What did you eat today? 12/31

B: Coffee w/cream
S: Atkin's shake (1 carb)
L: 5 chicken wings
    3/4 cup chicken & broccoli (2 carbs)
D: Chicken Wings & Veggie soup (4 carbs)

Carbs: 7

Last night, my fathers and my sisters cars got broken into.  Not a good way to start off the New Year.  I feel scared to park in my own driveway now.  Granted I doubt the asshole who broke into their cars will come back to the scene of the crime and do it again, but I'm still scared.  This has never happened. 

Oh... And last night, after having a hellish day (thank you to Jonathan, my ex), I went to set up my pill containers with all my medicine.  Guess what?  I lost my entire bottle of Wellbutrin.  It was brand new - never opened.  And because my insurance just filled that prescription, they won't refill it until January 16th.  It'll cost me $240 out of pocket to get another bottle of Wellbutrin.  So I have to decide whether or not I am going to just stay off the medicine until January 16th or pay the $240 out of pocket and take the damn pills. 

I hate my life.  Hate Hate Hate it.

Wow, you did have a day.  If you don't want to spend the money can you call your doc and maybe they have some samples they can give you for two weeks?  My doc is always loaded with samples.  I bet if they have any they would give em to ya.  I don't know much about that drug in particular, but don't mess with missing two weeks.  You might start going through withdrawal symptoms, and it might not be pretty.  I would call your doc and ask about it.  Also..if you are stuck on buying it, maybe the pharmacy can just give you a two week supply instead of a month.  That might save you a little.  Today's a new day, hope it's a good one for you!

Hey Hol - Yeah yesterday sucked.  I was crying like a baby to my best friend Kevin last night.  Since Sunday:
- I found out that I scratched up my trunk REALLY BAD when it snowed - like we're talking 20 or more scratches to the point where I have to spend a good grand getting that repainted
- Weighed in at 269 - 6 pounds above my lowest
- Fought with my ex (and got no where)
- Lost my medicine which sets me $240 in the whole, not to mention the $55 it cost me to get the medicine I lost to begin with (so a $300 accident - good job Janina)
- Found out something is draining the battery on my car (because it won't let me go more than 14 hours without driving it, before the battery dies).
- Am now scared to park in my own driveway

Right this very second, my life is ****  And the whole "It could have been worse..." b/s doesn't work on me.  All I care about is that I had a horrific 4 days and I just want to curl into a ball and die. 

But I won't. 

Awwe Neen, I'm so sorry to hear about the cars being broken into.  My house was broken into once and I know what you are going through.  The police officer who came to our house was a friend of ours and he said that psychologist say that the feeling of being violated from having someone take what is yours, is the same thing that a woman goes through when she's been raped.  I don't think I felt quite that bad, but I do know that it took a while before I realized they weren't coming back.  I pray you get over this soon.  What I learned from my experience is that just because there are evil people in this world, if I let them affect my mind, then they are still robbing me of my peace.  

I hope your doc can get your medicine situation straightened out for you.  And as for Jonathan...I can see why he's your EX!

Mary 

okay, that is quite a eries of unfortunate events - but everybody is alive to ***** about it, right? Praise God there.

I have a feeling that this type of thing will be going on with all the economics down the ****ter.  My friends' whole neighborhood got cars robbed one night - theirs too, many keys in the cars so now they get to re-key - PLUS the little motherf*ckers took paperwork out of the glove box so they had to go down and do a stop pay on all checks, all credit cards. We need to all be aware without being running scared - all of us need to pray for awareness!

I got robbed in my apartment way back when we had a new baby and it really messed up my mind too for a long time - was scared to be alone at night, etc. Then, I was able to put it into persective and be grateful that we did not interupt the burglary - we almost did and took a turn to the store instead that night - we might have been killed.

Yeah, call the doctor's office and see if they can help at all. That is a real ***** - are you sure they got lost and not stolen?  think hard - maybe that would matter to the insurance company if you felt that was possible.

Go on and feel this anger, neen. Something good will come of it, even though you cannot see it just now. Just your turn to take an asskicking.

oh yeah, what I ate:

1 choc protein drink

snack:  hi fiber pb on celery + hi pro pretzels

Jumped for a half hour on a trampoline - full size- with grandsons. i was out of breath!

Donated blood, then had 12 oz tomato juice + 1 moss stick + 1 svg hi pro cookies

another high pro snack in a while here

Supper:  steak, salad out with buds

vodka and diet tonics all night long!

Hoopy New Year!

Janina....what a way to end the year!!  I'm sorry you're having such a rough time.  I'm recording this on New Year's Day so here's to a HAPPIER, HEALTHIER New Year filled with peace and joy for you!!

B:  1 egg and 2 oz. ground turkey
      1 cup steel cut oats
      1 cup LF plain yogurt
      1 cup blueberries
L:  1 cup Romaine with oil & vinegar dressing
      1 cup sliced beets
      4 oz. tuna
S:  couple of handfuls of mixed nuts
D:  4 oz. pork tenderloin
      1 cup steamed broccoli
      2 small red potatoes with butter
S:  small piece fruitcake (yes, I'm one of the weird ones that LOVES fruitcake)
      5 pieces Hershey almond kisses

Not the perfect day on my plan...had a few slips on day 2, but didn't go crazy and plan on being back on plan today (New Year's Day)

I went over my 34 points yesterday celebrating the new year.  I haven't used any of my extra allowed 35 points yet, so all is good.  Just wanted to make myself accountable for yesterday.

 47.5/34.....13.5 weekly allowed points used.