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JeanB
Hi Barb and all,
The John & Kate series is one of my favorites too.
Today I finally have an appointment with my shrink. This is so long over due. I have been hanging on, but not very well. Each day it is a struggle to eat because I feel FAT. The tiny shred of sanity left in this brain keeps me eating. I know the problem is not the weight but my "stinking thinking".
At last nights support meeting we talked about body image. A couple of people said they never realized how big they were before WLS but can now appreciate their new smaller size.
I admitted that I still see a fat person looking back in the mirror.
Admitting there is a problem was not easy. Ignoring it wouldn't help either.
If one more person tells me that WLS is the easy way out, I may explode.
Going through the process to have surgery was difficult. Changing every aspect of my life was hard work. Follow all the guidelines and still experiencing complications has been frustrating. I'm just having a rough time lately.
Time to get off my soapbox and end my pity party. Neither one are productive.
Annette
The John & Kate series is one of my favorites too.
Today I finally have an appointment with my shrink. This is so long over due. I have been hanging on, but not very well. Each day it is a struggle to eat because I feel FAT. The tiny shred of sanity left in this brain keeps me eating. I know the problem is not the weight but my "stinking thinking".
At last nights support meeting we talked about body image. A couple of people said they never realized how big they were before WLS but can now appreciate their new smaller size.
I admitted that I still see a fat person looking back in the mirror.
Admitting there is a problem was not easy. Ignoring it wouldn't help either.If one more person tells me that WLS is the easy way out, I may explode.
Going through the process to have surgery was difficult. Changing every aspect of my life was hard work. Follow all the guidelines and still experiencing complications has been frustrating. I'm just having a rough time lately.
Time to get off my soapbox and end my pity party. Neither one are productive.
Annette
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Hi Annette,
I just had to respond to your post.
Good job on making the appt. it is tough to do....having to go back and start talking about all of the crap...
I have been toying with calling the therapist I had been seeing off and on for a long time...think I need a tune-up....
Been feeling REALLY depressed...know it sounds trite but I really do....
I am not seeing a fat person in the mirror, but an OLD one now...(not what is really making me feel so low but it doesn't help) I was used to being told I didn't look my age but now...man, that was the one thing good all that fat did for me. I am looking so OLD!
Maybe I just need to talk to her or maybe an increase in meds...who knows.....gotta do something, my poor husband can tell I am not feeling so hot...As Rosanne Rosanna Danna said "It's always somthin!"
Take care, Annette, and hope the doc can clear up your "eyes" so you can see the cute little Annette we see!
Cheryl
Hi Annette,
I just had to respond to your post.
Good job on making the appt. it is tough to do....having to go back and start talking about all of the crap...
I have been toying with calling the therapist I had been seeing off and on for a long time...think I need a tune-up....
Been feeling REALLY depressed...know it sounds trite but I really do....
I am not seeing a fat person in the mirror, but an OLD one now...(not what is really making me feel so low but it doesn't help) I was used to being told I didn't look my age but now...man, that was the one thing good all that fat did for me. I am looking so OLD!
Maybe I just need to talk to her or maybe an increase in meds...who knows.....gotta do something, my poor husband can tell I am not feeling so hot...As Rosanne Rosanna Danna said "It's always somthin!"
Take care, Annette, and hope the doc can clear up your "eyes" so you can see the cute little Annette we see!
Cheryl
We never touch people so lightly we do not leave a trace.
Peggy Tabor Millin
Thank you Cheryl,
These brains need a good tune up every so often but admitting to that fact is hard.
We tend to ignore the small things bugging us and let them grow and fester. Please, make your appointment soon.
Oh boy how I understand about the age thing. The fat sure plumped out the wrinkles.
As the weight has come off it feels like so many unresolved issues have emerged. Has the brain shrunk and made it easier for them to reach the surface? My psychiatrist will have to work hard to earn his money with me.
Your understanding touched my heart. I haven't been able to explain this to Tom. He has reached the point of frustration. He thinks I look anorexic and way underweight. A couple of days ago he actually got angry when I voiced my feelings. He said he thinks without the extra skin I wouldn't weigh 90 pounds. I think he exagerates, he thinks I do. We are probably both kind of wrong.
Annette
These brains need a good tune up every so often but admitting to that fact is hard.
We tend to ignore the small things bugging us and let them grow and fester. Please, make your appointment soon.
Oh boy how I understand about the age thing. The fat sure plumped out the wrinkles.
As the weight has come off it feels like so many unresolved issues have emerged. Has the brain shrunk and made it easier for them to reach the surface? My psychiatrist will have to work hard to earn his money with me.
Your understanding touched my heart. I haven't been able to explain this to Tom. He has reached the point of frustration. He thinks I look anorexic and way underweight. A couple of days ago he actually got angry when I voiced my feelings. He said he thinks without the extra skin I wouldn't weigh 90 pounds. I think he exagerates, he thinks I do. We are probably both kind of wrong.
Annette
Annette Thanks, Annette,
Yep, my poor Tom probably can't figure out what the heck is going on...one minute I am thrilled to be the size I am...the next, I think I look disgusting. He thinks I am skinny I think I could lose more. He says I look good, I don't believe him....the hanging skin is just gross! Poor guy, he can't win. Worries about me I know. I think he worries that I don't eat enough or that it doesn't always stay down....
I just dread going in to "talk." With my background in mental health I am always sure I have some personality disorder! and she'll say "AH HA, you have a personality disorder!"
Thanks again, and hugs to you as you see the doc...
Cheryl
Yep, my poor Tom probably can't figure out what the heck is going on...one minute I am thrilled to be the size I am...the next, I think I look disgusting. He thinks I am skinny I think I could lose more. He says I look good, I don't believe him....the hanging skin is just gross! Poor guy, he can't win. Worries about me I know. I think he worries that I don't eat enough or that it doesn't always stay down....
I just dread going in to "talk." With my background in mental health I am always sure I have some personality disorder! and she'll say "AH HA, you have a personality disorder!"
Thanks again, and hugs to you as you see the doc...
Cheryl
We never touch people so lightly we do not leave a trace.
Peggy Tabor Millin
Morning all.....got my new glasses this morning, but can't use them when I'm on the computer.....Also got a really nice pair of clip on sunglasses for them..
Yesterday at work someone commented on my weight loss and said "you look so TINY".....you've got to be kidding, at 215 lbs, I am far from tiny!!!! Does that suggest that when I weighed over 300 I was HUGE???
Anyway I thanked them and went back to work....
Thanks my story for today....have a good one.
Pat R.
P.S. congrats Judy on your new freedom....I know this is
what you have wanted for ever so long......use it wisely.
Yesterday at work someone commented on my weight loss and said "you look so TINY".....you've got to be kidding, at 215 lbs, I am far from tiny!!!! Does that suggest that when I weighed over 300 I was HUGE???
Anyway I thanked them and went back to work....
Thanks my story for today....have a good one.
Pat R.
P.S. congrats Judy on your new freedom....I know this is
what you have wanted for ever so long......use it wisely.
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had to respond here...body image...i also never saw myself as "fat" as i was!!! now looking at my photos the few i have of me before WLS i say OMG!!!!! i never knew i was that huge before!!!!! i never saw myself as fat...huge etc...i look at photos of me now and don't see myself in the crowd unless i really look for the NEW me!!!!! its a mind boggler thats for sure!!!!
WLS easy???? yeah right!!!! (altho i never had any problems...wish i did at times when i eat the wrong stuff!!!)
good luck sis on trying to get your brain to work this out for you!!!
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