Struggling!! Again!! Still!!

I have been struggling.  I gave up checking in here.  Still going to WW but in 12 weeks I have lost 11 pounds.  Not the fault of the program.  More the thoughts in my head.  I know I am in troble when I stop tracking and checking into the website.  Okay, trying again.  It usually isn't this hard for me to drop some weight.  I got disgusted, totally ate wrong this weekend, and felt awful this morning when we went to swim.  So far so good as far as food goes today.  But I try not to get to angry at myself, but part of me is so disgusted with me.  I think that hearing about Kaiser being so far behind in doing these surgeries got me down but I also think I am using it as an excuse.  I think I just need a kick in the pants.  I don't know what else any of you can do. I hope you are doing well. I have to do some reading back on the postings.  Have a great day!

Don't give up and give in to those old eating habits!! You will have your surgery when the time is right!! Keep your eye on the prize!! You can do this.....don't give up and let the food win!! You can do it!!!! Remember nothing tastes as good as thin feels!! Hugs, connie d

Thank you Connie!  I can't say I have ever been thin so I don't know what it feels like.  I do bet it is a lot nicer than I feel now.  Congratulations on reaching your goal.  You must be so proud.

Sharon, I am so sorry. Of course I see myself in you, the many tries, the disgust, the helplessness. It will get better, do the best you can and the hell with the rest. Love yourself..make friends with yourself..and most of all darling, don't stay away. Ours is a disease of isolation, and I have social anxiety, OFF has become my second home, I share all with these women... Stay, cry, ***** moan....but stay. Hugs...

Thank you Linda!  I have seen that you are very supportive of everyone here.  I will try to stay in touch.  It is so important.

Good, a burden shared, is best, and lighter....smile.

Glad you came back, Sharon! I've been "just starting" for almost a year now.  I see my surgeon tomorrow.... we'll see what delays they can come up with then.  But......  I'm determined.  I'm more patient than I ever knew I could be.  But......  I also eat wrong on so many days......  I know it is wrong.  I do it anyway.  I get back on track and begin again.  You can too. Don't be angry.  Don't be discouraged.  Be determined.  Anything worth having is worth the wait.  Worth the fight.   Connie's phrase of "Nothing tastes as good as thin feels" is great.  I have never experienced "thin" either but I can wait! Hang in there.  You can do this. Hugs, Kathi

Hi Sharon, Uh, we understand how you feel....we've been there before.  Have faith that it will get better.  Try to think that YOU are bigger and stronger than any emotions or external cir****tances that can happen to you.  Food is only a temporary fix and whatever we're eating is still there after we've made the choice to eat.  You can do it.  I don't think you need a kick in the pants.  You need lots of OFF hugs, support and encouragement.  It is a process and a process that we're all on together. Cathy

Sharon, I don't have any magic answers but I so understand. I was one of those who managed to gain over 30 lbs in the year I was trying in vain to get insurance approval. If I had known how it would have turned out I would have had the surgery a year earlier! However, spilt milk. I do not recommend doing what I did. Like you I made some bad choices and had just given up on ever being able to lose on my own.  Don't give up, it is so worth whatever you have to go through to get to the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. And it has been exactly that for me. Life is so much more complete for me than it was three years ago.  I still want to lose more weight, but I'm out there living and loving life more fully than I have in over 30 years. Hang in there. Pick yourself up and start anew. One of my favorite sayings has to do with the only failure is the one who doesn't get up and try again, moving forward not just sitting or giving up.  Please keep posting and coming back to this forum. It has provided me with support pre, during, and post. . . Friends are made of the deep and lasting variety here! Take care, Karen C

Me again! Suggestion: Start working on your profile. It helped me to face each day and helped to make a great record that I still go back and read occassionally. Karen C