What are you doing/eating today ( Sunday)

RNY  6 Years 7 Months Post op

Morning

Had a wonderful evening out last night - ended up choosing a pasta dish for dinner which I rarely have.  It was delish and brought half of it home for my DH to finish off today.  My tool sure still works as I cannot eat an app and then dinner - so I watch others finish off their appetizers before their main event.  I finished maybe 1/2 my meal last night and was totally satisfied. 

Going to have a very light eating day today as I had too many treats yesterday.  Party tonight but I should be able to navigate my way around the food.

STEPS - 6601

EATS

B - 2 large mugs of coffee

     Premier protein shake

L - 4 oz seared skinless boneless chicken breast

D - 1 crab cake

     1.5 oz of roast beef

     1/2 cup of veggies

S - Michelob Ultra at beginning of party

     1 cup of unsweetened coconut milk with 1 TSP of turmeric in the afternoon

    1 light and fit Greek before bed

MYFITNESSPAL totals for the above menu are:  Calories - 756,  Carbs - 27 Grams,  Fat -24 Grams,  Protein - 87 Grams,  Fiber - 5 Grams

All water and vits - more decaf coffee

Have a great one  

Good morning Barb. Pasta dinner sounds great. Bought a rug cleaner. Turned out to be a great machine. Did an awesome job. I was having problems finding  rug. The ones I liked had too many light colours. My dog would have it filthy in no time. So for now just having the ability to clean it when I want is great.

Suppose to be a nice day.

b raspberry protein shake

l tuna with salad

s baby bel

d chicken, cauliflower mash

I need groceries desperately but not going until tomorrow.  Trying to make meals with what I have left is proving to be a challenge.  It's cool and damp here again today, supposed to warm up but honestly give me the sun and stay cold and I'm good with that.  I miss the sun more than I miss the heat.  Helping DH get ready for the contractor to arrive tomorrow so moving stuff and cleaning out the room we are renovating, likely do some laundry as well.

B - one lonely scrambled egg on light rye toast with 1/2 oz of parmesan melted on the egg.

L - I have tuna and salmon so will make up one can with some mayo, green onion and celery then eat some stacked high on a ryvita

D - chicken breast with leftover garlic gravy from yesterday, green salad and some roasted acorn squash, he will have mashed taters with his but I will attempt to not take any.

No snacks in my day since I don't have anything to snack on that isn't carby.  I am completely out of eggs and cheese now and don't even have any type of lunchmeat to roll up with mustard.  I'll throw a few protein shakes in the fridge just in case I feel the need to have one mid afternoon.  Mid morning I seldom feel hunger but between lunch and dinner, sometimes it hits me.  Just hope to be too busy to bother.

Good morning everyone, I hope everyone is doing well.  Was diagnosed with severe anxiety and situational depression a few days ago, which sucks but at least I have a name for it.  Now I just need to focus on getting healthy again asap and avoiding it turning into an even more serious condition.  Last week I completely broke down in a 1-on-1 meeting with my boss, crying and telling him all the stuff that was bothering me about my work.  I was sooooo angry, just enraged, and not thinking clearly at all! To me this was a huge red flag that I need help coping, so I am seeing my therapist and family doctor regularly again.  Now I feel so embarrassed and am worried my boss will be angry and try to get rid of me or make work harder.  I feel I am ruining my good reputation with my behaviour, it is just really stressful.  I am also seeing a conflict resultion councellor at work and have contacted my union rep to find out what my rights are, so I think I am on the right track but am truly dreading going back to work this week. 

On the positive side I joined Movati gym and I love it compared to goodlife, although it is definitely pricier.  I have been going every day since I joined and have lowered my carbs and my weight has started to drop again. My new goal is to get to normal bmi at 145, which means another 10lbs of weight loss.

Today is my surgiversary, I am 15 months post op!

b - coco protein shake, pina colada flavour, first time trying it, not a fan, wont be buying it again

s - 1-2 wraps made of psyllium and eggwhites, 1 tsp peanut butter on top of each

l - leftover kelp noodles with feta cheese and tomato sauce (1 carb per serving of kelp noodle)  These are not bad but the texture is quite different, I can see kelp noodles being good in a stir fry or cold salad.  I like that they do not require any cooking.

s - 2 super hot beef sticks while running errands and at the gym

d - leftover cabbage and pork slowcooker dish, turned out really nice, just put browned pork chops in the bottom of the crock, then piled on lots of cabbage, parsley, and onion, salt and pepper, a little beef broth, and a little apple cider vinegar, cooked for 8 hours.  If anyone wants the recipe it is here it is

s - sliced pear in a psyllium eggwhite wrap with a little margarine

all water and vits, have a nice day everyone!

