always, you have made a good point. There are days that I feel like a complete failure and don't even want to get out of bed. I have made a deal with myself to get up, do ONE useful thing, and then 'perfectly' pamper myself with sleep. It's all a big mind game but seems to work.

Most often, that is enough incentive to keep on keeping on. Those are your words of wisdom which inspire me.

Much love & Kisses
Annette

Annette Honey, You know you are so right...I was lying there this morning so tired, knowing I was up way too late last night and got only 4 hours sleep, but then I couldn't go back to sleep and what was the use to just lie there....I kept thinking maybe I could blow off Mass this morning....but then I said get up take a shower wash your hair and then you can sleep if you want until 10:00 am.....so I feel sooo much better, you can see where I am, not in bed sleeping....big deal so I take a little nap this afternoon and get myself all righted again.

I always knew I would love you....but when I met you..... it far exceeded my expectations. You know I have a weakness for Italians. Just keep concentrating on how far you have come, playing with your babies and all the other wonderful things you can do now.

At our ages we are bound to have some physical problems now and then, but we can't let them get us down and make us concentrate on them......only enough o try to cure them....so that we can "Keep on Keeping on". with our life's journey. At least staying out of the nursing homes. You know what the Physical Therapist says...."What you don't USE.....you Lose !

Keeping Thinkin' the Good Thoughts!
Love, Marti

Hi Marti,

Great post. I can identify with it also.  I am going to try to keep this post in my memory.

I am also hard on myself about losing weight.  I ***** because it doesn't come off right away even if I am eating right.   This morning I lost another pound.  I haven't weighed this much since I was born..lol..  Just kidding.

I have lost over 176 lbs.  It has taken me five years.  I didn't have surgery until I lost most of the weight.  It took me five years.  I have to realize, that I did a good job. 

I am closer to my goal and it seems like this is the hardest weight to lose.  I get frustrated.  But, I keep on the path.  Your poar made me realize I am thankful for what I have accomplished and not to look in the future so much as to be thankful for   the past too.  It is an everyday lifestyle change.

I am going to keep on thinking good thoughts.

Thanks

Mary

Dear Mary......Oh  wow you have really accomplished soooo much....wow... is an amazing amount of weight to lose. Tell me some of the things you can do now, that you couldn't 176 pounds ago....I am sure there are many.

I think at this point I am just concentrating on portion control and trying to eat healthy. I am back working out and I know that will help. Do you work out?
Marti

Hi Marti

I CAN CORSS MY LEGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!  lol.   I can buy large instead of 3x.  I still see myself as being that heavy.  I keep my old clothes, I don't know why.  I have to get rid of the reminders.

I can walk longer although my knee is starting to hurt.  I wonder why it never bothered me when I was over three hundred pounds?  Weird.

I feel comfortable in my clothes. 

I am excited to feel comfortable in them.

I can play with my dogs better  and longer.

One thing I want to do when I reach goal is to roller skate again.  lol..  I really want to do this. 

I probably will kill myself.

Thanks for the compliment.  No matter how much we have lost, it is still quite the accomplishment isn't it?

Thanks again

Mary

Hi Marti!
I'm really glad you could see everything you've accomplished over a period of time and go easier on yourself.  I struggle with the issue of high self standards too.  I also have "all or nothing" type thinking.  It's a little bit like you describe *except* that if I thought I would fall short of my mark, I'd give up before even starting.  I'd say to myself, what's the use?  I won't get it right anyway.  I have been working through this issue over the last few weeks so your post really connected with me.  I've been doing things like you mention--changing the goal to fit what I know I can do and also have been looking at myself in the mirror to smile or write down something I did that was worthy of self praise ... stuff like that.  So anyway, bravo to you!!!!
Cassie