Me too...for a week or so!

I'm finally getting back to my regular routine. It seemed like my mind just wasn't tracking very well for a few weeks. Calling Mom was a daily ritual for me, trying to keep in touch with her in KS and me out in CO. I have to remind myself that she's not there anymore, take a deep breath and get on with getting on. Last week I had to have my Interstim wires repositioned again. Having my hip and spine opened up again is not my idea of a fun thing...and no more Mom to call and get sympathy noises from. I'm beginning to feel like doing all the driving again to visit the homebound and ill that my parish nurse job requires. My 3 younger sisters have sorta turned me into the mom of the group! They all call me and tell me about their memories of Mom and how many tears they've shed. I wonder when I get to cry. I've got so many things to organize re: Dad's care, etc. I guess that time will have to be postponed. I am, after all, a nurse...apparently that means I don't feel or fall apart. So...my DH and I are taking off for NH and ME next week and I'll be away from the girls' myriad phone calls. We'll be gone for 2 weeks, then home a week, then KS for a week so I can get Dad to the doctor in Topeka I want him to see...and so my life goes on...here and there. This doesn't mean I don't think of all of you every day. I'm just a wandering member of the forum. At least for now...

I'm sorry, but I must have missed when your mom died ... I have no computer at home anymore (or maybe I was away at the time) so  I don't get on the board on the weekends. So sorry. And you are doing so much for yourself too. Take care of yourself, but we do miss you.

Thanks ever so much, Eileen. I think this vacation with just the 2 of us should help.

you have been in my thoughts lately quite a bit...be sure to take this time for yourself and try to relax! hugs.....

Rusty, I am glad that you and hubby are going to take time just for you. Both of you need it. Your life has been so upset lately, so make sure you relax and enjoy each other. Real life is going to hit you again soon enough. You take time for you and just forget about what is going on here in the real world. Our love and big hugs are with you as you go through the upset that you are. I pray that your life soon goes back to normal and you too are allowed to grieve your loss. Have a wonderful time and know that you are missed when you aren't here with us but we do understand. We will be waiting here for you with open arms when you return back to us rested and full of vim and vigor! Love to you sister in red.

Thanks to all of you for your understanding. How wonderful to know I can drop in and out and find such support and friendship.

Dear Rusty, you can always come home to OFF for the sympathy and caring you need.  There are many shoulders here for you to cry on, though they may be bony! Enjoy your vacation with your DH - it sounds like just the right medicine for you! HUGS Debbie

Thanks so much. I surely will get back eventually to write another Rusty adventure as Hawaii Karen calls them.