iam having a hard time starting ...i keep failing

I have started the weight loss process.. no sign of surgery date ..suppose to eat 1500 calories a day ...Iam doing so badly ..i go for a few days and then munch munch then i hate myself and try and fail ..why can't I do this how will i ever do the real strict stuff ..like nothing for 2 weeks but clear liquid

Dont give up all i can suggest is to try to take baby steps take it one day at a time tomorrow is a new day dont dwell on you're past failures keep lookin forward dont try to change everything in one day i hope this encourages you a little i will never give up and you shouldn't either