Discouraged. really discouraged

I just wanted to let you guys know, i am pretty down right now. so if i haven't responded much or been around it is that i am suffering a rather severe depression. it is par for the course i have a mental illness. i am bipolar so there is a little up and down to be expected. but i have been stable for years and years. this ha**** me like a truck. 

compounding that is the cancellation and rescheduling of the appointment with my surgeon, i know it happend to a few of us from TWH, but that was a blow i was all motivated and gung-ho but i seem to have lost my momentum. the surgery just seems like a far away dream. something i will never get. 

any kind and motivational words would be great. as well as reminders that it is Worth it to do this surgery because my faith is waning

its probably just my state of mind. and it will pass with some med changes but for now... help me stay motivated. please

I can't say I know how you are feeling because I haven't suffered from clinical depression but dissappointment is always challenging.  You are going to find ups and downs on this journey and like everything else will just need to find a way to turn it on its head to find another way to look at it.  

This is a lifetime change and everything is not over or our head issues don't stop just because some surgeon worked their skills on our bodies.  Use this time to develop new habits, practive behaviours that you will need to adopt to be successful 5,7,10,20 years from now.

Keep active on the forums, learn from everyone's experiences.  Some people have waited many years for various reasons to have WLS, but there is far more to the journey than surgery.

Thank you Roxytrim. 

it is good of you to keep things in perspective for me. 

i was originally hoping to work on my drinking water in sips and small bites while i was waiting for surgery 

but then the depression. but it should hopefully be cleared up soon. i can only hope then back to the work books and slow eating

thank you

I'm not bipolar....but have had clinical depression and significant anxiety issues of which I have been managing drug free.,....,I know it can get horrible.

 My advice is try to stay positive. Find inspirational sayings/pictures...put them up where you can see them.  Make a list of why you want this and why you want a different life than the one you're living.

 Surgery will happen when its suppose to... and not a minute earlier.  The actual surgery is everyone's focus but in reality it's something that is over in one day at the hospital.  The procedure really seems like a small part of this big picture in retrospect.  This surgery isn't going to change the way you think or deal with stress, or control what you put in your mouth.  So keep on working on those things to be really ready when it's time.

Know that this WLS road and lifestyle is hard, add this to the regular day to day stresses and it gets overwhelming sometimes.  You need  to go in to this with a plan.  A pocket full of ammunition that you can use to battle the bad days and temptations and lifes disappointments because  I don't know about you...but I totally used food to ease my pain and when you lose that crutch you have to have a new plan.

Work with your Dr on your meds,  work with a  counsellor  on stress management techniques ...perhaps meditation, exercise, deep breathing, Journaling, a hobby that can distract you when you are feeling hopeless or low.  

I wish you well..you CAN and WILL do anything you put your mind to....that's 100% the truth!!!!  This was a life changer for me...and YES..totally worth it!!! 

Thank you MonaLisaSmile. 

those are all great ideas i have taken some of them to heart and printed out half my pinterest inspiration board. 

I am glad to hear you are coping without mediation but unfrotunatly that is not an option for me. my mania is too severe but i have spoken to my doctor adn he is prescribing some changes. so tha tis good. 

 you have said some really wise and wondrful things. 

thank you

Hey,

I am so sorry the postponed your appointment.  But you WILL get there.

Are you part of any groups that meets in person?  I found when it felt like forever still to wait, talking to real life people who had been through it was incredibly helpful.

Thank you Dundreggen,,

i work super odd hours so a regular support group doesn't work for me. i known bummer as usually i like face to face meetings with people but just not now 

i will keep itin mind when the work season slows down

thank you for your ideas, and your positivity. it means a lot

As I've mentioned to you, I don't think the reschedule is a delay. If we'd had our appt this Friday, we may have a surgery date but I think it would probably be the same date we're going to get when we go in January. TDotDana had his appt this past week and didn't get a date.

And no matter when the surgery happens, you are much closer to that date then you were this time last year. This time last year I hadn't even talked to my family doctor. 

The thing is the delay getting to surgery is only one roller coaster we are going to face over the next few months. There's optifast, the actual surgery, potential weightloss stalks post op. Plus from what I've read, the rapid weight loss can really play a number on our hormones and emotions. 

Youve already come so far in this step towards living life to its fullest. We are so close! Even if it takes another 6 months (and I really hope it doesn't!) that time is going to go by anyway. 

Thank you my friend for putting things in perspective for me. i have had some medication changes and feel a bit better. it will take a few weeks to be back to my super positive happy self. but all your points are relevant and even without the bliss of medication and normal happiness  they make me feel better. 

of course t his will be a roller coaster. 

but i am ready to strap in. 

bring it on right?

Absolutely. You got this!

And next summer I'm strapping into the real roller coasters at Wonderland! I don't want come hand to turn away from a single ride!