I didn't go....BUT...

..............don't be disappointed in me! I'm not disappointed. I decided that, realistically, at this stage, I am NOT able to do those 5 hour a day workouts nor the physical challenges that are required on that show! I decided that, if I was not going to go, I was also NOT going to live with regret so once my decision was made, I just accepted it! I still have the application printed out from the computer to mail in later if I should change my mind. So, I tried again on my own..................I went to the gym twice yesterday (and basically proved my point - 3 laps around that little track, 5 minutes on the exercise bike and a little bit of raquetball and I was whipped)! I watched the Steelers fight their way to the Super Bowl against the Broncos...........YIPPEEEE! And, I tried to eat right! I did pretty well at the eating right thing............until late at night! I was going to go to bed early.........but, after I got my little girl in bed I wanted some peace to read and watch a little tv. I popped some popcorn (almost harmless) but once I started eating it, turned into a ravenous pig! OMG! I ate a peanut butter sandwich and a leftover slice of pizza (that my daughter had brought home from work, I didn't order a pizza) and an apple/bran bar thing! I don't know what happens to me sometimes! UGH! But, today is a new day, I'm going job hunting and going to TRY YET AGAIN to stick to an eating plan! I put in my weight/height info on the Biggest Loser website and it said my goal calories are 2,495 a day to LOSE weight?????? I don't get it! That seems like a lot of calories! I got out my old "Food Mover" thing from Richard Simmons and looked at the 2000 calorie card.........that's a lot of food! So, I am looking at the 1800 and 2000 calorie cards and trying to build my eating plan on those! We shall see! Ya'll hang in there.......................as long as daylight comes each day, it means another chance! Kandy

Kandy, I am a huge believer in being honest with yourself. And if you know you can't handle the high powered workouts, then you can't. No need to apologize or feel badly about not doing it. That is YOUR choice. As far as what happened last night my theory is simply carbs. When you eat carbs your blood sugar skyrockets and your body craves more. It's rather simple. If you had had, let's say a cheese stick at that time you probably would have been fine. Yeah yeah, cheese stick or popcorn. What am I out of my mind?? And yes, today is another chance. Good lucky Kandy!!! Donna

Hi Kandy, I was going to reply to you on a message that i had posted and you had posted back to me, but decided to do it here Hang in there, dont beat yourself up too bad when you over indulge. I have found that once in awhile when i splurge, i start berating myself for it and it only makes me want to eat more. You have to start with a fresh attitude and tell yourself that you CAN do this. Attitude is everything when you are trying to lose weight and eat healthy. I tried a million times to lose weight before i finally started doing it. I would last for a few weeks and then get frustrated because i couldnt tell a difference right then.I finally had a breaking point that made me realize how much life was passing me by. I got to where iw ould barely leave the house and was so ashamed about how i looked that i never did anything. I would miss out on my neices school activities because i was afraid i was too big to sit in the chairs in the audiotorium, etc. One day she started crying and asked why i never came to her Christmas programs and never wanted to see her basketball games, etc. It broke my heart , and it gave me the will power to take control of my life again. I admit that it was very depressing to be on a diet for almost a year and loose almost 75 pounds and have no one notice! Ugh! I wanted to quite because i guess what i was lookingfor was a pat on the back and some recognition for my hard work. I have come to realize that the only recognition i need is from myself, because i am doing this for me and no one else. My entire life has changed since i have lost those 200 pounds ,even though i still have about 75 more to lose. You cant imagine how much i can do now and the things i have missed out on because i let the weight hold me back. Life is so precious to not give it your all each and every day. I still get really discouraged but i try to look at it like this...life is going to go on no matter what. The years are going to pass by and we cant stop them, but we can change how they pass by. I can keep on working at finishing losing theweight i need to, or i can give up and go back to how life was. It my choice and that scares me a little because sometimes i dont feel strong enough to continue. Then i look at a picture of myself back then and realize that i never wanna go back to that place again. I hated myself and everything in my life at that time.Eating healthy is going to be a constant battle in my life. Some people are addicted to cigarettes, some to alcohol or drugs....my addiction is food and it always will be. Try giving an alcoholic a drink three times a day and see how successful they are ...try giving a crack addict some crack to try once a day and see how well they succeed...its not gonna happen. Yet we have to eat, we cant stay away from food...so its hard...extremely hard to try to be successful when you have to be around your "addiction" every day.Anyway...i hope i have made sense and sorry to ramble....stick with it girl....you can make it happen

The reason why the calories to lose weight is so high is because of the extra weight you are carrying around. 1800 to 2000 is a good goal for maintenance when you're skinnier and for weight loss now. Think of how hard you work right now just getting around. When you are smaller, it won't be near as much work and you'll have to really step up the exercise. Keep up the good work. I know you are trying so hard. Caryl