School reunions - ever been to one? How do they make you feel?

In about 1 years time i have a school reunion to go to. Considering almost no one has seen me since school, i am freaking out about it. I know i could just avoid it and not go - but that is what i do with everything scary. I avoid it.

I REALLY want to go to this, i want to see my old school friends. This is our first reunion (10 years). I can not go there like this! I look back and see that the 10 years since school have all been wasted.

I want to walk in there a healthier version of me. I have gained around 115lbs since school, i was chubby all through high school and felt like a freak because of it. Never pretty enough, or thin enough, always shy. I avoided parties and social occasions, and never had a boyfriend.

I've missed out on those fun things teenagers do, and the adventures people have in their 20's. As i head into the late end of my 20's, my goal is to get this weight off by my 30's. I have been saying this my whole life "I have to lose this weight before i start high school", "I have to lose this weight by the time i turn 15, 18 , 21, 25" .... so on and so.

THE BUCK STOPS HERE!

I am 26 years old and my life is passing me by. I am existing, not living.

I am going to use my school reunion as motivation, a chance for a fresh start. When i walk into that reunion next year i am going to treat it as a sort of re-birth. I never went to any of the school occasions where we got to dress up and be pretty for the night.

I'm going to that reunion AND i am going to wear a dress, do my hair and enjoy myself!

Sorry for the rant. I have not worn a dress since i was about 11 years old lol. I just wanted to put my thoughts out there so that i can't pretend i never said it.

Thanks! I would love to hear any stories you have of school reunions and how they went.

 I went to my 10 year high school reunion 3 years ago, at the time I weighed about 300lb's I wish i had started losing the weight before then, I went and it was just ok, still a lot of clicky people some had matured but not all, a lot of my friends did not show, there was talk about doing a 15 year reunion which is in 2 years for me, I will go to that one and be at goal weight and look amazing! I too was big throughout high school, weighed about 280 when i graduated,  you have a full year to make great lasting and signifigant changes before then, I say go for it and have a great time, get all fancied up and enjoy yourself! dont let weight rule your life any longer, good luck to you on your journey! dont forget to post pictures of you in your awesome dress at the reunion next year!

take care!    

Thanks for the reply. I'm glad you still went to your 10 year reunion, it will make the 15 year reunion even sweeter when people notice the difference!

I think i will die of happiness if i get into a dress and it looks OK. Lately i have been visualising myself as thin, instead of thinking it will never happen and it is impossible, I'm trying to tell myself that it is completely possible and i should enjoy the challenge.

I once spoke to a man who lost a lot of weight and he told me he wishes he could do it all over again! I was confused but i think i know what he means, it is exciting to see yourself getting smaller.

 Congrats on your weight loss !!

 Visualizing yourself thin is a great way to start! gotta build the right belief system! Believe you can do it, then go after it! you can do it! we all can! 

My 20-year reunion (if we have one -- the school closed two years ago) will be this year, and I doubt I will go even though many of my classmates saw me in a national mag last year. I was very much loner and for the most part still am.

But don't let anything stop you from going if you really want to go. You'll be surprised at how many people are in the same boat.