Size 4??
I started this journey almost 5 years ago at a size 5X. I'll turn 58 on Monday. Last night I had to downsize pants (again). I bought 2 pair of size 4's with 3 medium shirts. I blew passed the 8's from 10 to 6 and was shocked. I was happy at a 10. Okay I thought 6 it will be!! And, bought the wardrobe at a 6. Yikes. Now they are too big and wonder how many 4's to get?? Goodness, will a 2 be in my future? It is inconceivable to go from a 5X to a 4. Just about the time I was thinking maybe my brain had caught up with my size 10 butt - I turn around and 3 months later my butt is a 4. I don't care about the number at all, but I do care about my wallet and it being emptied so often and so rapidly.
The doc says all is well, tests are all good so far, though there are more in the future. I eat healthy, no anorexic thoughts or feelings. Just can't eat enough and can't remember to do it either. When my zest for life takes the place of my love for food - I guess i can say this surgery worked. I hold up these 4's and they look like little girl Levis. There is no way they will fit ME! Then I put them on and they fit perfectly. Guess the brain has to do more cognitive awareness and acceptance....ya think?
Isn't this a ride????
Jeani
Hi Reggie..........Thanks very much for the congrats. And, I guess WOW is an appropriate response; it's the one I would have given preop too. Having experienced it however, WOW is woefully inadequate. Gurl, going through this is like nothing else in the experience of life for me so far. You know in the movie Pretty Woman, when he climbs the fire escape and rescues her from the tower? Imagine how that must have been for her. A lifetime fantasy come true. Well this is like that. A lifetime fantasy come true. I've always heard "Careful what you wish for, you just might get it"...Have you hard that? I've experienced the whole thing. The careful part is sooo very real and important. In the getting of the fantasy there is a lot of work, internal and external and had I known what I was in for I would not have had the courage to climb up on that gurney. It's a good thing I didn't know! LOL....It's like childbirth I guess - When you look back from the perspective of the mother of a 13-year old "freak" would you have given birth in the first place? Likely not!! LOLOL. But when one is already in the process one has nothing to choose but to keep putting one foot in front of the other one and keep on keeping on. So, this is a result of almost 5 years of exhilaration and down and out misery, panic, fear, pain, joy and tears. We are the intrepid, us hybrids. We show a courage that is superhuman....we rock. I'm really glad to see you've found this board and these wonderful, supportive friends who will be here when you need them most. Just keep on keeping on.........and thanks again, Jeani
Annette 
Yeah!!! you get it. I was certain I was a 10, and shocked all over the place at the 6....and Now??? my doc says not to worry too.......do you ever feel like the strings of your balloons are just going to drift away? I've had to go inside and get real deep and strong to remain connected to the earth. I know that sounds strange and a little woowoo...but I can't explain it any better than that. Sometimes I feel so freakin' fragile. I was strong as a bull and like an ox before, now though I'm toned and work out I feel so.............light...........it's just plain weird Connie...........LOLOL
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