Why don't you get a doctor's note and take a week or two off so at least the incident will coincide with medical leave?  I have panic disorder so can relate to the severe anxiety. Not sure if you are going to try meds or not but when I was first diagnosed, I had to take time off work due to the side effects from the meds. It took weeks for my body to get used to the meds and I would never have been able to work while adjusting to them.  

Hey Tracey, thank you for your reply.  I have been off work since the incident last week and will not be in the office until midweek, which I am hoping is enough time to boost my self esteem so I can go in with some semblance of confidence.  I am doing some cbt charting, exercising, taking care of me.  My doc did not think a change to my current medication would help at this point, that what I really need to do is work on the situation at work, I described it and she said anyone would feel as I do given what is going on there.  She feels that once my situation improves my symptoms will ease as well.  I was thinking of contacting my centre because they have experts regarding medication for people who have had surgery, my doc is nice but seems hesitant to change medications as I am her first bariatric patient ever and she does not know how well I would absorb them.  Did you start meds post-surgery?  If I go that route I would most likely take time off, the side effects can be really hard to take, especially in the beginning.

I started meds 15 years ago so 5 years pre-op.  My GP almost killed me with the meds he prescribed.  I ended up seeing a psychiatrist on an emergency basis as the meds the doctor gave me made me feel suicidal and that is so not me so I sought out emergency help ASAP.  The psychiatrist diagnosed me and started me on meds for immediate relief and tried something for long term relief.  I personally don't trust anyone but a psychiatrist with my mental health.  They know those meds inside out and know the illnesses inside out.  When my GP years later tried to change my meds, my psychiatrist wrote him a pretty nasty note telling him to leave my meds alone as it's just his job to renew them not try and change them.  I didn't have depression with mine so SSRI were not helpful for my anxiety and actually made me worse.  I have been taking the same dose of anti-anxiety meds for 15 years and the psychiatrist is happy with me not needing an increase since they can become addictive.  His theory is as long as I don't need more per day then it's the right dose to keep me stable and I am not addicted.  I had situational anxiety and depression when my first marriage ended but this is completely different than that was.  CBT helped me a lot but I still need meds since mine is a disorder not just situational.

Sorry to hear about your experience with meds, that sounds awful, I am so glad you got emergency help when you did.  It is so dangerous because when you have a mental illness you do not always think as logically as if you were well.  I remember when I was suffering clinical depression I felt like I did not deserve treatment, that my problem was that there was something wrong with me that nobody could fix, or that admitting I was sick would be viewed as a personal failing. That is a really good point about getting treatment from a psychiatrist rather than my family doctor, my doc seems hesitant to change any of my meds now that I have had surgery as she is not sure how they will absorb.  I have been on the same meds for a long time (4 years) for the prevention of depression and anxiety disorders I have had in the past, and have had to change them every so often, and its always really hard to switch. I really hope that it is the situation and that addressing that issue will lead to relief, because situational depression and anxiety can lead to clinical depression very easily, and I do not want to go down that hellish road again.  Maybe I will contact my centre to see what their psychiatrist would recommend for me.  Thanks again for being so open and honest about your experience, I really appreciate it.

So sorry about all of this Zizzler. 

I think once I had things settled down with new meds etc I would speak with my boss about what happened and explain.  Also explain re getting help for this.  Unless he/she is a total Neanderthal, they will understand about mental illness and the variety it can take.  Its an illness - not a weakness - and I hope people are more aware of this.

Glad you joined the gym.  Enjoy it and the endorphins exercise encourages

Thanks birdiegirl, omg the gym has been an absolute blessing for me and I am so glad that I joined.  Every time I go its like a reminder that I am worthwhile, that I deserve good things, and I leave feeling more relaxed.

The person I spoke with in conflict resolution recommended that I take ownership of what happened and tell management that I know what the problem is and that I am working on it individually.  I do not feel comfortable telling anyone at my work that I have a mental illness, especially my manager, who is somewhat of a Neanderthal.  The conflict resolution person offered to facilitate conversations if needed and coach me on having difficult conversations, which may be helpful.