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Topic: RE: I never thought I'd post this
What a wonderful accomplishment Skylar! and you are soo close to you goal!!! how exciting 
Michelle Hendrickson Holistic Health Coach http://www.gracioushealth.net
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on 6/20/10 11:11 pm
on 6/20/10 11:11 pm
Topic: I never thought I'd post this
When I first started, I had a boat load of weight to shed - just thinking about how long it would take to shed this weight was depressing. I assume that everyone who is obese feels the same way?
Anyhow, one of my goals was to shed half my weight, but I never really thought I'd get that far - I didn't know when and where my weight loss would end but I never could picture myself getting close to normal weight.
Now I have shed half my weight - and in fact I missed when it happened - I just passed right by it and didn't blink an eye. My highest known weight (I weighed more but I don't know that number) was 336. Half my weight is 336 divided by 2 = 168. But I now weight 162.5 so I missed celebrating what I used to think was an unattainable goal. 168 pounds is a nice healthy weight for an average height male - to think that I used to carry that weight on my body in fat is unbelievable to me now.
For those of you who are struggling, I want you to know that there is hope and the rewards of shedding weight are enormous so you have to keep working on it even when you feel defeated by life.
One of the things that kept me going was coming here to the Non-surgical forum and participating - which means posting although there were times I lurked too. I found that when I posted - either making new topics or responding to others it really helped keep me focused. It makes me sad to see that the board is so slow these days. I wish I could help make it more active so it could help others the same way it has helped me. I wish the lurkers would come and play.
Anyhow, one of my goals was to shed half my weight, but I never really thought I'd get that far - I didn't know when and where my weight loss would end but I never could picture myself getting close to normal weight.
Now I have shed half my weight - and in fact I missed when it happened - I just passed right by it and didn't blink an eye. My highest known weight (I weighed more but I don't know that number) was 336. Half my weight is 336 divided by 2 = 168. But I now weight 162.5 so I missed celebrating what I used to think was an unattainable goal. 168 pounds is a nice healthy weight for an average height male - to think that I used to carry that weight on my body in fat is unbelievable to me now.
For those of you who are struggling, I want you to know that there is hope and the rewards of shedding weight are enormous so you have to keep working on it even when you feel defeated by life.
One of the things that kept me going was coming here to the Non-surgical forum and participating - which means posting although there were times I lurked too. I found that when I posted - either making new topics or responding to others it really helped keep me focused. It makes me sad to see that the board is so slow these days. I wish I could help make it more active so it could help others the same way it has helped me. I wish the lurkers would come and play.
Topic: RE: Where is everyone now that summertime is here?
Thanks! and awesome for you that you have your first consult with your surgeon!!! I look forward to that day for myself! im sure it will be great! just be sure to come back and let us know what you find out!! I am so excited for you!! I look around the plastic surgery board myself, I have a friend or 2 over there and I like looking at all the amazing before and afters! here is another thing with the "fat Girl" thinking that I caught myself thinking, I am taking my kids to this park day class as part of our homeschool, I met a lady on an online forum who is part of this class, we had kids the same ages so we wanted to meet up and give our kids a chance to meet and play, she told me what she looked like and then asked me what I looked like so we could find each other easily at the park, the first thought in my mind was "well, im fat" and I have brown hair..... it comes so automatic doesn't it?? but still working on letting that fat girl go!
Michelle Hendrickson Holistic Health Coach http://www.gracioushealth.net
(deactivated member)
on 6/18/10 6:05 am
on 6/18/10 6:05 am
Topic: RE: Doc Visit: Blowing off Steam... starting over and over and over
(((HUGS))) I'm so sorry your finding yourself back in a deep hole, one that you had climbed out from and now you have to struggle not to tumble back in.
Please get to the gym and get started on exercising - I think it will help you feel so much better and hopefully give you strength for the rest of your battles. You are stronger than you think and I know you can do it once you get back on the wagon.
Please get to the gym and get started on exercising - I think it will help you feel so much better and hopefully give you strength for the rest of your battles. You are stronger than you think and I know you can do it once you get back on the wagon.
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on 6/18/10 5:53 am
on 6/18/10 5:53 am
Topic: RE: Where is everyone now that summertime is here?
Hi Michelle, I've been really busy for a few days and didn't get a chance to come by this neck of the woods.
