What Have You Done Today to Make You Feel Proud?

Thanks Mary...I had a session with my councilor today and shes sayin pretty much everything y'all are saying...she even asked what I thought about severing the tie to my dad...you and her are on the same wavelength! lol. I just don't think it's possible. I love him despite his faults, and jordyn deserves a grandpa. If I avoided him I would be giving up my mom too, and I can't take me and jordyn away from her...We talk alot, I'm the only one of her kids that does, my brother and sister don't want to make time, and as a mom myself now, I see how much that has to hurt her. I couldn't abandon her to dad. Thank goodness they live 5 hrs away I don't see him much...I'm hoping to coax my mom into a visit without him this summer...IF he'll allow her to go. *rolling my eyes*

I'm trying to pull myself out of this depressive hole I've let myslef sink to...I'm not back on plan yet, and probably won't be till 6/7 cause thats when  I'll have money for healthy groceries...till then we're living on the crap I have in the cupboards.

I'm glad I came back here...Y'all always make me feel so supportive, accepted and cared about!!
Thank You!!

   Well, if you can't distance yourself from him physically, maybe you could distance yourself from him emotionally.  You don't have to accept into your heart every negative thing that he has to say and let it affect how you eat.  When we are young and live with our parents, they teach us how we eat, so just know that he didn't do such a great job with teaching you to eat healthy himself so he has to take some of the responsibility for your weight now!  Sadly, we have to lose it all on our own steam...crap.

Being depressed now is only normal after all that you have been through, but it's times like these that will make your victory so much sweeter, so keep riding that wagon till the wheels fall off, Baby...then we'll just get you another one! 

Mary

Heather...been thinking of you since you posted this! Honey, just try to get thru each day as it rolls forward. Your daughter & school are number one...the other stuff will fall into place.

If it's any consolatioon at all, i have SO been where you are:  driving ****ty cars to work and school, so broke I was happy, dealing with alcoholics (i married mine, plus my dad was in the last stages of his alcohol abuse), eating crappy food, pretty much all of what you describe! You will get thru this. Meanwhile, it just sucks. Stay in the right lane, where you do the right things anyway, despite no money, no energy, not much. Right things that you do now, like getting to school, finding work, being a loving mama

I know you feel lonely without love in your life, but truly, right now, you are not ready for it anyway. I know it's hard to beleive, but men/love complicate things; for a lot of reasons. What I am really trying to say:  you would PROBABLY attract the WORST guy you could possibly find at this stage of your life - out of desparation, out of low self esteem issues, being broke.  You are SO vulnerable right now!!!!

You will be so lucky to find one who will be a top notch daddy & hubby. Just get yourself together and become the package on the outside that you ARE on the inside!

I wish you could move to Portland or Seattle - you don't need a car there:  you could ride public tranportation, finish school, live with another single mom and share babysitting...could you put an ad out in a trusted location????