Saturday What's New?

i went to bed at 7 PM-had to do something to get away from food and michael...2 days without his meds and i made a mistake in (very innocently with much concern) asking if maybe he should have weaned off instead of cold turkey-he went berserk-not quite as bad as pre hospital day but he was -well--anyhow---after all of his screaming and everything; he ended up sneaking in to bed instead of his normal pout on the couch! so--i am up- pottied. weighed- yes! down 5 pounds from start of 5dpt --however today is beginning of day 4!!!--and had some cottage cheese and a tylenol -my back hurts from all of that sleeping! we've got about 4 inches of white stuff from what i can see on the deck ...i'm going back to bed. cuz it' s warm in there!!!!! hope to come back later with coffee to catch up---does anyone own a big truck to come load me and my stuff????? please talk amongst yourselves!!!!!

Hi Margo and all, Margo, I am sorry you are dealing with all that! I'm so glad you are getting to go to the get together. I have been awake since 4am, couldn't get to sleep till about midnight. Would like to go back to bed but just as I get to sleep Tom's alarm will go off (1/2 hour earlier that he gets up, and then buzzes every 10 min) at 6:30am so what's the point? This no sleep is not fun. I have also been at the same weight for a month, eating like I'm suppose to, drinking, and exercising...I hope this isn't where my body says "I'm done" but if it is then Ok...way better than where I've been in a long time. Work is going well...I still feel like a dope not knowing what all to do, while everyone knows I did this job 7 1/2  years ago, I still worry they think, Man, I thought she knew how to do this! It's is coming back to me little by little, but guys, that was a long time ago....I am not only older but there have been some changes and I can't remember the routine, the lingo, etc that I used to know...Don't get me wrong, everyone is really nice...I am happy to be there, just worried I won't live up to this reputation and memories that they have of me! We have been having snow...while it's beautiful, helloooo, it's spring! Margo, I will drive my virtual truck and come get you, then we will drive it to Pittsburgh! We will use virtual gas and I will use virtual vacation time and money and what a trip we will have! When should I pick you up?!!! Take care all! Cheryl

why are you not sleeping?? you know the drill--meds change? food or drink too late?/ stress?/ too much fun??take the tv outta the bedroom....blah blah.... not making lite really! sorry... cheryl--virual is great in spirit and i so thank you--this time tho it may soon come to needing a real truck..and i dread the thought...he keeps offering memy freedom and i keep refusing to jump at it...dumb on my part or numb.... i just keep thinking it will change and thought it wa son a good slope with his meds--that he now says were making him more drepressed than ever..and suicidal which he never was..i personally think he knows what to say and he's saying it cuz i think he thinks he can win this depression game alone and it isn't happening! it's startingto backfire on him and it really is hard to sit and watch this wonderful man slide back into that hole... ok- so-hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi Margo, Hope it's not to late for you to get this.... I bet you are right about Michael...it must be absolutely heartbreaking for you to watch not to mention frustrating and tear-your-hair out making. I have chronic pain...that is what wakes me...Dr.s figure it is scar tissue/adhesions. Not much to do as they can't go in every few months to remove it. Hugs back at ya, Cheryl

 Margo, If I had a truck I 'd be there in a flash!! Hang on, it's almost Pittsburgh time.  My computer went I couldn't and still can't get any e-mails, couldn't post, it is sick. Tom is working on it and set up one of the old ones for me. this one is a beast. I had the same old tummy pains return. Rumbling in my belly felt like I was about to give birth to a Rhino. All I wanted to do was sleep. Woke up in the night salivating to the point of droolong, ran to the bathroom and tossed my cookies. This morning I bent over to grab something and the room began to spin. The thought of food is yuckie. This is enough!!  Just as my weight begins to stabilize - BAM - I can't eat.  Annie is crawling on my head and over my shoulds as if to urge me back to bad. Smart cat. I (thi140n8* <-----Annie's typo) think I shall listen to her and crawl back in bed. Good night No kisses, in case I am contagious Annette

Annette, hope it's nothing serious, you've been through enough.

Sounds like U Haul time sweetie... Since I am new here I wont go into the Michael thing... just to say I am sorry to hear anyone having to deal with a hassle .... 5 pounds! ....Yahooo!!! Day 4... keep it up!

sent you reader's digest!

I like National Geographic better.... nekkid pictures of native women dancing and stuff..

nope--i have had wls-remember!!???those nekked pics would turn your stomach...all that giggly fat and loose skin! not a pretty site!!!!!!!!!