I have my first consult next week with a plastic surgeon and I'm excited and scared. Excited at the possibilities of what he can do to make me look normal and scared that he will say I'm too fat or something like that - which is part of my "fat" girl thinking. I've made the next appointment a few weeks later so I have time to think about and research what this surgeons says before I meet with the next one. I've been hanging over at the plastic surgery forum lately as part of my preparation. I'm still very up in the air as to when I will have shed enough weight for surgery and I think that is a very important question that the plastic surgeon can help me with. During my whole weight shedding I've struggled with what my goal weight should be - I want to be slim and healthy, not anorexic or sick looking. Because I've been obese for so long, and 2/3s of americans are overweight or obese - like most people I've lost the ability to know what slim looks like.
I really like your current approach - your goal of running is fabulous and as long as you are making healthy choices in your food you will shed weight at the right pace. Wow 10 whole minutes running - fantastic.
I have my first consult next week with a plastic surgeon and I'm excited and scared. Excited at the possibilities of what he can do to make me look normal and scared that he will say I'm too fat or something like that - which is part of my "fat" girl thinking. I've made the next appointment a few weeks later so I have time to think about and research what this surgeons says before I meet with the next one. I've been hanging over at the plastic surgery forum lately as part of my preparation. I'm still very up in the air as to when I will have shed enough weight for surgery and I think that is a very important question that the plastic surgeon can help me with. During my whole weight shedding I've struggled with what my goal weight should be - I want to be slim and healthy, not anorexic or sick looking. Because I've been obese for so long, and 2/3s of americans are overweight or obese - like most people I've lost the ability to know what slim looks like.
I really like your current approach - your goal of running is fabulous and as long as you are making healthy choices in your food you will shed weight at the right pace. Wow 10 whole minutes running - fantastic.
Topic: RE: Doc Visit: Blowing off Steam... starting over and over and over
You're absolutely right Sherrie.... it's nothing he says.. it's how he ACTS... and actions speak louder than words.
When I met him, I weighed 25 lbs less than I do now and after seeing me for a couple of months he told me I was "TOO BIG" for him. Don't know why he came back.. and he's never said it again...... and he even tries to say he likes my butt and stupid stuff like that... but everytime he says "I LOVE YOU".. I keep hearing in my mind "but you're too big for me".
God help me.. I care for him.. he's a good man. He works hard, takes care of his children, doesn't drink, doesn't do anything without putting thought into it. We never have harsh words... but for some reason.. he doesn't take me out other than the usual outting for groceries. I think he's embarassed to be seen with me. He needs to think back at the 5 or 6 guys that got super pissed at him when they found out he was with me and I was no longer available. How quickly they forget.
This morning I told him that what happens when you take a woman for granted is that she either cheats, or leaves.... and it's getting to that point.
When I met him, I weighed 25 lbs less than I do now and after seeing me for a couple of months he told me I was "TOO BIG" for him. Don't know why he came back.. and he's never said it again...... and he even tries to say he likes my butt and stupid stuff like that... but everytime he says "I LOVE YOU".. I keep hearing in my mind "but you're too big for me".
God help me.. I care for him.. he's a good man. He works hard, takes care of his children, doesn't drink, doesn't do anything without putting thought into it. We never have harsh words... but for some reason.. he doesn't take me out other than the usual outting for groceries. I think he's embarassed to be seen with me. He needs to think back at the 5 or 6 guys that got super pissed at him when they found out he was with me and I was no longer available. How quickly they forget.
This morning I told him that what happens when you take a woman for granted is that she either cheats, or leaves.... and it's getting to that point.
Topic: RE: Doc Visit: Blowing off Steam... starting over and over and over
Ty.... will have to muster up everything in me to get back out of the house today though. hahha..
I forced myself out of bed around noon... went to ship a couple of things I sold on ebay.. then I went to the gym. I drove there... pulled into the parking lot.. turned back out of the parking lot and came back home to my prison. It's nice and cool and dark and safe in here... although I know if I'm home, it means I have to do some work. Pffffffffffft..
First a fresh pot of coffee, 2 vicodin, 2 tramadol.. and a partridge in a pear tree.
God help me..... I gotta drive down to Augusta to deliver something to this lady for 6pm. He'll be home at 4.... wondering what's for dinner. For the first time in over a year.. THERE IS NO DINNER! Let him go catch some fish and eat that.
I forced myself out of bed around noon... went to ship a couple of things I sold on ebay.. then I went to the gym. I drove there... pulled into the parking lot.. turned back out of the parking lot and came back home to my prison. It's nice and cool and dark and safe in here... although I know if I'm home, it means I have to do some work. Pffffffffffft..
First a fresh pot of coffee, 2 vicodin, 2 tramadol.. and a partridge in a pear tree.
God help me..... I gotta drive down to Augusta to deliver something to this lady for 6pm. He'll be home at 4.... wondering what's for dinner. For the first time in over a year.. THERE IS NO DINNER! Let him go catch some fish and eat that.
