I told my family today about wanting surgery.
I need to get this done. I'm terrified at failure, at being sick because of it, and at the same time I know I can't live this way much longer. It is way too depressing.
I'm happy that my parents were actually in favor of me doing this. I don't talk to them about my weight because it's caused so many fights in my family.... so, it was a huge deal to say something to them, but I thought they should know.
I don't know why I feel so alone right now. I need to find a support group here in Medford, Oregon that offers some insight.
I'm going to a seminar (for a surgeon that I can't go to because he doesn't accept Medicare), but I figure at least I could go to find out more info on the various types of surgery. Right now the DS sounds like what I think I want.
Thank you for taking the time to read.
Suzanne
Hi Suzanne! It is a big step to make that announcement. I support you in theory and urge you to get all the information you can get.
Jump on in and let us get to know you!
"The only way to keep your health is to eat what you don't want, drink what you don't like, and do what you'd rather not." ~Mark Twain
Good for you - telling your parents when you aren't certain whether they will support you or not is a giant step. So proud of you for taking it.
Don't waste your time and energy dreading the medicare process. However long it takes will just be increased by putting it off. Take off at a gallop and keep going 
It will be a grand adventure whenever it comes about. Patience isn't one of my "virtues" but sometimes (like now) we don't really have a choice. It is either "wait and see" or do without entirely. So however long it takes, it will be way sooner than if you do nothing. 
It is not up to anyone else to determine whether or not you are a failure - only you can do that. Know you are NOT a failure! 
