A really great morning!

My clothing is pretty limited right now....I've given away everything as it's gotten too big and don't have a lot of extra moola for clothing right now so I haven't replace alot (besides, it'll be given away shortly too). I pulled out some khaki's that I was given prior to my surgery.....looked at the tag that said size 18, held them up and mumbled to Kevin that they looked too small to fit. But, I also then thought to myself....what if? To my big shock, they fit! Not only do they fit...they're not tight! Of course, I started to cry. I haven't been a size 18 for over 20 years! I can't believe how quickly this is all happening.....it's truly a God-send for people who've struggled all their lives with weight. Just typing this, I'm crying again (typical me, Miss Emotional). Now for the second miracle of the day.....I get to work and open my email. A little background first....as some of you know, my weight has been THE issue between my boyfriend and I since day one. We've had struggles in the past that were tied to his frustration w/my not getting my weight down. Anyway, I've been seeing a therapist to work through my part of the relationship and then I usually tell him "how things went" when I get home. I told him last night that we talked about how rejected I have felt by him because of my weight. Now, for the good part.....I opened up my email this morning and there's a letter Kevin wrote to me last night (Kevin does NOT do this kind of thing). He said he got to thinking about what I said and felt sad that I felt rejected. He aplogized (another new thing for him) for his past transgressions, told me he was proud of what I've done and that he realized how hard it's been, why I am special to him....and more. I was compeletly caught off guard by this and it was the most wonderful and heartfelt thing he's ever done. Yes, I'm crying again! lol I just wanted to share because I feel so happy and blessed with this surgery today. Thanks for listening! Love to all, Michele

On both counts....congratulations! I found that the Women's League (or omething like that) on 23rd has really nice stuff and it is well worth going back to check on their inventory. I remember you like dresses and skirts and they have some nice high end suits and things for pretty cheap. You have worked hard on yourself and it's tremendous that you are getting validated for it. peace, tee

Thanks so much! And guess what? Those pants are YOURS! And I didn't have to hem them! I'll definitely check it out....yes, as I've been called, I'm a "girlie" girl.....dresses and skirts unless I'm in jeans. Hope to see you soon at one of the get-togethers, Michele

I have some jeans (JNY, I think) size 18's. One is sage green and the other a charcoal. Yours for the taking. Better casual? Anyway..... glad you are doing so well! tee

Michele, Good for you! Don't you feel like you are winning your own personal lottery - with all of those little victories. I have had times too, when not only did something go on that I didn't think would, but like you said, not even tight! I am so glad Kevin is growing from this change too. I am working through letting go of some of the pain of those years of rejection from my truly loving but human spouse. We were able to maintain a strong and in many, many ways healthy marriage all of these years. Still there are pockets of pain that neither of us know what to do with. We would like to let it go, but it will take time. Dropping all this weight so quickly doesn't wave a magic wand regarding our feelings. Glad to hear you had such a good day! Patty

Way to shrink woman! You are already caught up to me, and will no doubt pass me up in a month's time! LOL! 18 is what I'm wearing too - 18W is a bit too big, but 18 misses is about right. As for your bf - I am so happy for you that he finally "got" it. My DH has had moments like these as well which really help in the relating department. Things can continue to get better for you guys - and I do hope they do! Dina