I PROMISED...

I did get your vibes!!!  When I logged on your post was the first one I read.  Didja' get the pink bike?  A couple of months ago we were at a Schwinn Store in Tempe, AZ and I was just floored by the darling bicycles they had.  I mean the pain jobs!!!  Wow.  And that shade of pink is so girlie girl.  I want one!!!  I liked the yellow one with the Hawaiian theme too.  Love the tires - big, fat and whitewalls.  Too cute.  I have a 10-speed and a mountain bike.  But a cruiser would be just too much fun!!!  ....................  And thanks for the blonde sexy part!!!  Honestly?  It FEELS sexy too, but wait........maybe that's just me!!!  Hahahaha..........Hey how'd it go with that big cowboy you were dating?  Is he still in the picture?  Gawd it's good to see you!!...............Smooches

Yes I really did mean I thought the blond looks very sexy..I did get the bike and I love it. My legs are somewhat twisted from years of Arthritis so it is not real easy but I think with practice i will get better.. Now for Chuck..sigh( picture of him and me in my profile) We have been "going together" for almost 2 years, he is pushing to get  married. He is very very old school. ( Gee, I'm getting hungry means fix me something to eat) he wants me by his side all the time, wants me to do what he wants to do when he wants to do it. And when ever I start to talk he interupt me. what I have to say holds no importance.My Ex was a passive whimp and to be honest I ran the show. I am too old to start being told what to do now. I just feel like I am in prison.BUT 80% of the time he is a dear giving person who I know adores me.When he starts to talk marriage I run home and cry. ( Not a good sign)  My daughter is getting married in 3 weeks and he has told me after that is all over he wants a date. I can't do it.. the last gal who broke up with him had her home riddled with bullets and a person came in time to find him surrounded with home made bombs he had plans for.. Even my pastor has told me I can't break up with him he will have to break up with me. He has improved a lot in the last couple of years, But I  don't see a happily ever in our future. I am just going to assert my self  more often and I hope that will pi** him off and he will get sick of me.

Oh!!! This is sooooooooo NOT okay.  You're being held hostage!!  Yikes.  I'm sure you know what you're doing, but dayam gurl.  Now do I have to put you on that list I check once a year called the "Worry List"???  I NEVER worry, but I like to refer to whatever I'm supposed to be worried about!  I have a step-daughter that is doing her best to bring "D-R-A-M-A" into my life and I won't let HER, but ya' know I can get a flight ticket and kick his ass for you (and I'm just the "recovered" woman to do it too)....LOL..........xoxoxo

Hey.... How the heck are you missy!!   See my post above. I'll write more later. Gala

PS..Do you still eat 5 fruits a day?  I was thinking about that. I am eatting JUNK.. I was wondering if I got myself to do that maybe it would curb my grazing..

Actually, honestly, I can't.  I don't have the room or the time.  I have to eat so slowly now...only 2-3 bites at a time.  My stomach is TINIER than ever apparently.  I know it's not a stricture, just small....and my doc says if I don't eat it'll shrink more and I'll wind up on babyfood!  I remember from early on with the anorexia I didn't have a clue I was starving.......I still wouldn't.  So, I set a timer and take a few bites.  I do try to eat 3 a day.  I usually eat 1/2 orange, 1 mango and 1 banana, changing it up with apples, grapes and strawberries, blue berries and black berries.  I'm big on the berries!!!  The rest of it is pure protein.  I don't eat carbs anymore - too much trouble and a waste of space and time.  I don't graze, mostly because I don't think of it.  Geez - I can't believe that's me saying that.  Forgetting to eat was NEVER an issue I thought I'd have, not ME.  I remember stopping at 3 fast food places on the way home at night at 9:30 p.m. on a 1 1/2 hour commute.  I did MickyD first, then JaxSnax and then TacoSmell and I'd eat it all before I got home.  Jean I've just been very fortunate....maybe the Fates knew I needed a special blessing and gave me this twist - I was a hard case.  My size 6 will be a size 4 I predict before July when I go to CA for a visit on the 4th.  I'm sorry your mind is creating a situation that seems to need JUNK!!  I know I sound crazy - many think I am.......hell maybe I am, but I'm good crazy!! LOL.......  Check inside - way deep inside.  Check the small, still voice.  Not the thinking or the mind chatter but the voice that doesn't speak very often....you know the one that connects us with our Source, our Being??  That's where your real answer is - not in the JUNK.  I love you.........xoxoxo

Jeani - kind of new to the board.  Had my RNY  7-2-07 with an awesome 10 months.  I am down 115# and reached my goal 6 weeks ago.  I took a look at your pictures - OMG - you are beautiful! Randa

Hi Randa..............Nice to meet you.  Congratulations on your weight loss and reaching goal so quickly.  This board was my home in early recovery - I grew up here..........(Yeah like I'm an adult now - HAH!)  Thank you  for the compliment.  I feel beautiful - I behave beautifully and I'm having the time of my life.......but it's all from the inside where I've completely remodeled, renovated, torn down and restructured.......adding lots of light!!  It was so dark and dense before RNY.  Aren't we just the most fortunate???  Be well, Jeani

I'll read more later. If you still have my gmail addy - email me. :) Gala

Hey child how are you?  I totally gave up on Gmail - too much spam.......don't even have the account anymore....Hope you are well............Jeani