I PROMISED...

I'd drop in now and then. Wow.  This place is changed!!  I've been trying to change this picture and it ain't happenin!!  I would love any suggestions as to how to do that. I made that stupid profile public again, without cleaning it up even.  Whatever.... I did post a new today pic at 144 pounds.  It's been almost 5 years now.  My journey has taken me down some dusty, rocky trails, but I'm really likin' the view from here.  Life just keeps getting better the more I get to know the real me.  I continue to lose...I know, still.  I'm not sure why, just lucky I guess?  I follow the "suggestions" and I feel great these days.  Have had bouts of really low blood sugar, muscle cramps, and still unable to eat more than 2 oz at a time.  I don't know what's up with that, but this is not a complaint.  It's probably because I was anorexic in the very beginning and my pouch just healed tiny without any useage.  Hell, i don't know and as long as I feel as good as I do today I don't care.   Still hairdressing, still married, still living outside the box; still making waves.  LOL. I did put some pics in the place where it let me! LOL...I am sooo not techno-savvy. It's good to be here and read about Jean B being thrilled and angry at the same time - life can be like that can't it? And, Deb....it's good when we state our boundaries and have the healthy expectation that they will be respected.  I think learning what those are and being very clear on that is the important thing!!! It's good to "see" you all again........ Smooches, Jeani

OH MY GOD  Jeani you are still here sure miss you and your funny tails  have to run but I will be back  Boo ( Maryann )

Hey Boo!

Where am I going to go ???  This will always be home.  It is where I am loved and where I learned it is okay to be hated.  Just like a family! LOLOL

Hope all is well with you - I'm rockin!!

xoxoxox

HEY BACK You are such a hottie Hope you are liveing the life BIG and enjoying it  I am some day I will get out there to see you  We have been here so long and we never met Got to run need to earn my $$$$$$$$$$$$$ Boo

Me??? Hottie???  Wow.  Those two words in the same sentence - hmmm on the same page....hell the same universe.......You are very generous - I bet you say that to all the gurls!!!  LOLOLOL ..... I am living BIG - Bigger than most dare...LOL and loving every awesome minute of it, and I deserve it after 53 years of hiding and dying.......................Hey?  Did you earn your money???  We MUST meet!  That would be fun.............xoxoxoxoxo

Hi Jeani...I just checked your profile....you look gorgeous..WOW!!! You look so different in your before and after pics it is hard to believe it is the same person. Congratualtions on the wonderful job you are doing using that tool!! What an inspiration! Hugs, connie d

Good morning Connie,....If there is any way possible for you to do this - I couldn't and still can't some days (LOL) try to wrap your brain around BEING that every day.  Eckhart Tolle says he smiles and congratulates people when they tell him they don't know who they are anymore.  Well when I look in a mirror or pay attention to my clothes or put on my makeup I have to stay focused inside!!  If I focus on the outside and my "looks" I have the strongest sensation of having been on a carnival ride and the world is tilted a little because I can't "see" the me I was for 53 years.  It's been almost 5 years and I still marvel at the mirror and wonder!  But the good news is that this has forced me to go inside more where I've found the real me and I sure do like her!!  Good luck to you, I see your date is coming!!  Nice meeting you, and thanks, Jeani

Jeani....I already had my surgery last August.....I am down below my goal weight . I know exactly what you mean about finding yourself again. I too had to do that. It is good to have the old me back again!! I am very comfortable with myself right now.  The only problem I have is seeing myself as others do...physically. I have a little trouble with that. I still see myself as a heavy person. I am working with my therapist and nutritionist on that issue.  Have a wonderful day.....connie d

Duh!  Jeani it's 2008!!!  Sorry Connie.  That's what happens when I don't pay enough attention!!  I'm glad to hear you're doing so well!!  My first year was pretty rocky, haha, all my years have been rocky !  I wonder if we'll EVER see ourselves as others do??  I wonder if anyone does?  VERY good to hear you are working with a therapist and nutritionist.  I wish more of us would.  I think true progress and success make that mandatory, at least it was for me.  I'm happy about the diffricult time I had.  With the help of professionals I was able to recover physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.  We made a hard choice and what is the point of only doing it half way after such a drastic decision?  Good for you Connie I'm always pleased beyond measure to read of someone that's a success in all areas.  May your day be blessed........Jeani

brat checking in!!! hi sista not sure that i like the blonde look --maybe in person! jmho!