What we are eating and what's eating us.Sunday!
Hi Linda
isn't it amazing that the 476 pound woman still resides in your head! I found that to be true each time I lost weight (and regained the weight and several new pounds). The heavier person inside of me refused to leave!
For years I thought "this can't be happening" or "it's not fair! I'm dieting" ...or "i shouldn't have eaten that/done that" ...when I began to regain the weight. And I learned that as long as I thought that way, I was locked in a struggle against reality. I was living in unproductive regret and denial. I guess I was using that denial as a way to avoid the truth ,that my life was out of control.
I am doing my best now to live in the here and now.
So here and now I attest to the fact that I'm an obese woman who is finally regaining control over her body. I'm doing the 6 month medically supervised diet and hope to have RNY surgery sometime in March or April. THIS time, when I lose all this excess weight, I'm locking the door to this obese woman and retraining my brain to remember the obese me, love her, and then let her go.
It's good to let go! If we don't make room for our new selves in our brain, I think we do ourselves an injustice. Hug that 476 lb woman, lover her and let her fade away. the new you IS emerging!
Linda
Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel
that you, too, can become great." ..... MarkTwain
I spent the morning getting filled up on hugs and sloppy kisses. Yummy!
Matthew, Melanie and I went outside to watch the crows, hold Daddy Long Legs and collect pine cones. We began to MARCH MARCH MARCH around the lawn, then the kids decided we needed to RUN GRANDMA RUN!! And I can!!!
Now that I have checked in with my OFF family, Tom and I are going to do something together.
Catch you later.
Kisses
Annette
Annette 
I am praying for Olivia and all of you.....you are an awesome Mom!!!
Blessings to you all.
Went on a date last night with the man I met Friday night. I felt comfortable with him as we do have several of the same friends.
We met up with a group of other friends and danced the night away.
It was a good time. He asked to come over after so we could talk more. I reminded him that would be all it was going to be!! He said he respected me for not sleeping around. He said others told him I was a classy lady and didn't mess around....LOL. I am not feeling anything but friendship for this man. He is nice but there aren't any sparks there at all. We cuddled and kissed alittle and it just wasn't happening. Nada...nothing!! He obviously wants more but I don't. I hope he settles for being just friends!! What is your take on this??? Personally I think I am still stuck in the TONY mode.....one kiss from him and I saw stars. It was all there baby!! We both still have to fight that when we see each other......how do I get past that????
B-protein bar...(10:00AM)
L-chicken salad lettuce wrap and tomato slices
S-banana .... maybe with some peanut butter
D-talapia and brocolli w/cheese
S-yogurt w/ kashi
Have a good day my dear friend!! You are always right here in my thoughts and prayers!!
....oodles of hugs too.......Boo....to you! 
You will know when you are ready. I don't think I will ever be ready for a man in my life again...sigh.
It is great that you went out dancing though. As long as you set boundaries I think you will be fine. I wouldn't hug and kiss with him again, then he will know he is going down a dead end street if he wants more.
Darn right you are a classylady!!
WHAT WE FEAR,WE CREATE.
He said he doesn't think I am in Tony mode any more. He just thinks my standards are high and I am not compromising anymore. If it isn't right it isn't right. He thinks Dick is just too laid back for me. Dawayne knows him and his friends too.
Onward I go.....thought I would see if there were sparks but nothing there so that tells me to move on. I like him and hope we can be friends but no fringe benefits!! Dawayne said he thinks Dick might not be able to handle the rejection and won't want to talk to me again....oh well his loss!!
Hugs and love to you......Boo....to you!!
Went to that wedding reception last nite...almost a 2 hr drive each way but needed to get out.
I dran**** water since I was driving, they served cake which I stayed far from but they did have an awesome fireworks display off one of the ski hills....never seen one that beautiful!! There were some younger friends there but they were pretty drunk by the time my co-worker and I got there.
We stayed about 2 hrs and came home by 11:30. My clothes did work well Linda...I spent the day moving the buttons over to make the pants so they wouldn't fall off and bought new shoes. I felt pretty good eventho I'm still obese.
Connie, I wish I could give you some advice other than go with your instinct. I haven't been wanted in that way for many years and I know times have changed so I'm not much help.
When it's right, you'll know it. One big thing I've learned with this journey is to be in tune to myself.
Hope all of you have a great day and next wk!
Alice
I love Spring!!!!!!
