Whine, Whine, Whine

I need to whine........so please bear with me. My best friend at work left today...moving to Alabama.  I am more comfortable with just a few close freindships and she and I had become very good friends during the past couple of years.  (Damn her husband for taking that transfer)!!! I am getting very nervous because I'm having 4 of my preop tests this week.  I know, I know.  The normal person would be thrilled.  I am just getting cold feet I guess.   I smoked 1/2 of a cig today and now feel guilty.  The Chantix I'm taking to help me quit is upsetting my stomach (I've been pooping 4-6 times a day for a week) and now I'm getting those real sore bumps on my tongue.   I don't know the location where I'm supposed to have my Ultrasound done at 10 in the morning.   My neighbor who said she would take me to have my endoscopy Wednesday has backed out on me..... I want to go on a date one more time before I go to a nursing home.  I'm too young not to have kissed a man for 7 years!!!!!!!!!!!  I'm ready to come out from hiding under all this fat.  I want a life!! {lying on the floor kicking and screaming}!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Donna, I have you WAY beat.  I haven't had a real date in 10 years, and its not because I am too picky.  I really only have two criteria for a potential mate.  All he needs is---- a job and teeth. Now, does that sound like I am hard to please?  

geez, YOU ARE PICKY....I require breathing...with or without assistance from a machine.   lol  Thanks.  I did manage to smile at this. I wouldn't date for the past 7 years because of numersous medical problems.  During this time I was also diagnosed with Adult ADD.  I felt like I had to get myself straightened out before I let somebody back in my life.  Well, I'm ready to get straight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  lol

Donna, if you can't whine here there is nowhere else to whine. I have found that one out the hard way!!! No one wants to listen to me but you guys. I don't even want to listen to me so how pathetic is that???? You just need to calm down and breathe!!! Take one breath in and then exhale. Just make sure that you keep doing that. I have found it is very important to do.  Things will work out. You are not going to lose your best friend just because she is moving, it is alright to be afraid since  that is human nature. Deep down you know you are happy that things are coming but you wouldn't be normal if you didn't have some fear and aprehension. Don't beat yourself up because you smoked a half of a cig today. Just make sure that you get back up and go on. You are doing good so you don't want to mess it up now. Just because you made one boo boo doesn't make you a failure. If it did we would all be failures and I know that we didn't get to where we are today if we are failures. As for the place where you are having your ultrasound can you just google the address? If not google then mapquest. I find google's to be better and easier to follow since I am so bad at directions. You can also not be like a man and stop and ask directions!! I am sure there is someone who can take you to your endo on Wednesday. You have some time to try to find someone to help. Most people are willing to help if you only ask. Pride goeth before a fall you know. I think that you are on your way to a date before the nursing home stop. haha Trust me~I have been kissed by some men that I wish I had never seen let alone been kissed by!!! But that is a whole different story. When we have several weeks I will tell it all. haha Just be grateful when you are on the floor kicking and screaming you can get up. I never would have been able to!!! Not to sure if my old knees would let me do it now either.  Hope you are feeling better. I am sending love and big hugs to you!!!!

Ok...breathe in breathe out breathe in.... PPhew that feels better.  I know I'm in a 'tizzy'.  I've not handled anything well today.   Getting up off the floor description reminds me of the day a co-worker and I went to lunch.  He is the age of my son and drives a Trans Am.  I had to roll out of the car onto my knees then grab the door and seat to get myself up..... I am feeling better.  Had to cry a little, smile a little, then come here and laugh a little.   Thank you!

Donna, just look at this way~it is better to be in tizzy than in a dizzy tizzy! That could be a big problem. haha  Glad that your laughing~it is better to laugh than to cry.  I have a story about a Corvette. I tried to get out of it and had a dress on. Not a good thing for that let alone being fat too!!! What a combination. The guy liked the fact that the dress was sliding up though. If you ask me he is probably blind now from that episode. haha Oh! I do remember hearing him yelling "My eyes! I am blind now!!!!!" Yes~that did happen, I remember now!!!

* * * * OMG * * * You two are hysterical. Not being kissed by a man is .. well, the least of my worries. I do enjoy the company of men, just to be around them and listen to them. Plus, there is a lot of romance going on in those nursing homes.... lol First of all..... Get up off the floor and stop kicking & screaming... Put on your big girl Panties and deal with it... lol your neighbor isn't the only person around to help you. You may discover a gem of a friend who will be with you. And it may be the start to a very endearing friendship... or more (wink). For directions... well map quest is at your fingertips.... leave a little earlier or better yet .. can you call for the directions? Once you get your tests done... go out and buy some makeup... one size fits all... maybe a seductive cologne too... Men like that ... then start planning your assault on he male population once you are where you want to be size wise.. You are at the threshold of a whole new life. ENJOY THE JOURNEY..... Millie

I'll have you know my panties are Granny Panties!  LOL  Big and White!!!!!!!!!  You know it is kind of hard to type with my lips poked out down to keyboard level. I just want to find a victim....ummmm make that date one more time so I can mark that off my "Ok, so why did I want to do that" list.   One of my daughters works in a nursing home but I wouldn't trust her to set me up.  She did that once (not a man from the nursing home).   Suffice it to say, she would not make it in the match making business.   lol   I think I'll see if I can find someone who will re-pierce my ears....long story....lol Thanks, I needed this jolt!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol

OK< I've got you beat ... are you ready? I'm the oldest living virgin not a nun. Never been kissed. Have had three whole dates my whole life, two in the past three years since I've lost my weight. Don't really think I care if I have another one or not because I've seen what's out there (and it ain't all that wonderful, let me tell you!) I don't need a man to complete me ... been by myself all my life ... I just want him to pay my bills!

You just reminded me of another reason I stopped daing....they were duds (not dudes, duds).    Guess this is one of those times I miss my male friends but they have all married now.