I feel soooooooo embarrased

Hi Karla,  its hard not be to be embarrassed but you are right I am proud too that I finally came back to OH to get support for me .   I was going to call Dr. Pop's office but I I think OH friends are in my face and better support at this time.

I've been saying for a while and see all the time I've started and stopped recording in my manual journal and then stop.  I do need to be accountable to ME!  I do!  I'm going back to my small bowl sizes for portion control and stay away from carbs.  I remember I rarely ate bread but now I eat more a day.  Whole Wheat or Whole grains but I think it too much.  I WILL I WILL I WILL  - thank you for the motivation!!!

I can empathize. I have Fibromyalgia and was on Lyrica for only a month. In the first week I gained 10lbs! I refused to refill my script and started exercising to manage the pain. Some days are better than others. Im glad you're off that med. It'll take some work but you can get the weight off again.

Thanks Simona.  I worked with my doc and therapy specialist and I didn't want to keep trying different meds as I'm scared of more side affects.  When I exercise it makes my pain flare up in my leg but doc said it will damage my leg so to keep exercising.  So I golf twice/three times a week and using my stepper in house at other times and getting some walks on lunch hours too now.  If I pain, I take 1/4 to 1/2 pain pill Percocet and it eases it.  So I may take a total of 1 to 2 pills in the day and my docs are happy with this so I do not need to try other meds.  I worked so hard to get to my lowest point and now 2.5 years later to put 30lbs on is so upsetting and I stopped exercising because it hurt more so I'm reversing this and saying "dam it all - even if it hurts - exercise because I'm worth it!"    I wish you the best.  Can I ask you a question,  my ankles, legs and knees and sometimes my whole body aches, are these signs of fibromyalgia?  My next appt I will ask doc.  I just had physical and going for my blood work this week.

Oh I'm taking another pill now at night which helps me to sleep as I was not sleep as my leg hurts and restless legs and hot flashes.  It's helping.  Cloneazepam.  I also migraines and this is going to replace my daily migraine meds too.  

Don't be embarrassed, Janet, like your signature says, things happen for a reason. You might not know the reason, but this is ok.
you know what you have to do to get back on track, go back to the basics. Protein first, cut back on the carbs, track what you're eating (i use livestrong.com, but there are lots of online programs that you can use).

Get moving. That will likely help the pain as well.  Go to a support group in your area, if you can (if there isnt one, there's one in Barrie, that meets this saturday, message me for details).

You can do this. You can get back to where you want to be.

Thanks Monica........... yes I should listen to myself as I do say it to everyone!  "Everything happens for a reason"  I would love to go to Barrie but its two hours for me and the weekends is the only quality time I get with hubby so I tend not to stray.  He is a good support for me.  although lately he's bringing in more stuff into the house because he quit smoking (6 months so far) so I havent' complained but it's hard not to taste it here or there.  I must have control - I WILL!  Thanks for your response - you guys are just what I needed!

Take care, Janet... i hope you get this sorted out.

Welcome back Janet xo
I'm glad to see you posting - you can get back on track!

Karennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.......... thanks  I love you!  You have always been a rock for me.  Thanks for showing me your face.  I hope all is well with you.  If you are in PS....... let's get together.  Thanks for being here!  Hugs 

You're right that this is the place to start.  No judgement, no harsh words just support.  You were taking a medically necessary medication.  I'm sorry that not only did it not work for you but that it caused some weight gain.  You seem to have a fighting spirit in you so I don't doubt that you will work hard and achieve success!

Have you thought about starting with the 5 day pouch test??  I know others have used it with success to kick-start their weight loss again.

Good luck and keep your chin up!!

Thanks for your support Lisa.  I'm going to try and track my food on MyFitnessPal.com and if not I just may try the pouch test.  I have both books too and they are inspiring.  I really do appreciate your support again thanks.