2nd thoughts
Out of the hospital and I think. I have made a big mistake I just want to cry... Please tell me TV is is common and it's just my anxiety acting up from being so far from home
Referral: May 22, 2013. Kingston got paper work: June 18, 2013. Orientation package received: Aug. 12, 2012. Orientation at HDH: Aug. 28, 2013. NP #1 visit & blood work: Sept. 13, 2013. Abdominal Ultrasound: Oct. 2, 2013. Dietitian/SW: Oct. 16, 2013. Sleep Test: Oct. 23, 2013. Sleep Test Results: Nov. 12, 2013. Dietitian/SW visit #2: Dec. 9, 2013. Opitfast Sept 22nd, Surgery Oct 6th
I'm NOT losing weight. I'm getting RID of it. I have NO intentions of finding it AGAIN!!!
This is a huge life change. Scary. These early days will have you doubting your decision. But you know your goal. You'll never be that weight and size again. This tool will help you get there. I just finished 6 weeks of cognitive behavioral therapy at Humber. That helps too. You will do amazingly well. Sending positive energy your way.
Many people have second thoughts right after surgery. Later, from what I have read on OH, they all say they wish they had done it earlier. The first little bit after surgery is hard, no denying that. You have to re-think how you eat, vitamins, and getting in all your fluids and protein. All of this will get easier very quickly. In a year from now, you will be giving thanks at Thanksgiving for your new life, freedom and strength. You've got this.
CENTURY CLUB MEMBER at 6 months post-op.
Referral to Guelph Feb/13, Sleep study and all bloodwork and ultrasound May/13, orientation July/13. Nurse, NUT,SW Sept/13, 2nd NUT, nurse and SW, 3rd round and cleared for surgery Dec/13. Pre-op Apr 7/14, Surgeon May 2/14, Opti Jul 3/14, surgery Jul 17/14.
Your emotions are normal. If you suffer from anxiety, this will be a lot to take in, but it will get better. You've just had a major change in your life, and you don't know what your future will hold. It's scary for everyone. And with not being at home, it makes it that much harder to fight the anxiety. There is a lot to learn over the next little bit, and it can seem overwhelming, but do what they said in orientation, take it in little bites. You don't have to do everything at once. Concentrate on what you are to eat at this stage, and be ready to rest. Your body is going through a lot to heal itself, and focuses it's energy on that, and with not eating as much as you used to, it doesn't have what it's expecting to do it. You will heal though, but you'll need extra rest for a while. Just keep sipping and taking small bites. Walk when and where you can. But don't expect marathons right now.
The biggest thing to remember, is that you are not alone in this. You have your WLC support staff, you have us and you have support around you. You'll be fine.
Cathy
Ditto what everyone else says... I still have thoughts like that, normally after I have messed up and eaten too fast, or taken a drink while eating and my pouch reminds me that I cannot do those things, in horribly painful ways... but I'm learning... just like you.... What I remember hearing all the time was hormones are stored in fat, and as we shed the pounds quickly they are all released into our bodies making us emotional wrecks!!!! You will get through this, take it one step/sip/burp at a time..... It will get better....
And like a previous poster said, you have a TON of support right now, fall back of them.... :)
Referral: May 2014 Orientation: Sept 26 (HRRH): 1st Surgeon Appt: Feb 13 (Sohi @ HRRH) : Dietician/Social Worker/RN: March 25, 2015 Dr. Glazier - May 12, 2015 2nd Surgeon Appointment (Dr. Hagen) - June 1, 2015 - Start Opti - August 19, 2015 - SURGERY SEPTEMBER 1, 2015 - HW 270lbs OW - 256.6 SW: 244.6
Cristy I had the same feeling for the first week after surgery...and I had the good fortune of my sister and my neice going through the same thing the year before, so I knew what to expect. Still, it threw me and life seemed so different but I calmed down - concentrated on walking, sipping and developing the eating & medication regiment. I knew this was only temporary and also found as each hour & day passed I was feeling more like myself and that I could do this.
Now when I get ****y with my diet I recall those early days and think...no I've worked too hard for this I'm not gonna mess it up!
So plough through this very short phase and learn from this part of your journey too.
I remember quite clearly the first night home from the hospital, I was in tears. I read over my bariatric book. I felt like I had no idea what to do. I was afraid of everything, and was convinced I would do everything wrong. I layed in my bed and said to myself..... " oh god, what the f@#$ did I just do to myself ?"
Two days later I had started to figure things out. Following your plan, and understanding you new body takes time. Now almost 3 mths later....I'm so happy and feeling confident again....it was definately the right choice for me.
Never be afraid to ask questions, breathe, and it gets better each day
SW- 260 GW- 150 CW -138 Height - 5'5 RNY- St Josephs Hamilton July 17/2015
Awwww I am sorry you are feeling that way, I haven't had surgery yet and just got the process going so I cant help you there but listen to all these wonderful people on here that have and take their advice and words of wisdom. If you ever want to talk message me anytime, but I agree with everyone this is the best decision you could ever make, think 6 months from now how different you will feel, think next summer how different you will feel, you have started a new chapter and its a good, exciting one!
Everything will be fine..you got this and you've got lots of friends on here
You take care ox