I'm so glad Ginny replied.

I'm 2 months behind you and I poo pooed the Vets who said that it only got harder the further out you got. I'm not poo pooing anymore. They are absolutely RIGHT!

I knew for me that losing was the easy part for me because I've been able to lose my entire life. It's always been keeping it off that has been problematic for me.

I'm essentially at goal and have been for the past 2 months. I go up and down 2 - 3 lbs but I would be lying if I said it has been easy because it has not. The struggle is real and it's all in my head.

I have taken the last several months to practice mindfulness and to deal with my head. I always knew it would be an issue. I just finished the Craving Change Program and I had some aha moments and some very good take aways from it. I keep learning about myself and why I do certain things that I know I shouldn't.

I'm glad you have recognized what's happening. You chose to have this surgery - now choose to step back and start making the good choices that brought you this far. Keep logging. I'm here to tell you that I stopped logging for a while and then went back to it and it was shocking how much a taste here and a bit there was costing me in calories, carbs etc. Log your food. Plan your food and yes - get rid of the crap. I find that if something is staring me in the face sitting on the counter, I can barely contain myself. I got rid of it all. I changed my kitchen. Everything gets put away. I've even thrown out stuff so I couldn't tempt myself.

You can do this. And if you do find this overwhelming please call the clinic and ask for help. Maybe talking to someone (therapy maybe), will help you deal with what's going on.

Keep checking in. We'll be here for you!

Take a deep breath, step back and relax. You recognize that you are making bad choices so choose today to stop that behaviour. Go back to basics....protein first, mindful eating, no starchy carbs, you know the drill.

Keep the treats and "crap" out of your house or at least out of your sight. If you can't resist the temptation of eating something don't buy it or make it for others.

You still have a functioning pouch and I dare say you should still be in your honeymoon phase. Yes, it gets harder the further out you are but you said it, you don't want to fail after re-arranging your innards.

If you want it you can do it! Blinders on and just keep on going, you've got this!! Participate in the daily Menu thread, be accountable to us and yourself. Weigh every meal, log every portion. Know what is going in your mouth. You can obviously see the consequences of not doing so.

Keep coming back here for support!

Too funny Meg!!!

Oh yes, slurping is really annoying... I can't stand the way my brother drinks fluids. It is this loud gulping slurp. I can't even describe it.

Also, I had an epiphany after reading your post... You put "dough head" which totally makes sense. But I always thought when people said it they meant "doh head" like doh from the Simpsons. My world is just a little brighter now lol. I guess I have never seen it written down before.

Good morning :)

Yesterday did not go as planned. Little nugget ended up with a bit of a fever, probably from her needles. I also spent a bunch of time helping my cousin register for his college classes.

Also, I had a bit of a brain fart regarding my blood work on Monday. Usually I go in the morning but I went after lunch because of the time of our doctors' appointments. Well, I didn't think and I took my meds at lunch time so much blood work levels came back abnormally high. I will have to get them redone.

QOTD: what is your least favourite sound? I can't stand the sound of eating utensils clinking together. Or them scraping on a plate. I also hate emptying the utensils out of the dishwasher. I would rather do almost any other chore :)

Post-op three years and nine months.

Breakfast - Greek yogurt and blueberries

Snack - trail mix

Lunch - unknown

Snack - egg and pickles

Dinner - random freezer leftovers

Snack - pudding

All water and vits.