When will I learn NOT to do this?

Truemans_Mom
on 6/9/09 12:39 am - Edmonds, WA
I was almost within spitting distance of being under 200 pounds last week! And what do I do - sabotage myself. I have the basic understanding that there are issues around being a "normal" body weight but I really NEED to be not overweight for health reasons. And still I ate more carbs than I should have on the weekend and low and behold the scale went up - further away from my goal.  Now I'm kicking myself and working on getting back on my Atkins wagon so I can see that goal sometime in the near future.

Just shoot me now!  and put me out of my misery.

Jan

Neecee O.
on 6/9/09 12:45 am - CA
I will shoot you a hug! (((((((jan))))))

Please be patient and assess why you went off plan, then look for new strategies.

I think you are wonderful and determined and know that you will do this.

"The only way to keep your health is to eat what you don't want, drink what you don't like, and do what you'd rather not."   ~Mark Twain

phatpanda00
on 6/9/09 12:51 am - Middle, TN
VSG on 04/29/13
Hang in there Hon!  We all fall sometimes.  Just get up dust yourself off.  Forgive yourself and go on.  You will make it!
Non-op----288/196/175(Hw/Cw/Gw)
      
BigCityGirl
on 6/9/09 1:46 am - San Diego, CA
Jan,

Don't beat yourself up - we all go through all this stuff all the time.  Just get back on your program and you'll get to 199.  Let me tell you, that was a huge milestone for me.

I'm not sure I understand about  the issues you believe will be waiting when you have a normal body weight?  Speaking for myself, I have no issues being normal and I had tons (excuse the pun) of issues when I was obese - in fact, I was the queen of issues while obese. 

Some claim that they subconsciously or consciously avoid being thin out of fear.  I just can't relate.  I've been both places, riden that elevator to the top and down to the bottom more than a few times and I can tell you that there's no feeling like the teeling you get once you are normal again after being obese. 

The thought for the day:

THIN FEELS BETTER THAN ANY FOOD TASTES!
Surgeon: Joseph Grzeskiewicz, M.D., F.A.C.S.
La Jolla Cosmetic Surgery Centre
(deactivated member)
on 6/9/09 3:36 am
Ah Jan, I hope you're now back on the wagon. Don't feel guilty and try to enjoy yourself when it happens - just don't let it happen too often and get back on the wagon for the next meal. I don't know why it works this way, but when we set a goal like 200 pounds, it always seems to be very difficult to achieve that goal compared to setting a goal like 203 pounds.

Skylar
kitties4
on 6/9/09 5:19 am - Cleveland, OH
I definitely had issues when I was thin!  When I was in my 20s, I lost down to 108 pounds, and men were whistling at me on the street.  I got into an affair with a married man who was attracted to me during a time when I had low self esteem and would have sex just to get emotional attention from a man, when I really didn't want to have sex.

When I first went to OA seriously, I lost 70 pounds (on two strict diets, one after the other), and was married to my second husband, Bruce.  I got really, really vain about my body, was disappointed when it didn't have the same measurements that I did when I was 21, and kept the weight down for around two years by dieting and overeating, over and over.  I was paranoid the whole time, and did not understand abstinence or eating sweets in moderation at all.  Once my second husband had a kidney stone, I was terrified he'd die of the shock from the pain, so I started overeating continuously again and gained it all back in a year, plus more - I gained over 100 pounds back in one year!

I have sexual issues that are still with me to this day - I had earlier experiences with my parents that left me viewing sex as dirty, that left me feeling that my genital area was smelly and yucky, etc.  Getting thin did not relieve these issues at all - I still felt yucky about my own body.  I found out that being thin did not mean being well, at all.

Denise Phares/kitties4
mwy
on 6/9/09 8:13 am
Thanks for sharing with us Denise.  I have heard a lot of reasons that people have for not feeling comfortable losing the weight, but that was never one of them.  Very enlightening!

Mary
mwy
on 6/9/09 8:28 am
Bang! Female Gangster Now go eat a salad.   ROTFL

I'm telling you girlee, it's not you.  That Atkins Wagon is the hardest wagon there is to ride and I know better than anyone that they don't have much wiggle room in them.  Sometimes it ends up being you eat one innocent little thing and then DAMN...ya done fell out the back, and you're laying on the ground, licking your wounds and wondering what the hell happened!

You'll get below the 200 mark soon, just try not to think about it until you get there.  TRY being the operative word!  And don't be like me with my stupid hormones...get under and over and under and over the 200 mark three or four times!

Mary   





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