SUper Depress! Gaining weight?!?!?!?!
I totally hear you Terri,
I know I shouldn't be looking on the scale. But I really can't help myself. And everyone here show understand that. I haven't been on the scale yesturday. But today I found myself on the darn thing and boom add on another pound to my fatess!
I don't know what is going on with my body. At first I thought I'm getting a monthly visit. But that hasn't come yet. So I sit here racking my brain.
And just getting really upset with the whole thing.
Plus I'm under stress with looking for work again. Because I really need a job. So I fax and e mail resume and not one singel phone call for an interview.
Plus I have people that I don't talk to anymore that loves to and lie about me.
Plus there are other things going on that just put more stress on me. That I really can't talk about.
Just alot of bad vibes over at this end.
And I know that I will lose this plus alot more weight until I hit goal.
But I just can't help get upset about it because I have done surgery to lose this weight. And I'm starting to feel that it was all for nothing.
It's like I let myself down.
Which really does suck.
Maria,
I feel so bad for you. I wish we lived near each other. Here is a long distance hug ((((( hugs)))).
As you know I had the surgery 2/11/05. I think I posted before that I had now weight loss for over a week and I was soooo discouraged. Trust me I cursed this surgery, swore the doc didn't do his job, said this was a waste of my time, etc. etc. etc. I posted many times my disappointment.
Well, let me tell you.... this is what I did:
Feb 14 discharge from hospital on liquid diet.. lost 8 initial pounds by my appt on Feb 18. Then NOTHING. Nothing Nothing and then more NOTHING!
Liquid diet remained until Feb 27 where I went to full liquids.
I followed the plan exactly - measured out my cream of wheat. I had 3 meals per day (little 2 oz). I tried to drink liquids. Now.. this is very hard for me because I hate water, therefore, I do crystal light.
Today I went to meet with the dietician and I found I lost another 9 pounds. So, 17 pounds total. Now, compared to others, that may not be great. But.. it's a loss.
I think that getting in some "real food" that had protein in it and upping the drinking helped. One thing I noticed with my scales is that they are very inconsistent. I had to stop weighing myself every time I went to the bathroom because I was driving myself crazy. It would go up a pound, another pound, back down that pound, etc. Our bodies have such water fluctuations that it will drive us crazy to keep looking at it.
I haven't had a chance to get out and exercise like I want due to weather, vehicle being uninspected, etc etc. So, my weight loss isn't due to weather.
I feel really bad about whatever is going on in your personal life as well. It doesn't help when there is so much going on physically and mentally. I don't think this helps with your loss either. Our emotions can be like roller coasters and the stress does a number on our bodies.
I will pray that you find a job, that things ease up and that you find a lose in weight. MIne kind of happened overnight. I woke up and was down 4 pounds. I had prayed so hard for that.
Please try to relax and breath. If you need me for anything, you can email me personally. If you want to talk, send your number and I'll call you. Please know that this will pass. Things will get better. Do not compare yourself to others. I got so caught up in this that I lost track of ME. We are different. Perhaps if we lose slow, we won't have as much stretchy skin later. It WILL happen. This is a NEW process and our bodies are just getting used to it.
Make sure whatever you are eating/drinking doesn't have a lot of sodium in it. This will cause bloating and weight gain. Watch your sugars. Lots of hidden stuff in it.
I've done just simple meals. Cream of wheat, a little grits, cream of wheat. I just don't want to overdo anything so early in the process.
Please take care of yourself. God bless.
Terri