more on cheating...

...it occurred to me today that the answer to what to call may lie in WHY do we cheat.

So, I ask you:  why do you cheat on your WOE?

For me it's usually stress and depression. I can handle day to day stress alright: problems with the kid, finals or tough school work, fights with friends... but when family gets sick, or major things happen like my car dies, I just kinda lose it and turn to food to comfort me. And then, of course, my depression flares up cuz I KNOW I shouldn't be feeding my stress/feelings and I feel guilty and then I eat more for that momentary rush that all food addicts get after getting a fix. Then I feel more depressed, and I eat more and  before I know it I'm back in the frame of mind that "it doesn't matter, I'm never gonna be a healthy weight, gonna die of a heart attack before long anyway, so why not eat what I want?" Which I know is a crock of sh**  and by eating like a pig I'm making a self-fulfilling prophesy.  Boy, I have issues.

Sorry whats WOE ?

WOE- way of eating

Emotions..whether it be that I'm mad, depressed, heck even happy gets me excited enough to celebrate on occasion.  Stress is a big one also.

I honestly think my reason must be tied to fear of success in some way.  I have achieved large weight losses in the past (60,70lb) only to resort back to old habits.  Nutritionally, I know what to eat and what not to, I've been to enough behavior modification classes over the years to have those tools to change bad habits, I've even been in group therapy and learned the techniques to use to replace food for my emotional eating.  In other words....I should know it all!!

BUT....and that's a BIG BUTT  I always end up sabotaging my efforts.  I admit it's gotten more and more difficult as I get older to take the weight off and I've actually never dealt with maintenance in my lifetime.  Now I'm dealing with insulin resistance (self diagnosed) on top of it all.

That's why this time my goal is just simply to stick to the WOE I've chosen.  I guess I need to prove to myself that I can even do that at this point.  It's been 17 days so far, and every day that I add to that I feel a little stronger.  Every situation (like this weekend being away at my DGD birthday party) that I face a challenge (24 hours in the car traveling by myself) and make the right choices....makes me feel like I CAN do this.  I think for me...it's baby steps and taking just one day at a time.  Each day I feel a little prouder, a little less like a failure and a little stronger overcoming bad habits.

In other words, Neecee.....I have no idea what makes me cheat,  but just glad I haven't done so for 17 days!!  (Oh, by the way....forgot to mention I lost an additional 2lb last week for a total of 9 so far!)  260's....YEAH!

Ha! Read my post...I seriously feel like you do. Truth is, I dunno.

I've explored the fear of failure thing. I cannot really get behind that for me. I've self actualized a long time ago that I do deserve to be thinner - I work at it very hard.

I DO get tired - real tired - of feeling consumed by keeping weight off, let alone trying to lose more. But that IS an excuse, right. So effin WHAT I get tired. People in wheelchairs get tired of that and likely have no control over why they are in that chair. I CAN, I am ABLE to change my life.

The woman rarely at a loss for words (me) is just that!

Why DO I?

All I can come up with is that I am trying to train myself to better handle "those types of foods" that I know I will not avoid forever. Those foods have derailed me off many a plan.

No...better stated:  I allowed the allure of those foods to derail me.

For once in my life I feel like I have gained a semblance of control over foods that once triggered me to over consume them. With a few exceptions, most of them are really not worth going off plan for.

The terms "off plan" or  "off goal". It feels like no excuses, I am clearly not sticking with the goal of eating fewer quality calories in order to lose weight. That term says I deliberately chose to divert from the goal.

I like either term cuz it sounds temporary, b/c it better be. I accept that these foods cannot be consumed in a loosely defined amount or exposure.

Cheating on WOE - For me it goes back to the Weeze pitiful chain - if I don't plan properly I end up cheating. My kitchen is in full remodel mode right not - went down to bare studs in September and just got the last drywall up this weekend. Hope for cabinets and counters soon so for now I have this great excuse not to cook (or plan) and I feel lucky that I haven't gained more than I have since this mess started.
Now if I would just stay out of Trader Joe's I wopould not be tempted by the triple ginger cookies! That might help too, in addition to a fully functioning kitchen.

I cheat because of boredom, emotional stress, and plain and simple the food taste good... Changing your way of life is hard and we live in a society were good tasting bad for you food is everywhere we look. It is accessible and shoved in your face where ever you go. Bad for you food is also alot cheaper then eating healthy. Since there dollar menu was invented it is so much cheaper to spend $1 on a hamburger then $5 on a salad. Also have you ever been in a hurry and tried to look for healthy food you can eat on the go. It is few and far between when your on the road or late for work in the mornings, so we grab what is fast...