I'm back...this feels like deja vu....

Hello everyone!! I'm back...fell off the wagon and it left me in the dust, but I'm finally starting to catch up with it again.   I'm back where I started at last year. I've gained back just about (if not all) that I lost in the past year. I'm once again trying to loose enough so I can fit comfortably on the train to visit my folks for Christmas. I'm starting Atkins tomorrow (I guess that'd be today since it's after midnight). I'm gonna try and follow the book this time, and I'm sure I'm gonna need lots of help with that part. I've been really disappointed with myself, I turned 30 in August, and I had hoped I would be alot smaller then last year, and I was the same size, if not a little bigger. So, I'm trying to do it without surgery, again, while I try and get approved. Still.

I hope everyone is doing great! It's nice to see y'all again, and to the new peoples out there, Hello! 

-Heather

It is like a ghost town around here isn't it?? Kinda scary!! This board use to be so busy!! I think a lot of people read and not post!Good luck with the atkins..you can do it!! If you have one bad meal..dont give up that whole day..start fresh the next meal!! dont ever give up..we can do this!

Thanks Stacey! I'm gonna try and remember to take it one meal at a time! I got up this morning and almost broke down already. I wanted some of my daughter's cereal. :-( I managed to resist, but it's gonna be a hard few days adjusting! 

Hey ya little Cutie Pie, how you wuz?  I missed the hell outta ya.  I've been wondering what you've been up to, apparently no good, but the main thing is that you are working on getting back on track NOW.  Again with that damned train, huh?  LOL

You know, whether you have the surgery or not, you are going to have to start working on controlling what goes in your mouth...and in your house, and in your car.  Junk begets more junk.  It makes you crave more junk which goes directly to the trunk which brings about swelling in the bedonkedunck.  Not good for train seats, don'tcha know!

I'm proud to hear that you are going back on Atkins, it was working for you as long as you were working IT.  Besides, if you do get approved for surgery, they'll put you on something similar beforehand to get your liver shrunk.  That's always a good thing no matter which path you follow. 

You need to stick around this joint whether you're being bad or the perfect "lifestyler".  There's something about talking weight loss that helps you and helps others to stay the course.

Loves ya girlee,

Mary 

Hi Mary!!!  I've missed you too!  Yes, that damn train again!!     It was good motivation last year, so I'm hopin I can stick with it again this year...and keep sticking with it!! I've been having alot of financial problems and stress, and I guess I was trying to smother all that with food.   I just turned off the part of my brain that tells me it's no good for me, and shoveled it in, not caring what it would do to me. I'm trying not to get down on myself for gaining back so much, because that is depressing. I'm gonna write down my food on here, all of it, nothing but the truth.

I had a wake up call, the other day my daughter woke up and told me she had a dream that I was skinny and could run around and chase her and play. I didn't know what to say about that, and it's been eating me up that  she feels deprived of what a mom should do. I want to be able to be that mom for her.

Anyway, how have you been?

I've been doing a lot better now that all of the drama is gone and things are getting back to normal around this joint. 

I'm going to Houston next week to visit with Kimmie and Trixie and Russ.  I can't wait.  We're billing it as the PS Ho's Convention!  Plastic Surgery Ho's that is.  Between the four of us, that's a whole lot of lifted toockuss going on!

Mary

Hey Stranger,

Sorry to break in on your conversation like this, but you just said something that really hit home with me.  The dream that your daughter had.  My heart just sunk when I read that.  I so can totally relate to this.  It's sort of bittersweet isn't it.

Hang in there girl.  Keep thinking back to why you are doing this.  I know I need to do the same.  Think that's why what your daughter said got to me.  My kids were the same way.  WHen I did lose a hundred pounds oncee I remember how in awe my oldest daughter was of me. She always told me that her friends thought I was a "hot mama".  She looked so proud of me. I'll never forget that. Now I don't even volunteer afraid that my kids will be embarrassed.  It's a shame!!

So hang in there and make not only you proud, but her! :)  Maybe we should buddy up or something when the goin' gets tough! :)  

Hi Holly!  How are you??
It totally broke my heart when she told me that. I wish with everything I am that I could be a healthy mom like she deserves. I'm ashamed to say that I've been weak, I didn't even last a whole day. It seems absolutly rediculous to me, when I'm on here and thinking about my weight and my goals, that I can make myself ignore my weight in favor of stuffing my face with candy and junk. I think part of my problem the past couple days is that I have no atkins friendly food in the house. I've been without a car for 2 months, and havn't been able to go grocery shopping yet this month. A friend is taking me car shopping tomorrow and then to the grocery store (i'm hoping I'll be buying a car tomorrow). I'm going to buy all atkins healthy food, and start back on tomorrow. I would love to buddy up together...the going always seems tough right now!! 

I AM SO SORRY TO HEAR THAT YOU HAD A SET BACK BUT THAT'S JUST WHAT IT IS ...A SET BACK...IT DOES NOT ELIMINATE ALL THE WORK YOU'VE DONE THUS FAR. IF ANYTHING, WHAT YOU WERE ABLE TO ACCOMLISH SAYS THAT YOU CAN DO IT...IT IS NOT OUT OF YOUR LEAGUE TO MAKE IT HAPPEN. I BELIEVE IN YOU, BECAUSE BELIEVE IT OR NOT YOU WERE A BIG INSPIRATION FOR ME WHEN I DECIDED NOT TO GO THROUGH WITH MY SURGERY AND I HOPE I CAN REPAY THAT FAVOR IN SOME SMALL WAY...GOOD LUCK ON YOUR JOURNEY AND I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT

Wow. Thank you! I am very humbled that I could inspire you. You are doing great with your weight loss journey. I am trying to remember that its only a set back. Thank you!