Topic: Where is everyone now that summertime is here?
Things are getting pretty quite around here again, how is everyone doing? anything new to report? the kids and I have been busy finishing up end of school year stuff and summer activity planning,
today we have a birthday party
to attend this evening and then Fathers day weekend it busy busy! I hope everyone is well and achieving some great things in life and their weight loss journey, I personally still have not stepped on the scale
, I went through burn out and am still not ready to see where I am at??? I did however hit a very important non scale fitness goal that I set for myself, I ran on the treadmill at the gym 
the other day for 10 whole minutes without stopping!!! 
I cant believe it, I felt so accomplished! other than that I am not letting my weight loss journey "rule" me any longer, I took myself out of the line of fire
, putting tremendous amounts of pressure on myself and feeling like I had to do better than I already was, got me no where fast! well it did get me crashing head first into a block wall
, so lesson is being learned and I am trying a new less pressured more forgiving approach, and it is a lot more enjoyable
, and something that I know I can work with from here on out! so let me know how you all have been what are your plans for summer? anything fun?
today we have a birthday party to attend this evening and then Fathers day weekend it busy busy! I hope everyone is well and achieving some great things in life and their weight loss journey, I personally still have not stepped on the scale, I went through burn out and am still not ready to see where I am at??? I did however hit a very important non scale fitness goal that I set for myself, I ran on the treadmill at the gym the other day for 10 whole minutes without stopping!!! I cant believe it, I felt so accomplished! other than that I am not letting my weight loss journey "rule" me any longer, I took myself out of the line of fire, putting tremendous amounts of pressure on myself and feeling like I had to do better than I already was, got me no where fast! well it did get me crashing head first into a block wall, so lesson is being learned and I am trying a new less pressured more forgiving approach, and it is a lot more enjoyable, and something that I know I can work with from here on out! so let me know how you all have been what are your plans for summer? anything fun?
Michelle Hendrickson Holistic Health Coach http://www.gracioushealth.net
Topic: RE: Doc Visit: Blowing off Steam... starting over and over and over
Lori,
I want to recommend a great book to you, it is well worth it to get and use in your recovery process, it is called "Breaking the grip of dangerous emotions" and the author is Janet Maccaro PH. D. C.N.C.
She goes into great detail on how emotional depletion that leads to depression anxiety etc.. happen and how to find your way out of it. She talks about it from a spiritual standpoint, letting God bring the strength and ultimately the victory and even talks about Women especially investing so much in men to identify their own worth and value. This book has so much information in it and beyond that it is very comforting because she is now living in freedom herself having gone through severe depression and anxiety panic disorder. She is a nutritionist as well and so she has guidelines for healthy eating. Please consider getting this book, and using the tools in it add to your "tool box" still praying for you!
Michelle
I want to recommend a great book to you, it is well worth it to get and use in your recovery process, it is called "Breaking the grip of dangerous emotions" and the author is Janet Maccaro PH. D. C.N.C.
She goes into great detail on how emotional depletion that leads to depression anxiety etc.. happen and how to find your way out of it. She talks about it from a spiritual standpoint, letting God bring the strength and ultimately the victory and even talks about Women especially investing so much in men to identify their own worth and value. This book has so much information in it and beyond that it is very comforting because she is now living in freedom herself having gone through severe depression and anxiety panic disorder. She is a nutritionist as well and so she has guidelines for healthy eating. Please consider getting this book, and using the tools in it add to your "tool box" still praying for you!
Michelle
Michelle Hendrickson Holistic Health Coach http://www.gracioushealth.net
(deactivated member)
on 6/17/10 11:13 pm - Rochester, NY
on 6/17/10 11:13 pm - Rochester, NY
Topic: RE: Doc Visit: Blowing off Steam... starting over and over and over
OKAY! That prayer stuff is working already! That's the Lori I knew and loved....the one that decided enuf was enuf and "I ain't gonna put up with it no more!"
Time to be selfish Lori...If that's what you want to call it. To me it sounds like a VERY healthy choice in the right direction. Who deserves this more than you? And in my humble opinion, any man who takes you for granted and loses interest as the scale goes up isn't worth a grain of salt!!! (let alone breakfast in bed)
YOU GO GIRL....all in the right direction!
....Sherrie
Time to be selfish Lori...If that's what you want to call it. To me it sounds like a VERY healthy choice in the right direction. Who deserves this more than you? And in my humble opinion, any man who takes you for granted and loses interest as the scale goes up isn't worth a grain of salt!!! (let alone breakfast in bed)
YOU GO GIRL....all in the right direction!
....Sherrie Most Active
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