What Have You Done Today to Make You Feel Proud?
We are FINALLY starting to feel like spring a bit, BUT the snow can still come down anytime. Snow hsa been melting like crazy, and it was actually 43 when I was in the car today. It felt soooo good! The lawn is very, very wet from drowning in the snow so it's definitely not time to be doing anything. We can't plant anything until May, usually everyone waits until Memorial weekend.
This week one of my boys turned 12 so we had a sleep over last night for him. Six boys and my youngest daughter who will be 9 this week. Boy that little girl stuck to those boys like glue. Scared the heck out of my husband of what is to come. The boys were boys, sort of entertaining to be the least. After overdosing on Advil it was actually sort of nice seeing them all hang out together. Now next Friday is the sleep over with a bunch of 9-12 year old girls!
I'm gaining my weight back again. I have been so out of it. I keep wanting to stop, but I keep making bad choices. I have noticed though that I miss my healthier foods a LOT. In fact, the past week I've felt literally sick and my stomach has been hurting a lot. Can't determine if it's the way I'm eating or if it's stress. I just bought me a big bag of spinach and some other stuff to start back on my drinks. I really miss them.
Isn't it weird how our habits totally rule our lives? Here I am MISERABLE right now. Stomach hurting, BAD heartburn daily, restless sleep, etc., and I know my body is needing good foods. I'm actually CRAVING good food. BUT, my bad habits are overtaking my judgment on eating anything good. Between that and stress, I feel like I cannot win. I hand it to ya strong people.
What made me strong was practice. If your bad habits are taking over your better judgement, then you are going to have to change them one at a time so they don't become overwhelming to you. Pick your worst bad habit and practice not doing it for twenty-one days. Maybe four weeks or six months may be more like it, but just do it till it's not bothering you not to do it anymore. Say for instance, not eating out of the house. Warning, you may have to take your food with you for snacks. But if you decide to do this, eat plenty of your allowed foods before you leave your house, take snacks and water with you and if you get hungry while you're out, try holding out until you get home. I know you love eating with your family at restaurants, but that leads to too much temptation to eat processed junk that is not on your plan, so drink your water or order a cup of tea, but just don't eat anything unless it's your snacks. Same applies to visiting family and friends, after a while they will get it whether they like it or not. But what do you care if they like it or not, you're in the process of breaking a bad habit!
Another thing, dieting while under stress is very hard, especially if you are an emotional eater. But here's the kicker, there is always going to be stress, especially the kind that you have no control over, so you are going to have to learn to deal with it in another way besides eating. For me that is doing something creative. You'll have to figure out what it is for you, but just remember, a cookie never solved one of your problems yet, so you don't owe it any respect!
Mary
"a cookie never solved one of your problems yet, so you don't owe it any respect!"
I love that! Think I'm going to use that one on myself. Last night we had no kids, well no little kids anyways. Perfect opportunity for movies or out to eat. Both revolves around food of course...both bad habits of ours. I was absolutely starving, so I picked to go get Subway real fast instead. I'm starting to eat there a lot. Think that is going to start being my replacement restaurant for all of my bad fast food joints I go too.
It was neat, yanno my 12 year old has food problems. He got to pick whiich restaurant we went to eat at for lunch on his birthday. Out of the whole town he picked Subway!! I was very pleased.
That is a good idea to totally cut out one of my bad habits. I actually only have a couple regarding to foods, but I do them a LOT.lol Restaurants of course is my number one fault. It's amazing though, I'm happy that I can say that I feel disgusted. My body literally hurts from eating badly. That is a good sign for me. To me, that means I'm already learning some good behaviors and know my body likes it. Even though I do love the bad stuff, think I'm realizing my body can't handle much of it anymore. FINALLY! Now if I can just stop the craving for it all. Once I eat it for a while it is extremely hard for me to stop. This is pathetic, but this morning when I woke up the first thing I thought of is that we have left over cake and chips! I am such a junky. I get such bad out of control cravings that continues when I'm eating the foods. Really makes me wonder if my son has the same problem since hehas no control. I'm sure its some kind of eating disorder. Pretty bad when you think of the stuff before you go to bed, and right when you wake up. Right now just writing about it my mouth is watering thinking I should go grab some before it's all gone. Thing is, no one else is eating it, so why rush? It's like I HAVE to have it. This is why I always compare food addiction to alcoholics. Reminds me so much of it. IF you don't have any, you will do fine. If you touch the stuff, it's like starting all over again!!!!
