New scary development for me.....

Aloha my friends......I have been alcohol free for over 7 years, and suddenly I had a freakish moment when I drove to the store and bought four bottle of red wine...thinking it was good for me! I now feel out of control, and under the influence of a drug that I thought was gone from my life. I am so frightened by the easy force that took me to the store to buy the four bottle of wine........like someone else was driving the car!!

I guess I'm begging here for understanding of what is happening. Alcohol was so out of my world for so many years, and now it is slipping back in as a solution to problems which I wish to forget. I am scared.

I know Marsha has gone through this....but I have not found her connection yet.

Has anyone else found that they are slipping back in to old habits after WLS?

I could sure use some help!

Aloha nui loa,

Maui Karen

Karen

I sent a PM.

Candy

Darlin Candy...I am not receiving PM.......I so need to hear what you have to say.

OXOX

Karen

I think Monica struggles with the same demons. I haven't seen her here for a few weeks. Maybe she is lurking and will offer some advice. Those old habits are so ingrained in our psyche and they seem to pop out at the most unexpected and unwanted times. Maybe it's Gods way of telling you it's time to deal with the issues, whatever they may be. Good luck Karen. I know how scarey the monsters can be but you are a stong intelligent woman and you can put them back in their cages and throw away the key.

Thank you so much Barbara......Yes, itis Monica and I desperately need to be in touth with her. Monica....please contact me.

I am very afraid

Alohanuiloa

Maui Karen

My sweet sweet Karen,addiction transference is so common. I may be stating the obvious,and excuse me if I am. Have you thought of AA? There is also an addiction forum on here..
Much love to you.

Aloha dear Linda......I am SO THANKFUL that I have this sisterhood! I had a bad "moment" yesterday, and this morning dawned and I read the beautiful, supportive responses on here....and you know what I did.....I uncorked and poured the wine down the drain!! Such a close call!

I think without the support of this group of wonderful people, I might have gone on a drawn out bout with this dreaded disease which plagued my father, too. He was my hero, quitting at age 65 (ironic..that's my age), and living another 13 years alcohol free.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being there and caring.

Aloha nui loa,

Maui Karen

My dear Karen, I'm sending a gentle hug you way.

My dad was an alcoholic, and all of my family has had issues with alcohol or other addictive disorders.  For me it was food.  

I keep going back to the old "one day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time" advice that we used to hear back in Al Anon and AA.   I can control things for a minute -- and I go from there.

I've been seeing a therapist for years (pre and post op) and continue to do so, working on my issues.  It might be time for you to seek some counseling to help you?  It has been a lot of help for me.

I'll have you in my thoughts tonight as I go to sleep.  I hope tomorrow is a better day, and that you find ways to deal with this old habit that is trying to creep back into your life.  You are a strong woman and you can deal with this.  You are reaching out for help, and that is such a positive first move.  Let us be an additional support system for you, OK? 

Ev

Aloha Evelyn......My father also was an alcoholic, and even though I never had a drin****il I was in my 30's......it grabbed me quickly. I faced the monster and quit for years and years, and perhaps food took it's place and that's why I got fat. Now food is no longer a comfort in my life, and my life is bringing me big challenges, and I was so tempted to find numbness somewhere......it's not surprising I went on auto pilot and headed for wine. YOU all have been my therapists this morning...and I think I can get past this challenge without going through hell first.

Thank you so much for caring.

Aloha nui loa,

Maui Karen

Karen,

First, let me send you a warm cyber hug.

I have been sitting and pondering a good response. Unless I misread. there are some unresolved issues which you want to forget, and Alcohol was the method used to bury them. Although painful, perhaps it is time to take on those demons and slay them with the help of a therapist? AA meetings would be a logical place for help too.

Yes, I have caught myself reverting to the old habit of a snack in bed late at night. The snack is healthy but I am afraid it will quickly get out of control. Last night I resolved to omit the snack and just drink water.

Kisses Dear Sister
Annette