Naked pictures

Hi ladies, Haha, gotcha. No porn here!!!! This morning I had my other half take pictures NAKED of me. Ouch ouch ouch. I am starting some documentation for when I attempt to get skin removed. I have a consult for the arm lift on April 11. I know that I am not at goal, but I am a bit of a control freak (shocked huh?) and I have to see what he says. I saw a pic of arms that he had done and they were AMAZING. I won't be looking at these pictures. He is loading them onto a CD and labeling them. I may have to be either drunk or dead to really view them. But I wanted to document me at 102 pounds lost, and then when I get to my goal of 200. After discussing it with my other half I have determined that the next 40 pounds is really going to wreak havoc on my skin. I have to get to the doctor as well because that numb area where my right thigh meets my hip has gotten even worse. The skin is so heavy there that I think it is affecting the nerves. So when I get brave enough I will post the pics, but not until then. Donna

Donna, I've got a surgery date scheduled for March 31. That is soooooooooo soon. I'm having it all done at one time. Lower body lift, inner thighs, arms, breast lift/aug. Lynette

Hi Lynette, Congratulation on getting the plastic surgery! I am very excited for you. If you don't mind, would you mind telling me the details? Were you able to get insurance to pay for any of it? I have horrible loss skin and I still have about 50 -60 pounds to go. So any advise would be totally appreciated! Ann

Lynette, All at one time!!?!?!?!!? You are brave, so brave!!! I have been reading the PS board and they say that many surgeons won't do it all at once. I pray you are going to have some support. But in the end you'll get the whole thing out of the way. I'll be praying for you for sure. Wow, March 31, awesome!!! Donna

Cool Donna, it is always very exciting to hear about people getting Plastic Surgery. I see it like the last step to looking like the person we knew all along was inside! Please keep us posted on how it is going. BTW I love your postings they are very thought provoking and well written. Ann

Hi there Ann Thank you for the compliments on my postings. I think sometimes that I ramble, but I really find myself analyzing a lot of things that brought me to this point, and I always feel the need to share! I made an appointment with a surgeon for April 11, and another for a consult with a hospital in NYC that has a PS residency for June 27. I have to force myself to go slow, knowing what an incredibly impulsive person I am. I want it NOWWWWWWWW!!! Donna

Donna, I read your profile and I was amazed! I hope that is exactly what will happen to me - that I will get started and find that I can be successful. Did you see a huge difference in the photos from where you started? Nancy

Nancy, I see a huge difference in my pictures now, but it took about 80 pounds to get to that point. I really didn't see the changes, I was a lot more critical of myself not too long ago. I have begun to embrace my new body, but I fight it at the same time. I hate thinking that I am not the same person that I was, not wishing to abandon that person that was me for so long. But some changes are inevitable and I am finally accepting them instead of trying to ignore them. One day at a time, one step at a time. Conscious decisions made regarding food, real thought processes about control and what losing the extra weight means to all of us, and just perseverence is what really and truly helped me to survive and succeed so far. I wish you all the luck and strength in the world, Caroline. Donna

Hi Donna, Thanks for making me smile. Aren't you just a little curious about the pictures? I had a friend who is visually inclined take some pictures of me recently. I won't say whether i was fully clothed or not, so folks will just have to guess. The pictures came out beautifully, far better than I ever would have expected, since i am still very heavy for me. I keep looking at them, and they are encouraging, since i begin to see the person I would like to look like (and used to look like) emerging from them. Big motivator, actually. Now as for plastic surgery, you and Lynette are my hero[ine]s! I find it very scary. You are so smart to get all the information you can, as early as you can. While you are at it, can you ask what they can do for that horrible thing under my chin? Let us know how it goes, liz

Hi liz, Well, I am curious, but not looking to become suicidal at this point. I honestly took them with the objective of using them as medical documentation. I am discovering that I probably won't qualify for insurance to cover any of my PS, but heck, I'll deal with it when the time comes. I think pictures taken by someone who knows what they are doing can turn out beautifully. I have a very beautiful friend, over 300 pounds, who had pictures taken of her. They are gorgeous because it isn't the body you see but the person. We are always hypercritical of ourselves and what other people see and admire, we find appalling. I find myself constantly amazed by what my body has become after this weight loss. I remember about 20 pounds ago I was sure that my belly was going to come out of it the winner, not too saggy, skin not too low. Seems like overnight that it "softened" and suddenly bothers the heck out of me. But nothing bothers me as much as my upper arms. Oh My GOD!!!! They are downright pathetic. I have so much loose skin in my armpits and that blob of skin that hangs over my bra is something I can't wait to see gone. It's almost amusing the loss of fat in my breasts. They are actually almost hollow, a mere shadow of the 48DDD's they once were. Now at 40D I love them, as long as they are stuffed into a nice pretty bra although my boyfriend mourns their loss. I find it hilarious when I put my bra on and have to rearrange the nipples so they aren't pointing in different directions. I think it's important that we don't hate our extra skin, but find it a badge of honor. I don't want to be bikini beautiful. I just want this extra stuff off!!! I will find out about the "waddle" although I can say -- at least right now -- that I don't have much of one. Thankfully!!!!! I have an appointment on the 11th of April and another on the 27th of June. Have a beautiful night and I will keep you all informed. Donna