Self-Centered Pity-Party
This is a response message I sent to one of my friends who had not seen me posting on the web. I hope you read this Sharon and don't stay away.
Good Monday to you also...First of all I want to thank you for calling me on Saturday to check on me. I have been having a self centered pity-party and have been in a real slump. I have kind of regrouped and I am feeling better about a lot of things. My weight loss is at a stand still and it is my fault. Grazing, snacking and lack of exercise will do it. I did go back to the trainer last week, but scheduling issues got in the way of my workouts. I work with him 3 to 4 x's a week and do my walking at home on the treadmill which I had been slacking on. I did call him this morning and he was not having class, but I will be going this evening and I will be trying the stair workout also. I haven't had ANY SNACKS for 3 days now, and because I was not sure of my calorie & protein intake I have started logging my foods. This was something that I was trying not to do, thought it would be too time consuming, but I find that it is a plus for me to make me more aware of what and how much I'm eating. I have even been reading LAWLS for information and inspriation.
I had gotten away from the positive side of my WLS, but now I feel like I'm back on track. We sometimes can be our own worst enemy, and I was leading the pack. I'm hoping to see some movement in the scale in the latter part of this week, but if I don't I know it will move eventually. Thanks again for caring.
Genie
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Genie,
I noticed after reading your post that your ticker states you are close to your goal. You stated and I agree with you regarding the "worst enemy" comment, as I relate to that so well and what I'm thinking is that perhaps it is self sabotage, as I know in my past, I would get close to completion of something and then, on a subconscious level sabotage seeing it through, therefore keeping myself in the "I can't do anything right, I'm a failure. . . yaddy, yaddy, yah mode. . . I think you probably understand what I'm saying. A lifetime of "not succeeding" was just my resistence to accept all the good stuff that life can offer us, in other words, not believing on some level that I am worthy of the good stuff. This time, I am using tools that I believe will help me to succeed. The charting of what I eat and when I have an off day, just starting over, the staying accountable by keeping in contact with people in my support network, largely here on OH, particularly here on the OFF board, but also my local area board, as well as attendance at a support group. You are doing all those things, so successing is what you are doing!
Hugs, Laureen
My Mantra is that I do not determine my success by the number hanging in my closet, nor will I let the scale determine that success either. . . It is through trial and error I will continue to grow and succeed. . . Laureen
"Success is a journey, not a destination." Ben Sweetland
Hi Laureen...I have never attended a support meeting because of the time frame that my surgeon has theirs. I will be attending one in Langhorne, PA on the 16th and even this one is a distance for me. Someone from th PA board contacted me and they have a new group that is starting so I will be attending that one also. You can NEVER have too much support.
Genie,
I will be in attendance at that meeting, as I go regularly, there is also a young woman on the PA board, Heather_W, who hosts a meeting at her home, usually on a Saturday, depending on her ablility to do so and it is open to all who wish to avail themselves of it. She lives in Harleysville and it is usally very well attended and in the warmer weather she has it in her backyard. Most folks bring a weight loss friendly snack or water and a chair to sit on, just check out the board there and you will see her post when it gets close to her being able to host it.
Take care, Laureen
My Mantra is that I do not determine my success by the number hanging in my closet, nor will I let the scale determine that success either. . . It is through trial and error I will continue to grow and succeed. . . Laureen
"Success is a journey, not a destination." Ben Sweetland
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