Can't stop crying!!!!

Today was supose to be my D-Day. Yesterday at 5:30pm I get a call from the director telling me that my Doctor had a personal emergency. Which I should be totally understand. And I do. But I still have a hard time dealing. Being I have had 4 cancelation before this and date changes. The first thing I did other then cry for a long while was stop by the dollar store picked up some cleaning supplies oh yea and a bag of cheese puffs, box of oatmeal cookies with the cream in the middle and 2 little of soda (not diet) but I didn't stop there.... I stop at taco bell pick up a 4 soft tacos (extra beef) When home lock myself in my room and ate those tacos. By time I got to the third one I was full but I didn't stop... and just had to have one cookie for the sweet fix .... cry some more.... by 11:30pm I finish off everything.... woke up today crying... call to rescedule this morning and was promise a call back... 4pm this afternoon I got a date of 9/13.... I don't want to go back to work tomorrow and face the many people that know what I am going in for. And I don't want to have to relive this disappointment over and over again...

dont be sad cause it will happen for you on gods will i know thats not what you want hear lol but know that god has mapped it out for you and he know when is best god bless and hope to hear from you

Ladrika, Hun first off let me say that I am so sorry that you are going through this and I wish I had the majic words to make you feel better but I don't.... But please know that we are all here for you ~Hugs~ I know it is hard to deal with all of this and I can not believe that this was your 5th change???? I know you don't want to hear this right now but things do happen for a reason, even though some times we do not know why and it really does suck! Again hun all I can say is that I am sorry, I know how you get yourself all set for this surgery and it is devastating when it is called off, for ANY reason! Please hang in there hun and post to let us know how things are going.... ~hugs you~ Debra P

Thanks ladies... you don't know how better that made me feel.... It feels good to chat with folk that know how I feel.

Hey there....I know exactly how you feel. My surgery date was changed about the same amount of times. The emotional roller coaster is enough to make you want to scream. Really, I do understand. Which hospital are you going to have it at again? I forgot. Just try to hang in there. You are scheduled and it will happen. As for the bingeing..I understand that too, but try to get right back up on the bicycle and start peddling, because they need your liver to be as small and non-fatty as possible. I remember Mary saying to me that my diet consisted pre-op of "Meat, cheese, vitamins, protein and water". So that's what I did, and it was hard but I think it pays off in the long run. I haven't seen Dr Schuhknecht yet...I saw Dr. Sapala for my one week follow-up and he doesn't even perform my procedure (lap band). I'm hoping to be able to see my surgeon sometime soon. Anyway, give yourself a break and try to be gentle with yourself. Soon this will just be a bad memory and you'll be on your merry losing weight way! All the best, take care Suzanne

Hello Ladrika I to was in your shoes Mon. Aug 22nd (my schedule surgery date) so i know how you feel but i said to myself maybe it wasnt for me yet mentally and physically i wasnt ready yet see i live alone and still had all the wrong foods in my house knowing my surgery was for Aug 22nd so i'm hoping that was the reason because God knew i wasn't ready just yet so know that my appt. has been put on hold i have time to clean house and store the right things i would need. So don't be sad your time will come cause like you i cant wait till i can post my losings but in the meantime im going to get my cabinents and frig together and patiently wait for my turn. Whenever you do have your surgery i send you blessings and prayers that you will reach your desire goal. Mona

I'm sorry that you surgery had to be cancel. I know how you feel let down. But don't worry you're day will come. And you'll be on the losing side soon enough. Plus don't worry about what others may think or say. I'm sure if they know that are going to be disappoint for you. Just hang in there and have faith. It's all going to work out. In the meantime enjoy eatting all those things now, because pretty soon you won't be. Maria

Ladrika, I just want to say I'm so sorry for your disappointment. You are totally justified in feeling bad....5 times...wow!!! That really stinks. Janean

Ladrika, I know how you feel...I was at the hosp at 5:30 am for my surgery and the surgeon had a family emergency and had to cancel me. I already had the IV's in etc. waiting to be wheeled into the O/R! I had to go back to work the next day and face my co-workers too (a few who knew what type of surgery I was having, the others just knew I was having a surgery). Luckily I was rescheduled rather quickly. So - your day will come soon! Just hang in there. It was just not meant to be today. -Dee

I'm sorry to hear of all your re-scheduling issues, but just think if you were in surgery and your doctor got the news of his emergency, he probably would have been not all their mentally, or might have had to have someone you do not know finish the procedure. I believe in fate (sp?) and it just wasn't your day to have this done. Your day will come, trust me, you now have some more time to prepare your body for the change it is about to expirience. Pat