Fear, Weightloss and the unknown

Hi Twilight,

I just saw this and had to post.  I've been lurking for some time now, just sifting through some of the posts today.

I for one know I'm not too comfortable in my own skin.  I hate it worth a passion.  I have been heavy pretty much all of my life, but have lost weight here and there through out the years.  I'm a definite yo-yo dieter.  So I personally don't see how anyone can be comfortable in this skin we are in.  It's suffocating, it's hard to breathe, we take extra meds, we can't play with our children or grand children, some of us can't even walk around the corner.  So I don't really get it why anyone would be comfortable like this.  Sort of sounds weird, but when I eat very light healthy meals for at least a week I can already start telling that my breathing gets easier.  I feel a little bit more energetic, and feel more alive.  If you have never felt "thin" before, just imagine feeling so light and free, to me that is what it feels like.  Not until you are heavy do you realize all the little things like bending down and tying your shoes mean to a person.  Most of us either have to sit down to tie are shoes, or don't tie them at all!  To me all of these little things is what "thin" feels like.  It's wonderful and one place I want to get back too! :)

I love that your father said that you were your own worst enemy.

Why do I think I'm still fat?  Simple....because I love food! :)  I will be the first one to admit that I love the crap out of fast food.  I love ice cream and I can binge on it like no other.  It's these habits and "comforts" is why I'm still fat.  I love the taste of food!

Why do I find excuses not to lose?  Wow...that is a tough one.I actually have no idea.  I guess it's the addiction, whether it be an excuse or not. Food is one that we have to eat, we have no choice.  It's not like alcohol or drugs that we can go cold turkey on.  The battle o dealing with f society in general, whether it be with family or friends is probably my biggest excuse.

That was a good one! lol  Made me really think!!

I'm not thin right now so I won't go over each of the remaining questions.  But I can tell you that for me it changes my WHOLE way of life!  The way I look at things, the way I feel, I'm more independent, I literally feel like I can take on the world.  One thing though is that I was never accountable for myself when I was thinner...maybe that is why I have always gained back??

Good post!!  Makes us think! hehe