Problem day..ANXIETY

So I have had much anxiety today, coming here and reading about us helps me so. As I said the weather has been lousy, sleet, sleet, rain, snow, and now wind. John shoveled and shoveled and he is stiff and sore. I worry about everything and I have NO control over anything or anyone else except me. Keep me in your thoughts. I want to continue to be empowered and in control of me as I have been. 

(((((( hugs ))))))) Think happy thoughts

Monica - sending you a group hug...

You are so right, dear, you can only control yourself... something I have been working on for some time now.  I know how you are feeling.

Shelia

Monica,

You made a good move by coming to us. Often a burden is lessened by sharing the load with others.

We have gone through so many changes since having WLS. Occassionally, things come crashing down and we don't have a clue how to gain control. Being aware of the feelings is a good start.

One day at a time - heck no!! Often we have to hang on one MINUTE at a time. Minutes add up to hours and hours add up to days. Gosh I hope I am making sense ?

You are in my thoughts and I hope you are not offened if I say in my prayers too.
Annette

hang in there monica...you have come a long way baby!!! stay strong and keep posting if need be to keep you going!! we are all here for you sweetie!!

will keep you in my prayers and thoughts and hopefully i am not affending you by prayer...

hugs

Monica:

The only thing I have learned over almost 56 years of life is that though I want to be in control (very much!)  I control NOTHING.

But I also believe if you just hang in there things WILL GET BETTER!

Jeane

Anxiety is a terrible thing.  I suffer from it as well. Worry, worry, worry about everything and can't change anything but ourselves. These horrible demons we have to deal with in our lives can seem overwhelming at times.  From reading your posts you seem like such a nice and caring person.  And I look at your picture and think what a beautiful face you have.  Plus... you have a great name.  I named my daughter Monica. You have accomplished much with the weight loss and other issues you are dealing with.  One day at a time or maybe some days, one hour at a time.  I think that works best.

I deal with anxiety issues also. It can cause all sorts of health problems. Be good to yourself and take time for you (to be good to you).

Hey Monica!!  Do my eyes deceive me?  Are you really in SD??  Getting closer and closer to Oregon!  I haven't even checked in since maybe October but it's nice to still see some familiar and loved faces!  Sorry to hear you are having a bad day.

So, I'll be bad bad bad just like in the bad old days... and tell you my little story....

Ages ago, someone gave David some shrooms which sat in a baggie in a drawer for a long long time.  Finally, on a day when we had no work, when the goats were all fed and cozy in the barn, when the rain was shrieking outside but we were warm, well fed and cozy inside... he talked me into taking them.  So I made them up in to honey laced tea and drank up....

Well, I got REALLY buzzed which was surprising since they were pretty old.... but I also became so anxious!  Oh my!  The world.  The economy.  The election.  The war.  So much poverty.  So much hunger.  The refugees.  The future.  OUR future.  My son and $.  My mother and health.  My grandson and possible learning disabilities.  OMG!!! The world is a MESS!!! and CROWDED!!!!  and getting HOTTER!!!! OMG!!!!!

David was having a much better trip, watching football on TV of all things but not really approachable with MY anxieties... so I called my son.... it all came out in a rush.... and he was so kind, so gentle and so reassuring.  His reality is as precarious as my fears for him pictured.... but he was able to ask me a few questions that put me at ease:  right now, right at this moment... are you OK?  Are you warm?  Well fed?  With someone you love or who at least will care for you (shovelling your walk counts)?  Is there any real danger of something that will come through your door to get you RIGHT NOW?  NO??? Then relax and try to put your concerns off to another day when things won't look so bad and you'll have more strength and better tools to deal with them.

It worked for me that night.... the game ended and we went to bed and drowned in what I call the "amnesia of skin".... that skin to skin warmth will make you forget EVERYTHING!

I hope you are able to put it all aside until another day when things won't look so bad and you'll have more strength and better tools to deal with it all.  {{{hugs}}}  Nancy

Nancy, your shrooms sound like my cigar box.  My sister called me and said, come get your stuff out of my attice and I did and I found a cigar box and underneath all my prized possessions was a little bag of weed that had all but turned to dust.  So, I took my cigar box home, put it in my closet and one day a few weeks ago, my hubby was at work, and I was looking through my cigar box and found the weed and thought, wtf not, and rolled me a dubie and proceeded to fire it up and smoke it down and wouldn't you know, it still had a bad kick and the next thing you know, I was calling my friend because I was convinced the cops were coming over to bust me.  She came by and took me to her house and I sat there checking the window every few minutes until I came down.  Later, my husband said it could have been the pot and my pain pills mixed together but I'm thinking it was just really aged pot, like a good bottle of aged wine, better with time.