I really like your idea on just setting a certain length of time to avoid these places. By then I will end up being stronger and realizing I am doing better. I always lose when I stop eating out. My problem I'm worried about at this point is that I'm going on a weeks vacation four weeks. The condo we are staying at has no kitchen. I will be living off of restaurants. I plan on taking my vitamix with me to make my drinks and maybe some soups for lunch. But I will at least be eating dinner out nightly, with a few lunches. Sort of scared to make this commitment knowing this is going to happen. But on the other hand this might be the perfect time. Hmmm I just don't want to go out of control when I'm there if I haven't been around it for that long. Any ideas??
I know there are all kinds of theories out there whether or not people can be addicted to food or not, but I am a FIRM BELIEVER that you can. People don't get to be over three hundred pounds by not being obsessed with food and they just can't give it up even though their lives depend on it. That's addiction! You saying that you go to bed at night thinking about food and waking up thinking about food is definitely an addiction to food and I also believe that you have to cut out certain foods in order to gain control. Maybe your next bad habit to work on is cutting out all junk food. Make a list of all of your allowable foods and that is all you are going to eat. If candy ain't on the list, then you are done with candy. Ain't nobody evva said that was a food source no ways! Now if you HAVE to have a candy bar during your 21 day period, you are a worse addict than you thought.
And alla these crappy feelings you are having from eating crap....you need to whallow in them like a pig in **** so when you get to feeling healthy, you can remember these feelings and reflect on how you got them! You are what you eat and you feel like how you eat. Keep eating Almond Joys and you are going to feel like a nut.
Mary
Necee- Good idea on just trying to mainitain while on vacation. I'm just not in vacation mode atm, because I can't even seem to grasp myself on laying off the junk. But yes, I'll deff bring some soups and stuff to make my green drinks. My husband is a BIG TIME fasta food eater also, so that is no help. I'll have to figure it out though. I do like the idea of making a deal with myself on no fries, etc. before I even leave. That right there might help out a lot.
Mary-I'm doing just that, wallowing in the ****ha Although at the same time, trying to break these cravings. Yanno, I don't ever recall them ever being so strong! I have so far went into the ktichen and got two slivers of cake today. I don't even like cake that much etiher. It's just the sweetness I think that I'm aiming for in the cake. Been eyeing the chips too, haven't done nothing with them though.lol I hate birthdays, we have all six of our birthdays within three months. I need to get this stuff out of the house TODAY. The family is going to throw a fit, but I have to do it.
Sort of deja vu you telling me to make a list of acceptable foods, etc. I actually just started that last night. I decided I want to try to make my own plan and see if it works for me. I need to review it again though, before starting it tomorrow.
I would suggest eating 1/2 portions or better yet none of the obvious stuff: fries, desserts, cokes, candy.
You have a good idea to just take some soup or that type of thing!
"The only way to keep your health is to eat what you don't want, drink what you don't like, and do what you'd rather not." ~Mark Twain
on 4/19/09 9:49 am - NJ
I was blessed to have my weight loss story printed in a national magazine, and I have been sharing it with people who have been celebrating my success -- right now I've been around too many people who've been tolerating it (they've made me feel so bad I haven't even read the story yet).
on 4/20/09 5:39 am - NJ
Re the mag, I did receive some good feedback today ... so maybe all is not lost!
Andi had herself profiled also. Being so public does have its downside, but do try to enjoy the sharing of it all. More people far & away will be positively impacted by your story.
"The only way to keep your health is to eat what you don't want, drink what you don't like, and do what you'd rather not." ~Mark Twain
