Feel like giving up
Ok, so i did good on saturday until the end of the night. Poor planning and running around all day, I stopped at mc donalds. but that was in the evening and all day I was good (i was really busy.) I did go get the spiral index card notebook to start writing down my food. we also went over a friends house and instead of eat the entire huge slice of carrot cake, one of my absolute favorites, I have 1/2 of it, had 2 glasses of wine and 1/2 a beer.
Sunday was my daughter's graduation.....again poor planning. we didn't leave our friends until after 12a...so I didn't do anything to my daughters hair! I had to wake up early (around 7a), take out ALL of her braids, wash her hair & I put it up in a ponytail and make little twisties. I finished with 1 minute to spare. I didn't eat AT ALL. then we went to the graduation which was almost 4 hours long. when we got out i was STARVING!!! my h was rushing because he knew we had a lot to do...sunday we do laundry and i go grocery shopping. being it was 4.... he didn't want to spend time at a restaurant. so we went to a chinese buffet! oh i did terrible!!! i was starving and grabbed every non meat item they had several times!! geez!!! so i got over it, we went grocery shopping came home, packed lunches, took care of the dog, bathed and put my daughter to bed...and started reading some more of dr ian's book. went to bed
today, eh.... I got to work, and i wasn't hungry. so i didn't eat. around 10/11 i started getting hungry so I ate 1 packet of oatmeal.....by 12:30 i was really hungry so i ate my noodles in a cup. by like 3 or so I was hungry but that was all the lunch i brought. someone brought in miniature hershey's. I had 6 of them. I started with 2....then 1 more....then 3 more as i was walking out the door. I picked my daughter up...but i really never ate a meal...so I went to burger king and ordered 2 orders of mozzarella sticks. then i got home...took care of the dog...blah blah...i cooked perogies . i had 6 or 7 of them!! i felt horrible. I also ate 3 tastykake peanut butter cakes... (before dinner). i also had 1 slice of watermelon and a rum & coke.
then i had the bright idea....let me at least do something positive. so i told myself...i need to do something so I did 30 mintues of exercise with a popular exercise "guru" ....now my tummy aches. but i did remember when i excercise...im not as hungry or dont have the desire to eat. so i'm planning to excercise tomorrow before i eat right after i get home.
In a whole lot of sense...i feel horrible that i ate soo much....especially now that i want to throw up.... but in another sense i'm happy i made a step to exercise. I love to exercise....once i get started....but starting was the problem. now that the endorphins came back while exercising...feeling that sweat...with the "one more set"....and the heavy breathing...it felt good. i was even thinking about getting some roller blades for the trail near my house.
ok....what a wishy washy update. i'm also proud i was honest. Im a perfectionist too...and usually when i do food journals that are not on "the plan" i dont tell the entire post. i guess posting this to everyone is a little therapeutic.... and now that i typed it...it's worse than i thought.
Sunday was my daughter's graduation.....again poor planning. we didn't leave our friends until after 12a...so I didn't do anything to my daughters hair! I had to wake up early (around 7a), take out ALL of her braids, wash her hair & I put it up in a ponytail and make little twisties. I finished with 1 minute to spare. I didn't eat AT ALL. then we went to the graduation which was almost 4 hours long. when we got out i was STARVING!!! my h was rushing because he knew we had a lot to do...sunday we do laundry and i go grocery shopping. being it was 4.... he didn't want to spend time at a restaurant. so we went to a chinese buffet! oh i did terrible!!! i was starving and grabbed every non meat item they had several times!! geez!!! so i got over it, we went grocery shopping came home, packed lunches, took care of the dog, bathed and put my daughter to bed...and started reading some more of dr ian's book. went to bed
today, eh.... I got to work, and i wasn't hungry. so i didn't eat. around 10/11 i started getting hungry so I ate 1 packet of oatmeal.....by 12:30 i was really hungry so i ate my noodles in a cup. by like 3 or so I was hungry but that was all the lunch i brought. someone brought in miniature hershey's. I had 6 of them. I started with 2....then 1 more....then 3 more as i was walking out the door. I picked my daughter up...but i really never ate a meal...so I went to burger king and ordered 2 orders of mozzarella sticks. then i got home...took care of the dog...blah blah...i cooked perogies . i had 6 or 7 of them!! i felt horrible. I also ate 3 tastykake peanut butter cakes... (before dinner). i also had 1 slice of watermelon and a rum & coke.
then i had the bright idea....let me at least do something positive. so i told myself...i need to do something so I did 30 mintues of exercise with a popular exercise "guru" ....now my tummy aches. but i did remember when i excercise...im not as hungry or dont have the desire to eat. so i'm planning to excercise tomorrow before i eat right after i get home.
In a whole lot of sense...i feel horrible that i ate soo much....especially now that i want to throw up.... but in another sense i'm happy i made a step to exercise. I love to exercise....once i get started....but starting was the problem. now that the endorphins came back while exercising...feeling that sweat...with the "one more set"....and the heavy breathing...it felt good. i was even thinking about getting some roller blades for the trail near my house.
ok....what a wishy washy update. i'm also proud i was honest. Im a perfectionist too...and usually when i do food journals that are not on "the plan" i dont tell the entire post. i guess posting this to everyone is a little therapeutic.... and now that i typed it...it's worse than i thought.
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